Diaries of Characters (From RS Mythoes) - Page 3

While continuously performing the function of maintaining the order of the universe every time after Brahmaji creates it, by residing in the hearts of every living beings, I also do take every opportunity to manifest myself on the planet earth time & time again to play with my devotees, who are also my own form, with my 10 or more aspects, whenever my other countless manifestations having my relatively lower aspects, under my illusion, experience imbalance of justice and start losing faith. I myself assume the human or other form depending upon the requirement of the situation on the planet earth with a divine body often taking a divine birth through an honorable mother devotee's womb to perform divine deeds or plays. It is like in the world of all robots created by me only having emotional intelligence applications software inbuilt, I myself enter among them with master system software and robotic get up.

I can see all the times and all the places in the space from here. For me, every era is NOW. Nothing is past and nothing is future. Everything is present wherever and the way I look. Time is the element binding for those who remember me and come to me. Currently, one of the countless pairs of eyes of my universe form is looking at 28^th Manvantar of Shwet Varah Kalp Planet earth of Aakaashganga galaxy ' the milky way the ultimate destination of which is milky ocean. All Gods of planets and 5 elements along with the creator Brahmaa are praying for and signaling the time for them of my play which has arrived and transmitting the message of saints to me.

A soul is constantly remembering me with my fear and enmity and by its very nature -the built in software application- is knowingly & unknowingly making many other souls hurt & suffer and who are therefore remembering me with cry deeply with their hearts in connection with me. A bit more remembering or meditating effort to get the full marks and they will discover me and will get merged into me or find my eternal company here.😊 A tyrant ruler rakshas origin soul in Yaadav dynasty is harassing saints & cows and sacrifice activities and disturbing Gods. He has made his father, sister and brother in law captive. He is killing his own nephews due to fear of his own death, which has still not happened as per the time on the earth though I can see that as well. Evil powers and dictator lusty kings are spreading their supremacy on the earth kingdoms. People's faith on me is facing its extreme test and gold is being melted to become the ornament. These souls have reached the time when they see my presence on the earth with a body growing by age and giving them bliss as their savior!!!!! Their rescuer!!!! The adventurous warrior!!!! Their son!!!! Their lover!!!! Their master!!!! Their friend!!!!! Their teacher!!!!! Their guide & leader!!!!! The philosopher!!!!! In their own different ways of looking and perception and belief and faith!! This is my 8^th out 10 major famous manifestations. My 7^th incarnation ' Ram ' giver of bliss ' is the one, which they have seen with pleasure & joy to be the one having set all the ideals of relationship obeying all the social norms & traditions. Ideal son!!! Ideal brother!!!! Ideal friend!!!!! Ideal social servant!!!! Ideal warrior!!!! Ideal husband!!!!! Ideal enemy!!!! Ideal king!!!! Ideal father!!!!! The 8th incarnation doesn't bind himself into the boundaries of human limitations and social norms and setting examples by conduct generating respect but enjoys a complete personality by teaching the lesson of devotion/love, knowledge & duty to the world in different era through his authoritative convincing words and influential charisma. He incarnates not only to balance the justice, save the saints & punish the evils like all other incarnations but also incarnates to fulfill mercifully all the promises given by him to all his devotees in the previous incarnations, to fulfill their wishes all at once, to become their lifter by killing, to become the son of many mothers, to become brother of many sisters, to become lover of many loving hearts, to become husbands of many dying hearts all together. He teaches the world politics & warfare & time appropriate policies & duties but most importantly he teaches the world that LOVE is the summary of life in the universe ' it is the ultimate teaching ' the supreme duty. And like all other incarnations, he hammers the message yet again that TRUTH only wins to re-establish the faith. The only thing he and my other incarnations can't do is to resist self for long and ignore a devotee's call forever. Don't cry my beloved ones!!!!! Here I come!!! Feel me with you!!!

I'm still in Vaikunth, & Lakshmi is besides me. She is silent. She looks too gloomy to describe! We will be separated after sometimes, but I know she is not thinking about our separation at all! Her eyes are fixed on the jail of Mathura. She is thinking about the sufferings of our poor devotees. True, it's very natural for her, being the mother of universe, how can she tolerate her children's pain?

I'm very pleased with Akrur. He believes me, but he believes in Karmyog too. Yes, Karmyog is one of the ways through which creatures can achieve me. Besides, he is worried enough about Vasudev-Devaki & their eighth child. Unconsciously he is worshipping me as he is now entirely overwhelmed with only my thoughts! I will surely bless him with my direct darshan!   

Dear diary! Are you feeling bored? I know, I'm filling you with sad events only, but what can I do? My children are suffering much! I can never forget this! I'm bounded with my devotees with the inseparable bond of love; we can never forget each other! They always pray to me, & I feel hurt when they are hurt! Ok, if you want, my diary, then we may take a little brake. Let's leave Mathura temporarily to visit Vrindavan!

