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scattered memories and frozen moments
a queen imagination
"Hey" Rohan tapped his head with hers, as she blinked out of her trance, her eyes, Twinkle's eyes looked up, her lips curving into an adorable smile, as she leaned into the guy beside her,"hey" she whispered back.
"So promise me tum dhyan se jaogi, wahan pohonchte se hi phone karna, khana thik se khana, strangers ko avoid karna, and-" she laughed at his never ending lines, "tum mere husband kam, pa-" she stopped, her eyes, flowing with tears in a milisecond. she gave in to Rohan's hug as he pacified her,"Mann. Babe, no, please. You have to be strong na?"
Mann Kunj Sarna, now Mann rohan singh. a beautiful 45 year old lady, clealy inheriting her traits from her very beautiful parents. Kunj and Twinkle Sarna. she worked as a fashion designer by profession, her taste and choices, matching her mothers. her hardwork, and will matching her dad's. 5'4, and petite, she was now married to rohan, and today, was the day she would return to Amritsar, first time after their death.
She wasnt sad with the plan of going, but she knew this was going to be hard on her. Very hard. She would be meeting babe, and mamu and Ishu and mami and Rahi and dadu and dadi. but not them. not seeing those two faces again. She felt her heart pain, as she heard the airpost announcing the check in to the flight, she kissed rohan bye, and hugged a sleeping Pal, (as in the hindi of moment, Pal, not Pal) her 5 year old son, fast alseep in his daddy's arms.
She walked to the check in area, looking back and giving a sad smile.
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not much had changed about Amritsar in the past 7 months, infact it had barely changed, she could realise that much by sitting in the car, with mamu on her side. Yuvraj mamu hadnt changed much either, but she heard from Rahi that he spoke less, ate less, slept less,and worked more, she smiled at him, his stubbled face and sleepless eyes evident, she grinned thinking of how time changed so much, how the once casonova, carefree, independent, dashin Yuvraj Luthra, the hero of Amritsar, had changed into this hardworking, barely flirting, barley talking person, who was now a workoholic. She remembered the times, when she was sixteen, when she would crawl into the bed with her parents, and sit in the middle.As they patted her to sleep, with their lovestory, being her very favouruite good night story. Her hands fiddled with the bracelet she was wearing, a slender thing with a single charm. it wasnt the original, which still hung around the owner's wrist, it was a copy. nobody could ever understand the meaning of that charm on one look, but Twinkle had, her mum, on the first sight when her dad gifted it to her on their anniversary. It was basically this, : Kunj's face, about the size of the thumb pad, flat like a turned plate,and on the face, was Twinkle's face her features moulded on the same plate of platinum. indicating, that even if teh charm breaks, they wont, they stay together for as long as they live, in charms or in whatver.
The car halted, inturrupting her thoughts. She now stood infront of her home, their home, tears filled her eyes,as she glanced up to the balcony, which once, would show a happy couple, the girl laughing as the boy back hugged her, now empty, the single white swing, once, a source of many romantic moments between her parents, now swinging with the air.
She smiled as mamu came and stood by her, his eyes watery as hers, as he glanced up at the balcony, he smiled when Mann held his hand, he had to be strong for his bhanji na? He wiped his eyes, and nodded smilingly at Mann, who pulled him to the house. She entered the house, no arti, no puja this time. after Twinkle's going, nobody could do it for her. she made her way to dadu and dadi, along with nani, going for a group hug with her lovely oldies. she hugged Natasha bhabhi, Ishan's wife as he stood silently watching teh scene. After the welcome, she recieved,she looked over to him as he ran to her, engulfing her in a hug, as she sobbed into his arms.
After their death, she had a few who would understand her condition this well. Rohan understood, but not very well, he hadnt knowing her parents for his entire life, so even though he felt her pain, it wasnt very consoling. Ishan bhai and Yuvi mamu understood best.Mamu had known her mom since how many years, she had lost count, her dad's best friend, she knew he would understand. and she knows he misses them, she saw it when he forgot his wallet an when Mann found it, she could not recognize it, she opened it to see the name of the owner, when she was treated by a small photograph, of twinj and Mann, she cried happy tears, when mamu revealed that he owned the wallet.
