SS: Gopi's Ehsaas Last Part updated pg 56

Part 1

Gopi sat on the bench on the terrace and looked up at the dark sky. Hey Kanaji, nothing has been right for me since Naniji left, I wish I hadn't listened to Maji and stayed back, I should have left right after Naniji left, then Ahemji wouldn't be forced to be stuck in this relationship, and I would have, eventually, been able to move beyond Ahemji and Modi Bhavan.

In the past week everything that could go wrong has gone wrong, and now Ahemji is really angry and can't do anything about it, he loves his mom too much to ask her to make Gopi leave Modi Bhavan.

"Kanaji, its in your hands now, you have to show me how to bring happiness in Ahemji's life, show me the way, like you always have." Gopi prayed to her Kanaji.

Gopi thought about the past few weeks, from the Birthday disaster, to the Switzerland trip, to the several incidents of the past couple weeks, to the last disaster of "I love you Ahemji" on his handkerchiefs and socks.

It hadn't matter to him that Rashiben had tricked her with the "I love you Ahemji" all he had cared was that once again it was proven to him that she was not worthy of him. He had been angry with her, but most of all she saw that for the first time he had been angry with Maji also.

**Flashback**

Gopi was afraid to go to her room too early, she didn't want to make Ahemji angrier that he already was after today's incident, but it was late, and she needed to get some sleep, so she slowly made her way up to their room, hoping and praying that he was already asleep.

But it wasn't meant to be, when she stepped on the landing and saw that the light in their room was still on, which meant he was up working, she made her way to the room slowly, but stopped when she heard maji's voice.

"Ahem, why are you angry at Gopi, she didn't write that on your things purposely, she had good intentions, she didn't know that Rashi would trick her like that." Gopi heard maji trying to reason with Ahem.

Gopi held her breath and waited for Ahem to reply.

"Mom, that's just the point, that gawar doesn't even know when she is being tricked, and because of her I was embarrassed today in front of my staff and clients, and I also blame you for this." Ahem sounded angry.

Gopi let out breath, unaware of the silent tears rolling down her cheeks. She knew she should move from the door before she heard anything else, but she couldn't get her legs to cooperate with her mind.

"Ahem, how can you blame me for this, all I am trying to do is show you that my choice is right for you." She heard maji reply.

"Mom, she is not right for me, why can't you let matter be, you know I wanted her to leave as soon as Nani left, but you wouldn't let her leave, then you forced her on me on my birthday, then in Switzerland and now you make her do all these things, but these things won't make me change my mind, if you want her to stay here fine, I have no problem with her, but please keep her away from me, and stop trying to change my mind about her."

Gopi hadn't waited to hear anymore of the conversation, she ran from there before they could hear her.

Present'..

That was a week ago, Gopi had managed to stay out of Ahem's way for the past week, she had waited till she was sure he would be asleep before she went to their room and left the room before he woke up, she left the room as if she had never slept there, not that he would have noticed.

For the past week she managed to stay out of his sight, by not showing up at meal times and any other time she knew he would be around.

No one questioned her absence, as everyone was aware of Ahem's anger towards Gopi. Even Koki hadn't tried to make her do things for him.

Modi house was filled with tension no one knew what to do to calm Ahem's anger.

Next day Gopi woke up at her usual time and took the milk from the milkman, she heated the milk and went up to take a shower and get ready for the day.

After she was ready she came back down and prepared the Mandir for pooja, then she went back to the kitchen to get breakfast ready.

Everyone came down for pooja, before she could disappear Koki asked her to do the Aarti, so she was unable to avoid Ahem.

She offered Aarti to everyone, approaching Ahem last, she went up to him slowly and held the Aarti out to him, but did not look up at him, she didn't have the courage to see the anger still on his face.

Ahem frowned at her, and sighed, had he been too harsh this last time? He was aware that she had managed to stay out his way for the week. He could see that avoiding him had taken its toll on her. He could see her swollen eyes and the dark circles under them that she had tried to hide with some make up. He could see the fear on her face and the trembling of her hands as she held the Aarti out to him.

The fear was nothing new, he knew this, but he couldn't help himself when he is angry. He doesn't know why he gets angry with her, despite the fact that his mom had explained to him last week's incident regarding the handkerchief was not her fault. But it wasn't just that, as soon as he sees her, he is reminded of all the things he had lost, no matter that she wasn't the one who took those things from him, but she was the cause, if his mom hadn't chosen her for him, he would have been married to Anita and living happily with her.

Ahem, you are pathetic, you don't make any sense at all, the girl is hardly to blame for everything that went wrong in your life, ask yourself honestly, would you have really been happy with Anita, or is that just your wishful thinking, or is the fact that she was the one that got away. And anyways if you had really loved her like you say, you would have never hidden your relationship from your family, especially your mom, whom you claim understands you the most.

Truth is Ahem had been aware that his mom would have never approved of Anita, she would have wanted Modi vahu to be traditional, and Anita was no where near traditional, she would have hated to wear sari everyday, and get up early, do all the pooja paths, make breakfast for the family, and most of all she would have hated staying at home like a traditional wife and vahu, she would have wanted to work outside of home and make her own money, she had already told him she didn't want to have kids and ruin her figure.

And would she have stood by you to save Modi name like Gopi has? Would you have wanted you sister to marry Umang, knowing his reputation with other girls?

Ahem told his inner voice to shut up, he didn't know what to think or do anymore. He wanted to let his mom take care of things how she wanted to, and not worry about it, he needed to concentrate on his current project and not get involved with the dynamics of his home life.