Arshi OS: A day when everything went wrong! - Page 2

Originally posted by: Punkin22

Very interesting concept babygirl, you have indeed brought out one of the psychotic parts of Khushi personality.  But the why Khushi is more confortable in that circumstance is the secret in her heart.

 

Khushi, from the moment that she lost her family has been looking for her home where her heart could dwell in peace and security.  She has not found that with her adopted mother, father, aunt or Payal.  Why??  She has been reminded too many times she is strange acting and crazy. She takes care of the family, Khushi feels that is her job.   Do you remember Payal wedding how her family completely turned on her and told her she was not part of their family any longer.  Conditional love.

 

In the Raizada's house it is much the same, Arnav has proved to her he cannot be trusted completely.  She thought after the kidnapping all was well and she felt she could touch, talk, share with Arnav but it one evening he ripped her heart to pieces again.  Do you even want me to speak of Mamiji.  How about Anjali that loved Khushi because she did anything Anjali told her to, then turn around one day and called her liar and turned her back.  Was it only at Holi Week Anjali told her to call her sister.  She can't trust her either.  Even her own sister's love is conditional and has turn on her twice.  Akash same. Nani has done better but she has also told Khushi to stay away from Anjali she is a reminder of Shyam.  How do you think Khushi's heart was blooded from her.

 

Khushi hides all this under a smile and bubbly personality.  A psychologist would call this the search for signficance syndrome.  Khushi wants to build she self-worth on her ability to please others.  That never works...

 

Khushi is happy when everyone treats her with anger or disrespect because they can't hurt her heart which has been battered, bruised and bleeding most of her life. I am not telling you most of these people don't love her, what I am telling to you is none of these people has made a place for her soul to rest. She is always the outsider looking in at families, never within the family.

 

It is easier taking harsh treatment from family than putting her heart out and allowing them to step on her soul again.  Khushi makes many, many mistake because of the craving to be loved down deep within her soul but you will never find a more pure sweet heart anywhere. 

 

It is my desire that Arnav will find a way to bring her peace and security within a home where she can dwell as a central part of a family unconditionally.

 

You are a great writer boreddamsel and I love everything you write.  Khushi is a favorite character to me so my heart hurts for her...

 

 

Originally posted by: boreddamsel

Wow.. Punkin.. I loved your analysis.. brilliant.. 👏

Just reading this made me cry..

My heart bleeds for Khushi, which is why I get so annoyed and upset.. which is what made me write this to try and not feel bad for her.. and sometimes I know why she does the things she does.. I feel I would have done the same thing.. life is unfair and puts us in terrible situations.. 

I hate why the CVs always show Khushi suffering.. Arnav is the only one who can make her happy.. he is the only one who has unconditionally loved her if you think about it.. his love never changed.. it did change to hate once.. but that hate was because he loved her! I don't know when but he will have to make her trust him.. that's what he needs to do.. not keep forcing her to love him.. I dont know when he will understand that.. 

Everyday after the show I cry.. worried about how Khushi is ill-treated and how she is hurt.. and even I worry about Arnav.. his inability to express his feelings towards her.. he struggles with emotions... and that's expected of ASR.. we have seen that since the beginning.. Khushi's entry into his life has changed him slowly.. and soon someday.. he will learn how to open up to her.. he did.. that night Shyam's truth came out.. that hug.. that silent exchange.. that said a lot.. I miss that night.. such a mature love we saw that day.. sigh! 

Ok.. just talking about them makes me over-emotional.. and really upset.. and that's why I'm trying to write posts that either make me laugh or angry and not think about the pain! Why do we love them so much, Punkin??