Another duo who understood her pain was Ishu and babe, bhai and bebe were two of her ardent friends, who would meet at midnight to discuss their favourite love story, the story of her parents, ishu hugged her more,and then pulled apart. She left for the stairs after that.
She was told bebe was sleeping so she slowly made her way upstairs, to her safe heaven, no not her room, twinj's room. She gripped the handle, as she opened it, her tears frozen in her eyes. She entered the room to see the scene very casual, bedsheets in a state as if poeple had just slept on the, the pillows showcasing the shape of a head, she knows, the other head was cushioned on the shoulder of the first person,the cupboard still full of clothes, the side tables, still displaying the items the same way, the couch with the cushions, in a disarray, few clothes in a heap on it, the yellow chairs, had nothing peculiar, except a novel in the middle, as if it was still going on, the tv screen blank, and the mirror, reflecting her broken face back to her. She moved into the room, shutting the door behind her as she looked to her mum's side table, she found the pic of her parents, it was their cutest , she would say, right infront of their wedding photograph. It was Twinkle, giggling as Kunj had back hugged her, picked her off the ground and twirled themselves, Twinkle had brought her knees up and was laughing her way off, while Kunj showcased a very cute smile, with his eyes closed, as his face nestled into his wife's shoulder.
Mann picked it up and fell to the floor, the frozen tears now melting and falling to her face like anything. She hugged the frame to her chest as she howled, and sobbed. They had lived together and died together. Last she eneterd the room when she was home, 7 months back, when she got the news of their death, she was here for her son's summers with her hubby, when this happened. Though nothing actually happened, it was very well planned.
That evening, her parents ushered everyone into the hall of Sarna mansion, for a family get together, as they had laughed and joked and sang their throats out. raman mamu even danced for the family, and it was a beautiful evening. When everybody was retiring to their rooms, her parents went and kissed everybody good night. She remembers seeing the couple with teary eyes, as they hugged bebe goodnight. She was pleasently surprised with the group hug at the end.
Mann remebers the last ever converstation with her parents, as they came to her, Twinkle hugging her close to them,as Kunj wrapped his arms around their bodies. Pulling apart, he cupped her face with one hand saying, "apna khyal rakhna princess, " as Twinkle pressed a kiss to her cheek. The three snchonized i love you's were heard, as the gigges followed. She kissed them good night and they kissed her cheeks too. The last sight being, them waling towards their room hand in hand.
The next morning, they were found on the bed, Twinkle's head cushioned on Kunj's chest, as his arms were wrapped protectively around her, they were seemingly pecking each other, and the blanket covered them up, doing no good. They were cold.
She had frozen there itself. No tears nothing. She was numb. Absolutely. uUntil she found this peice of paper on the side table, that was hiding a bunch of envelops, one for each member of the famiy. Her's was in a cupboard back home, and one copy of it was in the locket she always wore.
This was her letter.
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princess!!
baby, dont be so numb. please, let it all go now. we are happy sweetheart, very happy. together as we always are, we will be right their in your heart. please, mumda ke saath aisa mat karo, please baby.
we are so sorry, but it was meant to be this way, or rather, we wanted it to be this way. we had had our lives, and now it was time to go. so we did. and tumhe toh pata hai na, ki hum ek dusre se durr nahi reh sakte, at all. toh marna alag alag munasib kahan?
ha baby,you read it right, humne yeh sab plan kiya tha, kal ki gathering, special wale good nights and yeh letters. we plan to take a lot of sleeping pills, dying in the sleep, in each others arms, together, acha idea hai na? hume pata hai, you know, your dad is already 74, and your mum is 70. zindagi ki us age pe hai, jahan kab kya ho jaye, koi bharosa nahi, isiliye yeh important tha. jab life ke itne khoobsurat pal ek saath bitaye hai, toh alag alag kaise jaate.
hume nahi pata ki iske baad kya hoga, hum kahan jayenge, but yeh pata hia, ki ab bhi jo face karenge, saath karenge, together forever you know?
lo, tumhari favouite love story ki happy ending ho gayi. but ha, bebe ko bolna, ki room jaise hai, waise hi rehne de,kisi din shayad, hum ayege, but pata nahi baby, hume koi idea nahi hai, ki ab humara kya hoga, so no assumptions at all.
