ARSHI FF : My First Love...~THREAD 3~Chapter 51~Pg138~17/12 - Page 91

Arnav : Yeh tumhaareliye bahot asaan hai na ? [ This is very easy for you , isn't it ? ] 

I looked at him . With my red eyes . Is it really easy for me to leave him ? 

Khushi : I .. I ?. Don't..

Arnav : You what Khushi ? You what ? 

He said with so much of emotion . With his moist eyes . Not moist but teary ones . He is blinking to stop those tiny droplets from making their way out . 

Khushi : I .. I'm ... 

Arnav : Why do you do this all the time ? Why ? Do you even know how I spent my day and night without you ? I became powerful in front of the world but I'm very weak Khushi ... I'm far away from everyone . I distanced myself from everyone living in your love , in your dreams . 

He said breathlessly . I started to weep more and more . This is the saddest day of my life .. He loves me so much ! But his love for Swathi , I saw it with my very own eyes . 

Arnav : I love you Khushi . 

I looked into his eyes and fell to the ground . I couldn't stand anymore . My knees weaker . I lost all the strength. 

I covered my face . Sobbing , lamenting and what not ? 

Khushi : Let me go ! Please ... 

I managed to say in between the sobs . 

Arnav : Did you leave any option ? 

He said , hurt . 

I looked at his face which turned pink with all the pain . We kept looking at each other . My heart was bleeding seeing him so hurt for the first time in my life .

After a while , I got up . I turned to leave and he didn't stop me . He didn't ! If he had stop at that moment my life would take a turn - which he wanted . But he didn't stop me . He didn't . 

And I wanted him to stop me . I took slow steps ... A turtle is faster than me - 100X times faster than me . 

" Why should he stop you ? Why can't you stop yourself and embrace him ? "  

The answer is , I don't want to stop because I am the one who took this decision . I'm bound to do all this ! Not him ! He can stop me and plead me not to go instead asking me the reason ! 

I reached down lifelessly . 

Anjali : Khushi ! 

Payal : Khushi !!! Why is your face so red ? You cried so much ? 

They hurried to me. Both of them caught either of my shoulders and jiju cupped my face gently . 

Anjali : Did Chottey hurt you ? 

Why does everyone think that Arnav can only hurt me ? In fact he was not angry today .. I expected him to be very wild , break everything , hurt me brutally and mess up my life. 

But he didn't do any of those things . He himself is hurt now . I'm worried if he would hurt himself . 

Khushi : He is not that bad bhabhi . 

I looked at her blankly and stated . 

She left my shoulder .

I want to go home . I don't want to be here . I seriously don't want to be here .  

Khushi : I want to go home . 

I said . I know , initially Amma and bua ji wanted to be with jiji . But  I'm very selfish now .

Amma : What are you saying ? Don't you want to be with jiji ? 

NK : She needs some fresh air Aunty ! 

Akaash : Let's take her to the garden then . 

Shyam : It won't help . It will make things worse for her . Take her for a drive NK . A small one . 

NK : Let's go Khushi . I'll get my car keys . 

He said and left . They made me sit . What about Arnav ? No one cared for him ? If I was like this - lifeless . He would be even worse but who cared ? I want to shout at them and ask them to check how Arnav is ! But no , I couldn't . I'm stuffed up with guilt . 

Aunty : I'm going to my son . 

Aunty said with a low tone . She got up and went to his room . I too got up . I saw her entering Arnav's room .

I stared at that room for a while . 

Khushi : I'll be back . 

I said . I barely could hear myself . The women tried to stop me . 

Uncle : Let her go . 

He said ... 

I took steps towards the room . I stopped near the doorstep . I bent a little to see what's going on ? 

I saw Aunty sitting on the bed and Arnav is sitting down , his head laid on her laps , his arms curled up around  her waist . I saw Aunty crying . Her face is pink ! I didn't see Arnav . His face was turned to the other side . 

Arnav : Kyun Ma ? Voh mujhe chodkar kyun jaa Rahi hai ? Main uski Bina Nahi reh sakta ma . [ Why mom ? Why is she leaving me ? I can't leave without her ! ]

I could sense his voice . He cried ! 

Aunty : Chod do Arnav . Voh tumhaare layak Nahi hai . [ Leave her Arnav ] 

I turned back .

Arnav : Nahi ma . Main uski layak Nahi hoon . Maine bachpan mein jaanpoochkar uski pyaar ka avmaan kiya . Voh har roz Meri waje se roti thi . [ no mom . I'm not capable of her . I deliberately hurt her in our childhood . She used to cry because of me everyday ]

I slid down , with the wall supporting my back . 