I'm bound by promise to Sheshnaag too! In Treta Yug, when he incarnated himself as Lakshman, I was overwhelmed by his love & devotion to me & decided to incarnate myself as his younger for the next time. I decided to serve him as my elder brother just like he served me in Treta. He has already born & I know, he is eagerly waiting for me! His love for me knows no limit!

I have responsibilities not only to my devotees but also to them who are suffering curse as demons & are waiting for mukti. Especially poor Putana, who wanted to be my mother at my Vaman avater, I have to fulfill her desire in this eighth incarnation. Similarly Utkaj, Trinabarta, Aghasur & the great serpant Kaliya, have to be liberated. I have to break the pride of great deities too & all of these are going to occur in this Vrindavan only!  

My beloved Yamuna! I'm coming to play my flute at your bank! In this incarnation, I will establish myself as a Premavater, the incarnation of love. Lakshmi will help me to establish this. She will teach people how to love me. At my teenage, Vrindavan will become the pilgrimage of love due to her presence. 

& finally, when the crucial time will appear, I have to leave this sacred Vrindavan in order to kill Kans. At last, poor Vasudev & Devaki will be able to see me! But how will I conceal my mother Yashoda? I don't know this!

Oh no! Dear diary, are you listening? I can't bear with people's cry more! Now I MUST reach to earth, immediately! Bye, my diary, I'm forced to stop writing here.

 O my little children! O pieces of my heart! Are you listening to me? Your mother is really very happy today! Today my joy knows no bound! Finally, he is coming! Yes, dear children, he is coming to us, for whom we waited so long! He is your youngest brother.

You all were naughty enough, my boys! You have left your mother alone just after your birth. But your brother will never leave me! He will love me; he will call me 'mother', he will realize my sorrow!

Is it true that I'm really happy today? Is it possible?

Yes, I'm going to be mother once again, & this news is enough for any woman to be happy.

But a helpless mother who can't even save her darlings from the cruel hands of a murderer, how can she be pleased with her pregnancy?

Yes, I'm the worst mother in this universe, who can't even enjoy or celebrate her pregnancy! I'm that ill-fated mother, who has not the minimum right to be happy with her newly born baby! I'm that heartless mother who can imagine the moment of her son's death even before his birth!

But why, my Lord, why am I so helpless? Why I have to spend each & every moment of my pregnancy with a limitless fear instead of joy? Why is my life not normal like others?

But one day there was nothing of my fear in my world. I was the beloved princess of Mathura (not 'was', still I am, but I have almost forgotten this!), I was a darling sister of my elder brother Kans. That brother, who arranged my marriage so lovingly, who himself became the driver of our chariot after marriage, has been changed drastically! My loving brother is now the only reason of my fear! He is the killer of my children!

But I had to sacrifice. When Kirtimaan was born, I became so overwhelmed looking at his little innocent face that I cried & requested my husband not to fulfill his promise! But he could not keep my request. I realized what a severe storm was blowing within his heart at that moment, but he was completely helpless in front of his truth.

When bhaiya initially disagreed to kill Kirtimaan, oh! I can't express even today how much happy I was! But my Lord, you were not happy with my pleasure, were you? I just gave my baby only a couple of kisses, bhaiya rushed into the room suddenly and------------

a sound of baby's cry, & then all was finished! Being parents, we could nothing!

That was the very beginning. We were imprisoned at once. Bhaiya didn't make the same mistake of leaving my babies alive again. After birth of my each son, he came himself in jail, & forcefully snatched my child from my breast. & then,-------------------

forgive me, diary, I have no power to write the next incident!

My seventh baby was lucky enough, at least he had not to be handed over to his killer by his parents!

Sorry, my Lord! I should not weep for those past memories today, because you are coming to me. But what can I do? It's very tough to convince a mother's mind, Lord, it's almost impossible!

When you entered into my womb, Lord, & all deities welcomed you with flowers in jail, I started to feel entirely fearless. My heart was filled with an unknown & pure pleasure. It was your influence on me for which I gathered enough courage to overcome all fear! But as the time of your birth comes, I'm becoming afraid again! Gradually my motherly feelings become predominant over a devotee's feelings! Gradually mother's anxiety for her child becomes predominant over God's glory! The whole universe is ready to welcome you, but your ill-fated mother is trembling with nervousness! I know, you are the creator & protector of all, none can harm you. But I'm a mother, Lord! How can I explain the reason of my worry to you? I'm that mother who gives birth to a child but can't even get a chance to kiss him, can't even hear the word 'mother' from his mouth! Is this unusual for me to be worried about my child?

O my little God! I'm not worried for myself at all! If there is any reason of my fear, that's only you! Yes, my Lord, my child, that's you! I love you, O father of universe; I love you as my son! How can I bear with your pain, being your mother, being your devotee? You are all of my life, if Kans torture you, then how can I tolerate this? You may be the Omnipotent, but you are only a little, helpless infant for this mother! How will your mother protect her eye-pupil from demon's hands? Can you please tell me, Lord?