Mann, be strong okay, bilkul bhi darr lage, toh dont forget hum yahin hai baby, tumhare dil mein and tumhare zehen mein.and yeh lo, (the bracelet attached) your dad didnt want to leave you alone without a part of us(which you are obviously) and your mum felt it was teh best gift we could give you, copy hai, kyuki yeh siyappa queen ke hath se mai utar nahi sakta, and kyuki mai sadu Sarna ki di hui cheeze kisi ko de nahi sakti. but yeh lo, specially for you, same to same hai.
tumhare mail ko tum aaj khol sakti ho, hume pata hai, ki humne tumhe last 10 dino se yeh nahi karne diya tha, kyuki hum tumhe continuously goodbye mails bhej rahe the na, toh plan flop ho jata. Mann baby, tum humare liye sabse important ho ab, a part of us, a peice of our heart, and our soul's extention, so dont loose yourself, apni mom ki baatein karne wali aadat mat chodna, and apne dad ki tane marne wali aadat bhi nahi, ho sake toh dont color your hair, Kunj ke color ki hobahu copy hai, i cant afford to loose that, and please, dont go for lenses, meri Twinkle ki ankhein hai woh, keep good care of them.
well, ab tum sad rahogi, we get it, but itni sad mathona ki hum sad feel kare. do remember, hum jahan bhi hai saath hai, khush hai, and tumhe bhi khush rehna chahiye. okay ?
we love you so much baby, please apna khyal rakhna, meds time pe lena, time se so jana, khana khate waqt no bak bak, laaptop on karke mat sona, hume bhoolna mat, and keep loving us
i love you princess
i love you princess
twinj
tumhare pyare mumda
be happy forever okay ??
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Mann cried harder, as she glaced up at the walls of the room, now full of photographs,
one of them was when Twinkle was sad and Kunj was triying to make her smile, she had finally smiled and at that very moment, her pa clicked a selfie. it was Kunj grinning at teh camera, his hand around teh waist of his lady as Twinkle laughed, looking at him, as yhe moments froze.(credit: Kunj)
another was when Twinkle had to eat gol gappe's at midnight and so the oucple had sneaked out of teh house and found a stall, it showed them in black hoodies, the hoods pulled on their head, as they fed each other a pani puri.(credit: pani puri wala, he found them cute too)
a picture showed Mann, some 5 years old as she made the cutest expression ever, looking at the ceiling as Twinkle fell asleep on her right shoulder and Kunj on her left shoulder, thier hand intertwined across her body.that was when they were sleepy and Mann wanted to listen to a story.(credit; Ishan bhai, who wanted a pen from Mann)
she looked to teh next one, from the party, (my other os, us describes their look) Twinkle and Kunj dancing, as they floated into their own world(credit: the party photographer)
anothr was when Kunj was reaidng to Twinkle while laying on the couch and the lady had slept. Kunj held the book with one hand, while the other held his wife, as he gazed at her with the look of a teenager falling in love for the first time.(credit: Mann, her sercret twinj love made her do this)
she grinned as her eyes scanned this one, this showed them head to head, as Mann looked on, fighting like two bulls(remember the after the left alone at home noodle fight) they looked adorable as their heads bumbed into each other. (credit: bebe, who threatened them that she swould rframe it and hand it on their door)
one of them was from their anniversary, which showed Kunj and Twinkle plainly hugging, but even that showed their love, it was in front of the cake, when they were told to make a wish and they just hugged each other.(credit: this was Mann again)
now this photograph made her giggle, Mann knew her dad was her superman, and her mum was the strongest woman ever, but both of them were very afraid of cockroaches, this showed them standing on the bed, clinging to each other with the most terrified expression as they looked on (credit: Ishan bhai, who had just entered the room after hearing their screams)
the next one was adorable, as Kunj held Twinkle's hand to help her cross the road, yup her mum still could not do it alone, and yup her dad would not let her take the risk. their chemistry showed here too. (credit: bubbly masi, another member of the twinj lovers)
Mann looked around the room, still the same, the morning light still filtering thourgh the curtains teh same way, but not finding two happy faces to fall upon, the blankets still covering the bed, still smelling of the pleasant fragnence of her parents, their slothes still hung the same way in the cupboard, and memories,still lay scattered around.