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just something I wanna tell you all.. it is really important for me to tell you about the present with excerpts from past.. so that you all can really feel the impact of the past..
hope that makes sense..😆
PART 8
I stared into his eyes... and I knew it was time to give him a second chance...How much ever my mind revolted..It knew that I will achieve peace only after moving forward. I could not forever shut myself ... it was time.. even if I didn't get the chance to explain myself ... He, sitting in front of me... forgetting everything was a sign of things were already sorted and I did not want to drag it ..
I was tired ...mentally... I was tired of fighting every nerve of my body that had wanted to move on and get him back... My insistence to not give another chance was finally exhausted and I felt like my old self.. as if a barrier was lifting...
Some tears were finding their way.. and my heart was not letting me resist it anymore...I looked at him.. His unreadable expression now also spoke of guilt... guilt of hurting me... My silent tears seemed to be affecting him more than I.
For the first time ever I actually accepted that my pain could be felt by someone else... all my years of friendship with Kunj.. I always felt like I understood him but he never invested emotionally in me..
But his begging eyes... his guilty face... his desperateness to get me back made me feel distant from all the thoughts that spoke of how I did not matter to him. I had over the years convinced myself that I did not matter to him... that is why he never came back.. never called or even texted...
And the years had built lots of hatred.. assumptions... fear... doubts... but I felt it all crumbling down because here he was without any condition asking me back? What more would I want?? A tiny voice in my heart whispered... "love" and immediately my brain revolted and so did my heart... I could not go back there... I was very clear about my feelings and they were purely of friendship and that tiny little part had to live in isolation forever .. our friendship had suffered enough... I did not want to tarnish its image by throwing love in it... if he had to fall in love with me... he would have in those 5 good years... and he didn't and that means this wasn't possible.. and one sided love had never done any good to anyone...
"Twinkle"
I was back... I realized my face was wet with tears .. I immediately took tissue he had held out...and wiped them off... My pain ..my loss ... my friendship ... my love...strong emotions...but the strongest of them all was friendship.
"Twinkle I didn't mean to hurt you..." I sensed his voice was almost trembling...
"Kunj it Is fine.. you are right we have to move on from past.. we have to...it is high time" I said in a slight shaky voice...
And a smile ... a deadly smile spread over Kunj's face as soon as he heard...
Somewhere my heart could feel at peace immediately.. as if a burden had been lifted off...I felt comfortable suddenly.. as if it was over and there sat my best friend...
All forgotten... we began to talk and this time without a shaky or guilty voice...
( And there sat two best friends... reunited...well almost)
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(FLASHBACK)
2 months ago
I picked up an old carton which contained most of my college memories... As much as I wanted to look at its contents...something had kept stopping me to do so... College had been great initially.. friends, love... the usual... and I found someone who cared for me like no other person... someone who had been my rock... my support throughout...but sadly things had ended badly..and that was the reason I hated opening this box...It had goodbye notes of all but one... It had pictures of farewell with all but they also spoke that person's absence and it also had that person's yearly birthday gifts... surprisingly they were those things most needed by me at that time and without even mentioning I would get it... It amazed me that I figured this out only now...My watch broke.. I got a watch.. I needed a new calculator.. and it would turn up on my birthday...It's amazing how we fail to acknowledge efforts of people closest to us.. Then I hardly gave any thought... even when I had thrown all my college stuff in this box.. I was too angry to acknowledge it...but today 5 years down the line... the memories of friendship were more vivid... than the fights .. I realized I was holding my farewell album
I opened it... I looked at my farewell photos.. A younger self of me looked back... I did look happy but my strained smile spoke a different story... and the reason was betrayal from that person who I thought could never betray me...little had I known that the farewell would turn out to be the worst day of my life.
I pondered as an adult now.. a working professional... did those things matter to me now? Was I childish then? Had I over reacted? Should I have given a chance to explain things.. but little-little things had built up to the storm I faced that day..
I put the farewell photo aside... I picked up my birthday gifts... staring at the one that remained unpacked even to this day... In anger then... and in grief now... I had been unable to open it all these years...
I kept it aside...had the time come I wondered?
I again read a text on my phone that had actually forced me to go back to college memories.
" Hi... Kunj I know it has been long.. I have been wanting to tell you something since years...I am still not able to find the right words.. I just want to say I was a jealous gf---"
I immediately felt my heart in my stomach .. I remembered a voice in my head " Just listen to me Kunj why would I?? Why would I ever hurt u? How can you think this way about me? How can we end this friendship? Please Kunj!"
"Please leave me alone ... I don't want to listen to anything... I am done with this friendship"
I looked at the gift... and it was a farewell and birthday gift.
I opened it slowly... there was a small parchment...
Hey Kunj...
This time I think the most you need is a friend and here I am promising to be yours always...I know things have not been easy in the past few months... but I know we can get through it... you mean a lot to me... and I treasure your friendship a lot...
Lots of wishes
"Twinkle"
I felt like I had been stabbed with guilt. It was unlike me to feel so deeply... but the truth was ever since she had left.. I had felt a space in my life...
I remembered the rocky friendship of the last few months...
The confusions... the assumptions.. the fights...
The broken friendship.
I looked at the farewell sachet ...it was rolled .. I remember Twinkle coming and giving it to me before the fight... she said she needed to go somewhere.. I had never returned it to her .. I could not remember what title she had got ...it was almost tied in a knot..I untied the knot and rolled it open
it said "Ms. Pure Heart"..The juniors had got it right... I thought remembering how Twinkle was...
But a crumpled paper had fallen from it.. It had been crushed badly...
I picked it up and opened ... I recognised Twinkle's handwriting immediately..
it was a poem..
A friendship so pure
A friendship so selfless
A love which is endless
A love which is so innocent
Brought me tears
Brought me smiles...
Warmth to my heart
Joy to my soul
And it brought me peace which was suffice
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I hope you all liked this part..
The next update also coming very soon.. I guess on wednesday (tom) only!
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Griffy
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