Aunty : No Arnav . You asked her hand in marriage now . Still she is not accepting you . She is not applicable for you Arnav . Leave her . 

I silently cried in my heart . I covered my mouth so that I can stop myself from crying out loud . I saw Nanhe ji standing there with his keys . I shushed him . I got up . 

He led me to his car . He made me sit down comfortably in his car .  I stared to cry harder and harder . I was crying like a kid who lost everything ! I seriously lost everything . Aunty who loved me the most is hating me . She is not happy with me . And I'm hurting Arnav ? Why the hell I'm so egoistic ? Why can't I marry him ? Why can't I give him one chance to prove himself ? 

Why ? Why ? Why ? 

NK : Shh .. Strawberry.. Everything will be fine . We all will move on and have a nice chat on this incident . We all will cherish this saddest moment after few years . So don't cry . Please for me . For your chocolate ! 

I looked at him . His one assuring smile is enough for me to get some unknown strength filled within me . I managed to smile . 

My sobs reduced to hiccups . I drank some water and Nanhe ji gave me some chocolate . So that they would stop . 

I slided the window . The fresh spring night air entered the car . Nanhe ji turned off the AC . I put my head outside-partially . My hair locks tickled my face . I always believed that this air will change my life with its strong invisible currents . And I still do . I closed my eyes and recollected those moments I spent with Arnav , not ASR . 

An alone tear rolled down . I wiped it off before Nanhe ji sees it . I don't want to let him down . 

I closed my eyes again . I slowly felt slumber taking over me . I dozed off to sleep . 

Nanhe ji waked me Up . I woke up lazily and took unsteady steps . Nanhe ji looked at my steps and warned me to walk properly . Jiji took me to the guest room and I dozed off to sleep again .

Amma : At least change Khushi . 

Khushi : Please Amma . 

I pleaded and slept back . 

I felt something in my sleep . I opened my eyes and looked towards the window . I saw Arnav looking down at me through the balcony of his study . 

I got up slowly and saw Amma , bua ji beside me sleeping peacefully . We kept looking at each other . There was hardly any light in there but still we could see each other , deeply . Very deeply . 

I got up to change . I took my hand bag and took my clothes outside . I saw Arnav who was standing with his hands in his pocket , he saw me and my clothes . He turned around . Like a gentle man . I genuinely had a small smile on my face . I went into the dressing room and got changed into my night suit . 

I came outside and saw Arnav standing in the same position .  I folded my arms with a big smile than the last time . 

He turned slowly not before checking my presence with his head slightly turned . Now we could actually have a clearer view of each other . I folded my arms and his hands still in his pockets. Don't know for how long we kept standing there and looking at each other with no expression on our faces . 

Amma : Khushi ! 

Amma called me in her sleepy voice . 

Khushi : Ma .. 

 

Amma : What are you doing ? Come and get some sleep . 

Khushi : Coming . 

I saw her closing her eyes again . I turned to Arnav . He gestured me to sleep through his eyes . I nodded a no . 

I felt him saying . I couldn't hear but I did feel it . 

I asked slowly . I myself couldn't hear my voice . 

He again signalled me to sleep . 

I turned around and laid on the bed turning towards him I couldn't see him properly . I closed my eyes . After a few minutes I opened my eyes to see if he was still there standing . 

He was not there . At least he went to sleep . I closed my eyes . 

I had a relaxing bathe . I dressed up myself in a baby pink churidar . It made me look more dull . 

Everyone were nice to me except for Aunty . She is very angry with me ... I don't know why ?is it because I I'm leaving this city or that I'm leaving her son here ? 

I had my breakfast along with the entire family . Arnav was there too . He was very dull . He immediately left for his room after the breakfast . 

I came to the hall . 

Manik and Aisha were fighting so much over who is stronger . Men or women ? 

Khushi : Obviously women Manik ! We are very strong . 

Manik : Is it so ? Then why did Aisha lose just now in tug of war . 

Aisha : You cheat  . Masi he very baad . 

Aisha pouted very cutely . 

Manik : So maami you have a match with maamu . 

He pointed at Arnav who was climbing  down the stairs . He was surprised at first then later . Accepted it   .. But I'm still in a shock . 

Arnav : Prove your self that you are strong enough Khushi . 

Khushi : I am strong enough to make you lose . 

Arnav : Prove it . 

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