Thahaan OS

As he thrown the blanket over her, Thapki let her breath slip. Bihaan has moved to the bathroom and she was thankful for that. She wanted to be alone for some time with her thoughts only. Being in a joint family and that too so adorable, it is not easy to steal some ME time in Pandey Nivas. Hopefully she is going back to her parents' home in less than one month. As Thapki held the blanket cosily, the incidents of last few days trailed before her eyes. The disaster pugphere of Shradha and the Sati-Savitri Puja hit her mind first. Most of the people in this house don't have any problem with her stammering and that is why she was asked to read the katha in the puja. But again, the fate played her role and at the nick of the time, she could not utter a single word. Bihaan, like every time she is in misery, stepped in and complete the task with her, for her. Oh God!! Why that memory brought smile to her face, Thapki does not want to know. The sole reason of her bad luck and sorrows has surprisingly become her saviour, her sole comfort every time she needed help. Just like THapki, Bihaan also has not accepted this marriage, then why her heart ached when he pointed his finger showing that she still has sindoor in her maang and made his face. Why she was distressed how he apologised for throwing the sindoor accidentally from the balcony? And the humiliation by Ma when she tied Gulabo's bell around her neck, why was he outrageous? Thapki did that to save Ma's honour but she knows it well that Ma does not like her at all. Sometimes, it seems to be like a dream to imagina is it the same woman who went to her parents to seek her as her bahu. That woman has gone and now Ma does not leave any opportunity to humiliate her. Thapki with her all good will could not save her grace from her mother in law.

But she is Ma after all, like Bihaan said. "Oh God!! Not again!! Why every time I think something and that dhokebaz has to enter my thoughts?" Thapki sighed. Dhoka or no dhoka..he is still her husband. She may not apply sindoor, wear her mangalsootra, but the fact remains that Bihaan is her husband. And he has proved from time to time that he is following the saat bachan taken at the time of marriage. The danger has to surpass him before it reaches Thapki, he has stood for her against Ma whom he loves most and protected her from Shradha's humiliation again and again. He jumped at the daladal to rescue her without giving a second thought, he understood that she was doing Ma a favour even it results into her insult, he understood that her phone was broken by Shradha. Even during the Dumb charade, he understood what she was trying to say. During the mission Shradha, they have become friendly and comfortable with each other and Thapki got the chance to understand him better. It is as clear as the sun's rays that Bihaan has golden heart and a very selfless person. Then why Bihaan, why? Why you care for me when you despise me so much? Why you confront Shradha for hurting me when you have hurt me the most? Why you risk your life for me when you are the one who destroyed it at first place? Why you try to bring smile to my face when you are the one who has wiped it completely? Oh Bihaan, what are you doing now? What are you doing to us, to you and to me? I told you that you don't have to bother about me, still you managed to put me on the bed. Every woman has some feminine intuition and my intuition is warning that although you don't have a heart but you have already formed connection between us it is going to cost us more pain.

Thapki's trail of thoughts was disrupted by the sound of opening bathroom's door. Thapki braved to peep through her lashes to have a look at the man she was thinking. Fresh from shower, Bihaan was looking adorable and hot. His hair was wet and he was frowning while rubbing the towel over his head. Thapki managed to smile seeing his frown. This guy seriously has no idea how handsome he is. He managed to wear the clock of I-dont-give-a-damn but he cares for everyone. He still loves his brother even though Dhruvsir is indifferent to him. Yes. Thapki observes how everyone behaves with him. At first she was confused but now as she knows the adoption truth, she can point out the differences in Ma's behaviour. When he was recalling his pain in front of her, Thapki saw how he longed for love. As that bloody Diwakar told, Bihaan has nothing his personal except her, his wife.

Bihaan is as unhappy about as she is but it did not stop him from caring her. Then why she is not willing to forgive her? Yes, he irritates her to the limit with his antics but even at the most melancholic times, he has supported her and managed to bring her smile. Then why Thapki? Why you are not forgiving him? Can you risk your life for a person who has not behaved properly with you since the time you two met? Can you stand for a person who gives you nothing but scolding? Thapki knows that the answer to these questions are NO. She can not be so selfless like Bihaan. Again the same thing hit her hard like every time whenever she argued with herself for Bihaan. Why did Bihaan marry her by cheating? There must be some solid reason for why he did that out-of-his character deed. Time will come for that also Mr Bihaan Pandey when I'll find that answer from you.

But at this point her concern for his behaviour was different. Thapki is finding it difficult to wear her eyes off him everytime she looked into his eyes. Everytime he rescued her from danger, she wanted to hold him and cry in his chest. She found that she is surprisingly comfortable in his arms. Though she is downright embarrassed before the whole family when he picked her up, she was glad that he did it. The feet were hurting like hell but as soon as Bihaan took them in his hands to dress, the pain was subsided. It was Bihaan who felt her pain and she found it to be content at her heart that he felt her pain. And now, when he was arguing with her to sleep on the bed, he had to utter that line. Pyaar aur Jung me sab jayez hain!!" though he muttered hastily that they are at war, Thapki doubted it. Oh Bihaan, what are you doing to yourself? You have no idea of what pain you are going to embrace. I am here for only few weeks, our divorce is inevitable and here you are getting involved with him. No Bihaan, I may not rescue you from mortal danger like you but I will protect you from heartbreak. I'll not let you to feel for me differently. I am happy that you care for me but don't love me Bihaan. I cant return it until I know the real truth behind our marriage. From tomorrow I'll be indifferent to you like our initial days. I'll prevent you from coming closer to me. I have found someone who will stand by me at any point in you but to love you is another topic. I cant love you and I will not let you to love me either. You do not know what is love yet and it is better that you remain ignorant about it. I'll divorce you on the first day of the fourth month of our marriage.With a sigh, Thapki shut her eyes tightly to try to sleep.

On the floor, Bihaan was wondering what was happeneing to him. He thought, if it is what called love; I will love Thapki to wipe out every tear I have given her by cheating her. I'll love her with my soul and undo every mistake I have made with her. He too shut his eyes and tried to sleep like his wife.

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