I love you now for what we've already shared, and I love you now in anticipation of all that's to come. -ISHRA
*Home Sweet Home. As I was away on short 3 days getaway, I will not only share my thoughts about yesterday's episode but also on the other past episodes from this week.*
The HUG was INTENSE. With the pouring rain, in the middle of a pathway surrounded by buildings, dirt and their so called dislike for one another the HUG emerged like a PURE WHITE LIGHT, breathtaking to behold. *The HUG seemed so darn real that I had to remind myself not let DIVAN take over my love&craze for ISHRA.*
Ishita did feel something, though she very well knew that Raman could not have hugged because he was in love, somewhere her heart chooses to believe he was because she did not know about Ruhi and if you truly don't even have .01% of feeling for someone you wouldn't have just let them hug you & say 'I Love You' instead Ishita should have actually pushed Raman away. I'm sure the grip wasn't that hard and her sort of trying to free from his arm from her showed no major effort. In fact with the so called effort she put in to break away could not even have killed an Ant.
My take on Ishita's Reactions during the HUG; "I Love You Ishita". She paused, as if trying to organize her chaotic thoughts. "I didn't want to fall in love with anyone, especially not with him," she thought to herself. "I'm not ready for to fall in love, or even be anywhere close to love, not with anyone and definitely not with him...him... BUT maybe I am ready...to be in love, fall in love or whatever you call this 'feeling', maybe I am ready..only with him though. Whether her hands were trying to push him away, hug him back (whatever it was), however her heart had hugged him long back.
Raman hugged Ishita for Ruhi, but what I'm left wondering is why the hell he pushed her after that?(According to the spoilers) He could have lightly shove her or better still pushed himself away from her, there was no need to push her away unless something had been ignited in him which I felt was quite evident in his expression during the hug. It wasn't the I think some spark has been ignited within me sort of expression, it was a very blank expression but if closely seen perhaps with your heart, the blankness was filled with doubt, with an confused emotion, with [what have I done?, what should I do? Is this right or wrong? Why did I do this? Can I do this? What will happen after this?] questions. A blank expression yet it spoke a million words.
My take on Raman's actions during & after the HUG; As the sky grew darker and the rain got wilder, without either of them being conscious of it, they slowly began to regain the Bond of Familiarity, that they thought never existed between them. While he was glad that these bouts of anxiety no longer overwhelmed him, it also meant he was getting comfortable here, and that scared him. Because being comfortable meant he might lower his guard and he could never let that happen.
Back to reality, Raman will regret what he done to Ishita in his attempts to get Ruhi back. In order to gain Ruhi's trust, he is breaking Ishita's trust & this will come back to hunt him when he is TRULY MADLY DEEPLY IN LOVE with Ishu. [Will further elaborate on this after 10th April's episode.]
Past Episodes:
To me, 'Parents' are just a way for God to shower his Blessing&Love upon us everyday, every minute, every second of our life and this why YHM's episode 93 will always be close to my Heart. The Bond of a Parent-Child could not have been portrayed any beautifully than this. It was an out of the world episode with EXTRAORDINARY performances from Ishita-Ruhi & ToshiJi-Raman. No matter how old we are, 6 or 60 we will always be a little kid in our parents eyes & there is no place I would rather cry than on my Mother's chest with the sound of her soothing heartbeats.
Raman knew it wasn't fair, he should have never done what he did to Ishita at the restaurant, he knew it was wrong, but he couldn't help it. And after a while, the anger he felt just sort of became part of him, like it was the only way he knew how to handle the grief. He most certainly didn't like who he had become, but he was stuck in this horrible cycle of questions and blame. But finally he has decided to break out of the vicious cycle that had been consuming his life all these years. That in the end, people who are grieving have to want to move on than that first step, that motivating spark, has to come from within them. Nobody can help you move on, unless you are wiling too.
No matter what, in the end, you should always do the right thing even if it hurts & you did Raman, finally you did. The emotional breakdown with his Mom, all his bottled up feelings flowing out as tears, cleansing whatever bits & pieces that was left of his past. *It might justify his terrible behaviour in the past to only an certain extent.* Ruhi should be showered with Happiness, Love, Affection & Care from her Father not because it's the norm of what a Father should do but because Ruhi DESERVED all of that. Finally it had strike Raman, though It should not have been done at the expense of Ishita. If you guys remember in the past, whenever Ruhi felt like she had done something wrong, she will always say 'Sorry' though most of the times it's never her fault but still she would. Raman could have just simply said 'Sorry' to Ishita instead he came up with his own reasons to why he should not say the sorry & the reasons indirectly sort of blame Ishita. Seriously, only Raman is capable of such things!
*Yes, I'm selfish therefore I'm not going to deny that through this whole 'cooling down Ruhi' we have got lots of cute ISHRA moments & as a sucker for romance I'm over the moon with ISHRA's adorable moments BUT as a practical Woman I'm forced to think that though these moments were sweet it was never done out of true feelings, in fact forget about feelings it wasn't even done out of any respect. To put it bluntly, It seemed like Raman was trying to get Ruhi to sort of buy him back through advertising his fake love for Ishita. Feelings have been turned into commodity over here. If Raman thinks that by doing this "I Love Your Ishima' drama will get Ruhi back, he will...BUT for how long? To be honest, Ruhi is better off knowing that her Parents are not in love than one day coming to know that her Parents are PRETENDING to be in love.*
These Bhalla's [expect PapaJi, Rinky & Romi (not sure when this bugger will change given the prospects of how the show is progressing)] better start respecting Ishita if not as a daughter in law than at least as a human being. Ishu hadn't chosen this life; it was the only life offered to her but she was determined to make the BEST out of it. But that doesn't give anyone the damn right to treat her like a piece of meat. [Will further elaborate on this after 10th April's episode, the bhalla's are going to be stripped naked of the animalistic attitude & behavior in my post. Showing NO MERCY!]
Curse my over Imaginative Heart> With the jealously track of Shagun coming into place, this is what I wish for Raman to say [in my terms, CVs can gladly take it if they want too, no copyrights issue from my side, will be more than happy] when ISHRA is head over heels in Love. In the Future, Shagun will definitely try her tricks on Raman & we all know that there's no way he will ever fall for that. But instead of shouting at her or arguing with her, I would really like Raman to put Shagun down in a Subtle like Powerful way.Raman: You know Shagun, watching you walk out of my life did not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather it made me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right person comes along. Thank you so much Shagun for walking out of my life, it's only because of you, I found my true love, where my heart truly resides and who I want to spent the rest of my life with, Meri Jhansi Ki Rani Meri Ishu."
*I've drawn out a progression timeline for ISHRA's relationship status. I believe that there are 4As which are important in improving a relationship.*
1st: (A)ttention - [Both Raman & Ishita have gotten enough attention from one another.]
2nd: (A)ppreciation - [Both Raman & Ishita... hold on.. more like RAMAN SHOULD LEARN TO APPRECIATE ISHITA.]
3rd: (A)ttraction - [It is already there but both are always in their 'denial mode' they need to shift to the acceptance mode. They shall...they will.]
4th: (A)ffection - [Ishita does have .05% of affection on Raman though she might use the whole 'Sirf Ruhi' as a reason but Raman is at -.100% though I'm sure this will change maybe not too soon, however slowly but surely it will become .100% full fledged AFFECTION from both of them.]
*Maybe should print out this chart and paste it in ISHRA's room.LOL*
With Love,
Shiva❤️
P.S. Sorry the SUPER LONG post guys!
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