You love your devotee; you know a mother's grief. You are trying at your best to console & comfort me. I can always hear your loving voice, 'Keep patience, mother! I'm coming!' I see you in my every night's dream, where you tell me the tale of my previous birth's tapasya. My Lord! You are supplying me so much courage, then why am I feeling so nervous? The Supreme for whom the whole universe is eagerly waiting, He is within my womb, then what is the reason of my meaningless fear? The lover of devotees who protected this earth again & again from tortures of demons, why am I worried about His protection?

 They are crying again!

Lord! When will you stop this pain?

No light can be seen, no sound can be heard here! This place is far away from Mathura's people; their melancholy voice can't reach to this prison.  

Then how can I hear their cry?

Answer is very simple. Their cry is not of their alone, whatever they are praying to God is the very own words of the whole universe too, even deities from heaven are praying the same, "O savior! Listen to us! We are helpless without you! Don't delay, Lord, come & save us!"

Are you listening, my Lord?

This prayer has been spread in air from everyone's heart! Even a deaf can hear this! I'm not hearing this with my ears; I can feel this within my heart!

I am a king. My people are my children. They are suffering much without performing a little offence, & I am here, in this dark room, without any power to save them!

A king is compared to God, but that's only because of your direct influence on a king, O King of all kings! King has no power to rule your children without your order. You yourself assign this job to him.

You, the King of universe, gave me a responsibility to rule some children of you. You gave me a little part of your infinite raj-danda in order to perform right judgment on behalf of you. I tried at my best, Lord, but finally could not save the honor of your raj-danda! I failed to fulfill my duties to your children! Forgive me, my Lord! My King! Forgive your irresponsible representative!

But why, God, why am I seeing this day? What offence I have done at your feet?

Yes, one & only one dangerous offense I did. I became the father of demon Kans!

Yes! Whose death is prayed by all, I gave birth to him! Whose end will make this universe happy; I was responsible for its start! To destroy him, Lord of Vaikunth will appear Himself, but I only regret that I could not destroy him! 

Kans was a torturer of saints. He asked them to worship him as God. Whoever worshipped Lord Narayan was tortured by him! I made him alert several times, but he was not my obedient son at all.

But his sin started to cross its limit suddenly after Devaki's marriage. I can never forget that cursed day. The royal palace was still decorated with all arrangement of Devaki's marriage, the flowers of their marriage were still at their place, and all was in joyous mood, suddenly---Kans entered with his soldiers, Devaki & Vasudev was with him.

When I got the news, then poor Devaki was already imprisoned with her husband!

I burst into anger. Can anyone tolerate this?

I ordered him to undo this immediately. He could say nothing at that moment. He had no right to disobey his king.

Devaki was his beloved sister. He loved her much. I was astonished enough to see his behavior to Devaki! How can a person be changed so drastically? Is it your leela too, Lord? You wanted to punish Kans, so helped him to fulfill his amount of sin!

   But I never thought that my son has fallen so significantly! I could never understand what a shocking conspiracy was started against me within my kingdom!

Kans knew well, that I will oppose him in every sinful way he adopted. So he planned to dethrone me, but I could not know!

Oh God! How can I write this, my pen sucks with limitless shame & grief to write that I gave birth to such a son who could easily killed a newly born baby of his sister!!!!!!!

But my 'great' son had no repented for doing that! He was as normal as he has killed an ant accidentally! Then he had no fear from me. Because he was then completely ready to dethrone me.

Forgive me, my loyal soldiers! You respected me much, but this helpless king could do nothing to save you at that day! You gave your precious lives to save your king, but this ill-fated king could not be saved!

I tried to show my son the right way of life, but he could not see it, rather I became the highest barrier of his way of sin. So I had to take shelter here, in this dark room!

God! If you further decide to give such son to a father, please keep my little request; end that father's life just after his son's birth!

If you ended my life that day, I never heard this pain of all! Devaki's each child's death-pain has poisoned the atmosphere of whole Mathura! I can't breathe well in this poisonous air, Lord! All my people are surely thinking that they are being tortured due to my order! How can I convince them about my present condition? 

God! That foolish Kans does not know you! He has no idea about your glory. He does not know how much you love your devotees! & so, in spite of hearing the Akashwani, he did not get alert. I know, my Lord, you love this sinner too! You are always ready to forgive him if he takes your shelter even now! But he will not do that!

Oh! What a pity! He is very near of the ocean of your mercy, but can't accept it!

Listen to me, Lord, don't forgive him! Yes, being his father I'm praying to you that please don't forgive that sinner! He, who can't recognize your mercy, should not be forgiven.

Now come, my Lord! We all depend only on you! You are the only light of hope in this darkness!

No, I'm not worried about myself at all. Do end my life if you want, but rescue my poor Devaki & Vasudev! Rescue my innocent people! They are alive only for you! Don't make them disappointed, Lord! If you make more delay to save your distressed devotees, it will reduce your glory! Don't do that, my Lord! Sinner has crossed all of his limits, now you can't stay at your place with peace! You must come now!

Come, my King! I could not fulfill my duties given by you, punish me for this offence! I'm waiting only to handover your kingdom to you! Your representative is too weak to protect your kingdom. Now accept your entrusted property from my hands, & give me moksha!