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Later that night, when I was dressing Sid's wounds in the privacy of our suite Sid asked "Why were you so scared Riddhima?"
"I thought even you have left me Sid, especially after all that I said last night."
" I will never leave you Ridz, not until you yourself ask me to ."
"Why Sid? Why did you promise and why do you die a silent death everyday trying to live upto your promises. Why did you marry me. You were aware that I loved someone else. You knew I couldn't give you the happy life you so deserved. Why every time I falter, you go out of your way to support me?"
He was silent for quite a while. Then he gently pushed me back and stoop up. He walked towards the balcony and stared blankly across the moonlit horizon.
"I married you not just because you were my friend, but because I loved you. I loved you the day I saw you first, cringing in your bed in the psychiatric ward and I loved you every day thereafter. You are right, I was fully aware of the pain you bore inside. How could I not. How could I not feel the pain of an incomplete love when my own love was incomplete? It is excruciating painful to see your wife, your love writhing in pain for someone else, but I figured it was more difficult to wake up in another continent, knowing that you are married to a man who doesn't understand you, who insults you for your past & forces you to accept your present. I couldn't picture yourself like that. I just couldn't."
Silence...except for the lashing of the waves...
"At least I am with you. I know you are safe...So what if I stay next door? Yours is still the first face I see in the morning and the last I see before retiring everyday. So what if we don't share intimate moments, I am still your confidante. I can still make you smile. I have no complaints against you, ya may be a little with God."
I didn't speak out a single word, not then not afterwards. I stayed close to Sid the whole night. While he slept peacefully, I sat next to him, awake, revisiting my life.
I had always thought Sid to be an immature boy, full of fun and frolic. But i realized it today that I was grossly mistaken. The depth of his love was much deeper than my own, coz he always knew he had nothing to look forward to and yet he kept on loving me..every day, selflessly, sacrificing his own dreams, his own pleasures.
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