CHAPTER THREE In a dark room we see a shadow on rocking chair lost in thought's rocking to n fro.. The room was not lit.. The room's curtains were drawn n moving to n fro as the room was airy n the windows were open n the light that lit room was moonlight that was coming through window pane.. Person's MV: "Jindagi hume kitne hi mode dikhati hai.. Kavi zindagi var ki khusi deti hai toh kahi zindagi varka dukh.. Hum agar angaro pe chalke zindagi k imtehan se guzarte hai toh aur mazbut ho k uthte hai yahi sikh hame duniya aur hamare bade sikhate hai.. Magar yeh koi nahi sikhata ki jab un hi raho pe chalte hue hame kuch apno mein se chunna padta hai toh jo dukh hota hai usse kaise kum kar sakte hai.. Zindagi hume sab sikha dete hai magar yeh khalipan ko varna kaun sikhata hai.. Zindagi k is khel mein hum kai chahe unchahe decision lete hai.. Jisse kai zindagiya judi hoti hai.. Ek galat faisla aur zindagiya barbad ho jati hai.. Mujhe zindagi ne kai bar aise mode pe lai hai aur maine decision liye jo har baar sahi raha hai.. Magar jo maine 3 saal pehle kiya usse maine mujhse jude har insaan ko todke rakh dia.. Ha mere us faisle ne na hi main khush hu na hi woh na hi mere apne.. Mere apne jinhe maine apne aap se upar rakhha.. Apni har khusi ko daw par rakhke khush rakkha unhone mujhse meri zindagi k sabse badi khusi chin li, mera pyar mujhse chin liya.. Main vale hi unke sath hu magar woh mere gunehgar hai.. Maine kavi koi cheez nahi manga jo vi mila usmein santust hoti.. Kavi koi chiz k liye zid nahi ki.. Woh pura na kar sake yeh nahi tha.. Akhir main ek royal family se hu aur is baat ka mujhe garv jaroor hai magar guroor nahi.. Mere ma aur papa main jab choti thi tab accident mein chal base.. Mujhe aur aryan ko mere dada dadi ne pala.. Mujhe civil services mein interest tha toh maine life mein pehli baar unhe apne sapne pura karne ki permission mangi, joh unhe napasand tha.. Magar maine har na manke apne balbute pe police academy mein join kia.. Main kaha har manti.. Maine jo vi training hui apni ji jaan se ki aur select hui.. Maine apne dadu ko bola.. He just coldly said main jyada din nahi tik paungi magar maine har nahi mani.. Maine ji tod mehnat karke wo mukam hasil kar liya jo mere umar ki ladki k liye impossible hai.. Magar maine apni mehnat aur lagan se yeh mukam hasil kiya.. Main etf chief appoint hui that too in bangalore.. Mera ane ka koi fixed time nahi tha.. Main har baar time fix nahi karti thi.. Aise hi jab main aa rahi i got to know about rave party n decide to give a bang entry.. Jab maine us ladke ko shoot kiya woh log hairan they.. Unko vanak tak nahi thi ki woh kise custody mein le rahe the.. Uski aakhen maine har pal mujhpe mehsoos kiya.. Jab comm sir aye toh main aur nahi ruk payi isliye main bahar ake sabko meri pehchan batayi toh maine sabke chehre pe hairangi aur garv dekha mere sath kam karne ka mauka jo mila.. Sab mere sub ordinate they.. Woh aur uska dost bahut achhe officers hai.. Uska mujhe dekhna aur stupid si smile dena.. Uska case solve karne ka tarika.. Dosto k sath masti aur kam k waqt ek strict senior tha.. Kavi kavi hamari ladai hoti thi.. Hum achhe dost ban gaye waqt k sath.. Na jaane kab ek anjaana rishta jud gaya.. Ek anjaana ehsaas judne laga.. Ek case k doran usne apni jaan ko daw pe lagaya aur mujhe uspe gussa aya aur fikar vi hui.. Jaise mera bohot kimti chiz khote khote bachi.. Usse baat nahi kiya maine avoid karti rahi usse.. Woh ladkiyo k sath flirt karta mere attention k liye magar mujhe jalan hoti vi toh nahi dikhati.. Mujhe pata tha ek din woh mujhe puchega.. FLASHBACK: Ek hafte se main usse avoid kar rahi thi.. Ek din jab main office mein enter karne wali thi i saw a girl proposing him.. He had blank face.. I felt shattered.. He saw me n i just left with hurt face.. Main usse kisi aur k sath nahi dekh payi.. Main apni cabin mein jaake bohot royi aur do ghante baad when i was out i had blank face jo usse irritate karta tha.. Jab sab log jaane lage i stayed back.. I thought i was alone but no.. I went to pantry to have coffee jab usne mujhe apne cabin mein khicha i knew yeh hoga.. He asked, 'mujhe avoid kyu kar rahi ho.. What did i do damn it.. Aisa kya kar diya maine bolo..' i just gave cold look aur jaane lagi tab he jerked me back.. I looked into his eyes.. It had spiral of emotion.. He again asked in a husky voice which melt me inside, 'akhir aisa kya hua mujhse jo mujhse aur khudse bhaag rahi ho?? Mera kasoor kya hai batao..' that's it i blurted out every pent up emotions.. I said, 'tumse koi galti nahi hui hai.. Galti toh meri hai.. Meri feelings meri friendship mein la rahi hu.. Jab tumne apni life ko khatre