Is this LOVE ?

I again checked my phone to check if i missed any of his call or text...i checked my facebook masenger nth times just to check if he is online,,,when he was last online..it showed 10min. ,,,,,,then i checked my call list i called him 1hr.20 min 20sec. ago i don't need to check it to know when i called as i rembered after 2hrs. of struggle of my heart and mind whether to call him or not finally my heart gave in and i called him...but he cut the call saying he'll call back as he s on another important call...i was broken but still i made my self understand may be he is on something important about school or family or anything but one part of my mind was saying he must be flirting with some girl but my heart was giving its lame excuses not to believe what my brain is saying..,,this is usual fight of my heart and brain now days,,,i have no idea when all this started.

my brain was saying he won't call you back but my heart no he will...and i am still waiting for his call...when i checked time its 4:15am in the morning now and i am still waiting...this is me kiya...kiya gujral

hello friends here is part1

(guys this is a sort of a dairy writing from kiya narrating her own story how she feels how she is at present , how was her past)

PART-1

Good morning...i said to myself waking up from bed...then i took my phone from side not to check time but to check something i know won't be there his text...as per my routine now-days i checked fb messenger in the morning not because i am addicted to face book but bcz i am addicted to that one person and messenger definitely gonna tell whether he is still sleeping or woke up.( i think i am not wrong bcz most of people check fb after waking up in morning :P)..and next what i saw made my day he messaged me...i think this is the best smile i had n my face i think the best morning ever this is what i want...

"i wish you to text me to wake me up

i wish you to talk to me till i fell sleep

i wish to be with you just you"

i opened message in next fraction of seconds as possible i could grrr...i hate slow wifi network at this moment but does the wifi really slow its just me who want it moreee fast...well i got his text..

( good morning jannu

i want to feel you besides me when i wake up in morning

i want to feel your arms around me when i sleep

i want warmth of ur lips over mine)

hayeee i am so dead i feel gooshbumps in my stomach and i am blushingg so hard i can feel my body getting warm up..i am crimson red for damn sure i hugged my teddy so tight that i squeezed it. i was looking at my phone then hiding my face in my duvet and smiling like a crazy person.

kiya kiya kiyaaa i heared somone screeming at top of her lungs..then i realised its juhi who is trying to wake me up

kiyaaa wake up we are getting late for our classes damn it we'll miss our bus...

ok then here i am again again dreaming OH GOD not again again i am dreaming about him...dreaming about KD

what the hell now he starts contrlling my dreams too..i got frustrated but still i checked my phone again getting disappointment.

people say {dreams do come true} does that really happen ? before i got again lost in my own world juhi again gave me a reality check to wake me up. riya also added today we are getting late and gonna miss bus because of you kiya. i got so upset " you both get lost go to hell attend your damn classes leave me here i am not coming with you guys...don't you need to worry about ? why the hell you care ? who the hell are you to teach me i should sleep or attend class?i want to sleep got you both.

and thats it we three got into an argument and i was lossing it not beacause i wanted to sleep but because again one more day passed without any contact from him again one more day added p n my waiting days...but why the hell i wait for his text? why the hell i care? why i want him to call me?? why i want his attention? why why?? is this love? no ths can't be ...i read in many stories love is beautiful feeling love brings happiness, love is when you guys meet daily or once a while.

Last time we met was 5months ago..

before i got lost more in all this i snapped my self back and got ready for school. ..

i cursed my self for yelling at those two without any reason now i have to manofy them after all i was wrong.

me juhi and riya we are three friends having almost same classes and on same days. we live together in Los angeles "one of the most beautiul city of world".

me and juhi were togther since our highschools but got riya here. Juhi (her charcer same as TBP) recently had broke up with her most recent bf whom she got on facebook. she thinks she is damn mature about relations but she is not.

it wasn't hard for me to get juhi back and riya too.

latter in the day juhi asked me whats the matter whats troubling you..tell me i said nothing

juhi," kiya you can share with me i share everything with you so you can also TRust me you'll feel better"

i made an excuse and left from there what should i share when i am hell confused ...confused AM I REALLY CONFUSED? i asked my self or its just i am denying the fact that KD is affecting me i so despeartely wants to talk to him.i am dying to listen to his voice..am i really missing him??

to give me break i logged in to my laptop at this time of day i am not really intersted in facebook as i know he won't be either he is n class or work...oh god not again again i am thinking about him then to fight with me hecan't effect me or my facebook i want fb now i just logged in but green light to his name ...unknowingly my lips turned to a smile.

at the same time my ipod played

Orey manva tu to bavra hai
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai
Tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai bavre
Kyun dikhaye sapne tu sote jaagte

yes this song relates to my situation today i thought its ok i'll teext him one more time i typed hii..but erased it thinking it looks so formal he never text me hii ..then i typed hows u?? and i erased it again...i was sort of words to starts conversation and then he got offline again no talks today and one lonely tear escaped my eyes

Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein

(chorous)
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Dheeme bole koi iktara iktara, dheeme bole koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara

Sun rahi hoon sudh budh khoke koi main kahani
Poori kahani hai kya kise hai pata
Main to kisiki hoke yeh bhi na jaani
Ruth hai ye do pal ki ya rehgi sada
(kise hai pata' kise hai pata)

i excused my sef from juhi and riya i was lost in lyrics of song sun rahi u khoke sudh budh khoke main kahani poori kahani hai ya kie hai pata main to kisi k hoke yeh v na jan ruth ha ye do pal k ya rehgi sada...the moments i spent with him flashed before my eyes that one night walk in beautiful road of this beautiful city flashed infront of my eyes when he came here...i am missing the weeknds when he used to come here and i felt my eyes wet i wiped my tears.

Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
(Nainon ko moond moond)
Jo barse sapne boond boond
Nainon ko moond moond
Kaise main chaloon, dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raastein

Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara
Dheeme bole koi iktara iktara, dheeme bole koi iktara
Gunjasa hai koi iktara iktara, gunjasa hai koi iktara

kiya kiya kiya..i again heared juhi looking for me...kiya guess what ??

i raised my eyebrows to ask what...

look panchi updated his DP with ranveer officialy

i should guessed this before her excitement could be something like this.

she showed me panchi and ranveer's pic togther they were looking so perfect togther ranveer's hands around her securing her...i wished KD holding me like this ...juhi was saying something i missed whn i was loosing my self again in my world with KD. panchi looks so happy na she asked me again..indeed she was happy..panchi used to live with us only but then Panchi and ranveer were in relationship and panchi moved to ranveer's apartment in small town next to LA.

i still rember the day panchi told me to stay away from KD and not to take his flirt to heart when i told her what KD told me last night.

i came back to reality wishing i could stay away from him but is this really possible??

Precap-

who is kiya ?

who is KD?

how we met?

when we met?

why panchi told me to stay away from KD?

what actually KD told me that night?

more about what i feel, my emotions, my confusons...more about is this love?

please let me know what you feel ? be free to ask your questions.

one more thing which u must have guessed till now platform is not the same as in TBP

i hope you'll like this

appologies for spelling mistakes guys 😃