VIDUSHI'S STORY :
1. Clarity:
If you asked people , they would say she was selfish , self centred ,and cared about nobody but herself , she had her reasons mind you , not that she would ever justify herself to anyone .
However if there was one person she cared about , above herself it was Parth . He mattered more than anything , and everybody else .
When she noticed the tremors in his hands , she was horrified . It was like there was a mini earthquake in his hands , and he had no control over them at all. She had rushed to his side , anxious , worried and panicked . He had brushed aside her concerns , swatted her away like a fly . It had hurt especially when he said nothing when Sanyukta came over and expressed concern , not that she would ever admit it .
Others would say she was stubborn , she liked to think she was determined , focus driven . She googled , and read everything she could find about tremors in the hands . From the very simple descriptions ,to complex medical websites , she combed the web for any scrap of information .
When that wasn't enough , she went to the local library and borrowed tomes of medical books . She spent entire nights studying them , and making notes of what she should be looking for . Consequently she was exhausted by morning , but she dragged herself to class each morning , she had to observe and note down information about his tremors . She prayed like she had never prayed before , making all kinds of deals with God , if only Parth would be ok.
She was terrified by what she 'd read , and alternatively bugged, cajoled and pleaded with him to see the doctor at FITE.
For some reason he listen to her , but he would not let her come with him . So she stood outside the door , peaking in the cracks , and listening to all that was said .Her heart pounded, test , why tests , why wouldn't the doctor tell them what exactly was wrong " she wondered .
There was some murmured conversation , she could not hear exactly what was said , only something about " tests... Money .. Arrange .. Later .. Cannot .. Just medicine".
She seethed with anger , what kind of a doctor was he , weren't doctors supposed to be noble ?
Couldn't he arrange for whatever it was that needed to be done , and then take his damn fees? It was not like they were going to run away anywhere , they still had a whole year left at FITE.
He came out of the room , and she ducked into a hallway the last thing she needed was for him to notice her . It looked like it was up to her to do something ,because clearly the idiot could not be bothered about his own health.
She was beyond furious , Sanyukta and Kaustuki could do whatever they liked , why did they have to drag Parth into it ? If Kaustuki wanted to test Jiggy's love for her , she was welcome to it , but why did she have to cause enough of a fuss , to bring Parth into the drama ? In the beginning when she thought Kaustuki was really trapped underneath , she had worried about her room mate ,not that she had voiced her concerns . However when she realised it was just a test , she was livid . Their stupid test had caused tremors to appear on his hands , and had made Parth feel stupid , incompetent , incapable ,she had seen it on his face .
She had to do something to help, she could not just sit and do nothing , when he was in pain. She met the doctor , and the idiot man said something about patient confidentiality rules . So she lied , that she was Parth's fiance , that she was concerned about him. Her face was bloodless , and white with shock..The possible diagnosis terrified her . She took a deep breath in , she would not quit , not give up on him.
Outwardly calm and composed , she asked the doctor " what are the tests ? How much will it cost ?" , inside she was a trembling mass of nerves . Stunned she left the room.
Did "the bloody doctor think they were Aambani's children ? What the hell was she going to do ? Where was she going to get that money from ? She chewed her nails , and paced the hostel corridors .
She stopped , looking inside a fellow hostellers room , there with the windows and doors open , the stupid girl had just left her laptop and cellphone on the cot . Anyone could steal it . " Don't do it Vidushi , if you're caught , you're finished " cautioned the angel ,perched on her right shoulder .
" Arrey , if this girl is going to be so careless she deserves to have it stolen , besides you're doing this for Parth, not yourself . He needs treatment more than the girl needed her laptop , besides her parents will probably buy her a new one " advised the cheeky devil on her left. And if she was caught , she had nothing left to loose.
It was good thing she had learned dancing , quickly she jumped into the window , and grabbed the laptop , and mobile phone , and she was out soundlessly ,as she had entered .
These would pay for the first installment of the tests , but she had to find a way to finance the rest . It struck her that if one girl was this careless , others had to be too.
And so she began , attending classes by day , and a cat burglar by night , " chal Vidushi , engineer nai ban payi tho kya , tum ek achi chor tho ban sakti ho " she muttered to herself . She paid the evil doctor , and made him promise that he would not tell Parth who paid for the test , she didn't want her fiance to worry after all she added with sweet smile . Thank god the stupid doctor bought her story , and didn't ask too many questions , bloody money minded bugger .
When she was caught , it was not so much the consequences of her actions that worried her , but the fact that she would no longer be able to finance his medical tests. Even as he dragged her to the dean's office , she wondered why she was doing this .
She was throwing away her entire future , for a guy who regarded her with nothing but disgust, disappointment , he made her feel like a worm sometimes . But despite it all she loved him , and that, she thought was all that mattered.
She was relieved that she was not expelled , now she would find some other way to get the money . Looking back , there had been a knowing glint in Vardhan sir 's eyes , almost like he knew why she stole in the first place . She chuckled , that man was truly a genius , assigning her to work with Parth to pay off the money!
She had felt bad leaking the questions for pkc's paper . It was like stealing candy from a child , the poor man ,had left the exam paper on the desktop , she hadn't even needed to hack anything. Which was why she had not leaked the whole paper , she had her own moral standards , something no one seemed to understand .They were all so eager to think they were above all that , and yet here they were waiting up to buy the questions , bloody hypocrites.
He was pissed at her again , calling her all kind of vile names , clear disgust in his eyes , venom in his voice . It hurt, and not for the first time she wondered if she should try and forget him , surely he was not worth this amount of pain. Then she saw his hand quake slightly , and noticed him stuff his hands into his pockets defensively. She knew for her , there was no escape , she was irrevocably in love with this fallen angel .
She wanted to soothe his hurts , protect him , glue back his shattered soul , no matter what the price .
With absolute clarity she knew ,for him,she would walk barefoot to the ends of the Earth on hot coal.
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