mein dala i was like meri jaan ja rahi ho.. Main tumhari jagah pe hu.. I couldn't stand that.. Meri feelings meri friendship ko ruin kare i can't tolerate that.. Isliye mera tumse door rehna thik hai.. Main nahi chahti meri friendship tumpe bojh bane.. Maine joh kuch vi kaha vul jao..' n turn to leave when he hold my wrist n in a low voice said, 'do u love me??' n repeat it again as i didn't respond n i nodded at last.. Mujhe laga woh naraz hoga magar uske baad joh hua main hairan thi.. He jerked me back in his arms n kissed with all love passion longing n all pent up emotion.. I kissed him back with all i had for him.. He seperated when it was difficult to breathe n whispered what i had yearned to hear, 'i love u idiot.. Don't ever do it to me again otherwise anjaam achha nahi hoga got it..' n kissed me again n that day i got my first n true love.. Fb end.. Magar joh hum chahte humesha humein woh mile jaroori nahi.. Mere daduko yeh baat chali.. He didn't approve it.. I revolted against him.. Unse baat karna band kar diya.. I tried to persue dadi.. She was helpless.. Ek case k dauran we had to go to my palace.. All were shocked to see my richness.. He was astonished but he just gave me a smile.. Us case k dauran my dadu never left any chance insult him directly or indirectly.. Uski patience dekh k i was amazed.. Jisska impulsive behavior dekha ho woh itna patiently sab kare it was amazing.. I had enough of dadu.. So after case was solved.. We headed back to our office.. All talked about my background.. I apologized for my dadu's behavior.. He was ok with it.. He had to go for undercover mission in a week.. I got a call from dadu ki agar main apne pyar k career ko bachana chahti hu toh i have to leave him.. I denied but was afriad as i know dadu jo kehte hai karte hai.. I was tensed n he was worried for me.. He asked me reason i said family ko miss kar rahi hu n he consoled me.. Jis din woh mission pe gaya dadu called me home.. I went n he gave all the info kaise woh usse destroy karenge.. I was shattered.. I was devastated how can he do this to me.. My own family meri happiness dekhna nahi chahte.. I had to decide.. Main apne pariwar ki jhuti shaan aur saukat ko barkarar rakhne k liye uski bali nahi dungi.. Usse apne pariwar k chal ka shikar nahi hone dungi.. I cried all night remembering him n i made a decision that changed my whole life.. I left him for his sake.. Maine dadu ko apna faisla bataya he was happy.. But i said, 'dadu aaj apne meri khusi chini hai magar yad rakhiyega.. Jo bota hai wahi kat ta hai.. Apne mujhse meri zindagi chin li aur bhagwan apse apki khusi chin lega.. Aap chahte hai na main shadi karu magar main aaj yeh kasam khati hu.. Main uske siwa kisi ki nahi ho sakti.. Kisi ki nahi.. Main zindagi var uski rahungi chahe jo ho jaye.. Yeh mera wada hai.. Aur isse meri dhamki mat samjhiyega.. Apka khun hu.. Jo socha wahi kia.. U'll never get to see me married with anyone except him aap chahe ya na chahe..' n that day the love of someone, The obidient grand daughter n the bubbly girl died in me.. The ruthless me born.. Main sirf apne bhai k liye kuch vi kar sakti hu.. Dadu ne meri zidd dekhi.. He just lost himself in the hand of me.. He realized it.. He took his words back magar main usse kai aage baad ayi.. Mera dil wahi chod ayi jaha woh tha.. I got to know woh yaha aa raha hai so i kept spy on him.. Mujhe ek haara hua insaan nazar aa gaya.. I failed him.. But usse itni badi saja kyu mili mujhse pyar karne ki.. Kyu?? Woh sirf khusi deserve karta hai sirf khusi.. Uska yeh roop dekhke dil mein dard hota maine kiya hai yeh sab magar woh kyu vugat raha hai.. I finally decided mujhe uske paas wapas jana hoga.. I know woh mujhse khafa hoga.. Naraz hoga.. Baat nahi karega magar main kuch vi karungi.. I'll bring him back.. I'll..' n she cried.. A hand crept on her shoulder.. She looked back.. Her dadi was there.. She hugged her daadi n cried.. She said, 'mujhe wapas jana hoga.. Us k liye.. Uski khusi k liye.. Uski hasi k liye.. Usk pyar k liye.. Hamare liye.. I know woh mera intezar kar raha hoga daadi.. I can't see him lifeless anymore daadi.. Usse uski riya milegi.. Arjun ki riya usse wapas milegi..' yes she was rsk.. Her dadi patted her back n said, 'ha riya.. Usse tumhari jarurat hai.. Tumhare arjun ko tumhari jarurat hai..' n kissed her forehead.. She sat back in the chair n daadi left her.. She had a beautiful smile on her face showing contendment.. She slept peacefully after whole three years.. Finally she will get her love back itself filled her with thrill.Edited by unishaz - 10 years ago
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