Twinj FF || Kuch Adhura || Chapter 9 - Page 33 - Page 25

Originally posted by: Anam Ali

Amazing previews

Kunj letters were so emotional

Looking forward to next part

Cont soon

Originally posted by: Abhia2Twinj4eva

Hey piya all the very best for your exams 😛

Wll w8 4 ua updates 😳

By the way the preview was very heart touching❤️ 😭

Originally posted by: mahadev07

precap is sooo hearttouching😭😭😭...yahaa pe sab lok mujhe rulaane pe utharoo hai 😭...

i just read it...u r incredible👏👏⭐️...whatever i say is less...very much short of words infront of ur amazing pieces of writing...HATSOFF piya didi👏

i dont know wht to comment...comment on those emotional heart wrenching updates or comment on how to thank u for all these updates...really dont know

if i start ...i wont be able to stop ..but stilll those letters...they had me crying infront of my laptop screen...these emotions which u show us through ur writing ...i cant literally compose myself...every word every line is sooo amazing never ever felt that a line is unwanted... everything is sooo perfect and enticing

the way he wrote those letters or if i say u wrote those letters...sooo gripping

in the update,,

the way he asked those questions to her...the way u showed us their inner turmoils...i cant appreciate u enough for that

i cud imagine every single thing...their tear stricken face everything their eyes ...thnx to all ur descriptions

the 7 th update was sooo cute their nhok jhok ...delightful piece

"Hamesha kab khatam ho ga?"such an innocent question

there r many lines which i admire...if i mention them all...i will have to copy paste the whole update

as always ur poetry is something i nowadays crave for ...they r such... u cant stop urself from admiring them

thnx a ton to ur talents

thnx a lot for all the pms

plz accept my sorry for the late commenting...if u can

Oh my darling🤗 Teri comments na hamesh mujhe rulati hai. Itni tareef bhi mat kar! Never say sorry for late comments. You can read this whenever you like. I'm sorry for making you cry dear. Glad u like the poetry and the story dear. I love you loads and loads sweetheart😳

Hiya peoples!! Surprised?? Fair warning this chapter is a little bit on the emotional side, so if you're someone who cries easily then maybe tissues are a good idea. Somewhere in between this you'll probably have the urge to kill me but wait til the end. It gets much better there and that's a promise. If I break it, you can kill me. Anyways read on and I hope you like it!

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Chapter 9

As soon as she entered her changing room, Twinkle collapsed into a heap on the floor. Her head leaning against the door, she curled herself into a ball. She was shivering frantically, and her knuckles had turned white due to her clutch on the bundle of letter. The letters! She'd taken them when his back was turned. Twinkle couldn't help it. Those letters had called to her heart and impulsively she'd taken them. Although he had said, she could keep them, Twinkle knew he wasn't entirely comfortable with her reading them. Knowing him, he proably poured his and heart and soul into them; every which emotion which he had kept hidden from everyone, he'd have put into these papers in the form of words which hardly satisfied the amount of emotion he actually had. Wiping away a lone tear, Twinkle unravelled the letter from the strings that held them together. They were quite a weight, after all there were exactly 1322. One for each day she'd been gone. A whole 3 years, 7 months and 13 days. Twinkle had counted and she had a feeling Kunj had too. With a deep breath she began reading.

Dear Twinkle,

Pura ek hafta ho chukka hai. Tujhe dhoond, dhoond ke dimaak kharab ho gayyi hai mera. Lekin kya karoon? Tere bin nahi lagta. Kitni filmy hoon na main? Sab teri asar hai! Tu hi toh drama karti hai na. Iss liye mujhe bhi thoda sikhna para. Iss bat pe ek kam kar. Tu vapas aaja. Yaad hai, tune kaha tha ki tu play ke liye audition karna chahti hai aur tuneh yeh bhi kahan tha ki tu chahti, hai main teri saath aun? Toh main aaugi. Bas vapas aaja. Tujhe pata hai na, ki mujhe akelapan ekdum pasan nahi. Aise kaise kar sakti hai ti Twinkle? Aapni Khadoos Sarna ko aise akele chodke kaise jaa sakti hai tu? Matlab ab main kisko teaso karunga? Kiski upar mazak karunga? Meri life mein ab kaun siyappa create karega? Dekh tu mujhse naraz hai na? Maine tujhpe chilaya issliye? Aare baba tu bhi mujhpe chila. Mujhpe haat utha, mujhe laath maar, jo kuch bhi. Bas vapas aaja. Please

- Kunj

Dear Twinkle

Ek mahina ho gaya. Lagta hai jaise ek saal bit gaya ho. Teri aadat ho gayyi thi na mujhe iss liye. Har roz teri ghar jaati hoon, tujhe uthane. Teri room tak pahunch jaati hoon aur bhir yaad aati hai, ki tu toh vahan nahi hai. Kitna bara idiot hoon na main. Aur pata hai, college mein jaati hoon, toh jaake teri class ke saamne khadi rehti hoon pura 5 minute ki liye. Koi teacher daate, toh tab hilta hoon. Sabko lagta hai, ki main pagal ho gayyi hoon. Shayad ho gayyi hoon. Na khaati hoon, na peeti hoon bas tujhe yaad karti hoon aur tujhe aise chithiyan likhti hoon. Ek sukoon sa milta hai yeh karke. Lagta hai ke jaise main tujhse hi baat kar rahi hoon. Actually na hamre roles reverse ho gayye hai. Main bak-bak karti rehti hoon aur tu koi jawab hi nahi deta. Pata nahi kyun Twinkle, lekin zindagi mein ek khalipan mehsoos hoti hai aaj kal. Aisa lagta jaise main bure sapne main jee rahi hoon. Bewaja jee rahi hoon. Pata nahi kya ho rahi hai. I miss you Twinkle. Vapas aa jaa please.

Dear Twinkle

Doctor kehti hai mujhe depression ho gayyi hai; ki main dheere dheere pagal ho rahi hoon. Shayad voh theek hai. Tujhe kya lagta Twinkle? Actually tujhe kaise kuch lagega? Tu toh yahan nahi hai na. 6 mahine main mujhe dekha bhi nahi tune? Bata teri honeymoon kaise chal raha hai?Oh main bhi kitna stupid hoon! Honeymoon toh bahut pehle hi khatam ho gayyi hogi na. Ab toh dono pati-patni ghar basa rahe hoge. Khush hai tu? Mujhe aise dard mein chodke khush hai tu? Itni selfish kab ban gayyi tu Twinkle? Ya hamesha aisi hi thi? Meri toh chod, ek bar toh aapni ma ki bareme sochti. Voh kaise sahegi yeh sab. Nahi socha tune? Twinkle sach, sach, bata. Tujhe meri yaad nahi aati? Ek bar bhi nahi aati? Chalo man liya, 6 mahine mein tu mujhe bhul gayyi. Pehle bhi yaad nahi aata tha? Tu meri tarah nahi tadapti? Twinkle, I should hate you na? Par pata nahi dil kyun nahi maanta? Abhi bhi mere liye to vohi siyappa queen hai, jis ki bina main jee nahi sakti. Twinkle ussne tujhe force kiya kya? Tera kya majboori tha? Meri Twinkle kya sach mein mujhe chodke chali gayyi hamesha ki liye. Kya tune saach mein mujhe usski liye chod diya? Vapas aajan Twinkle. Please!

-Kunj

Dear Twinkle

5 saal mein yeh mera pehla birthday hai, jiss mein tu nahi. Bahut ajeeb lag raha hai mujhe. Main baara baje tak jagi thi. Lekin tu nahi aayi. Khirki ki taraf dekhti rahi par tu nahi aayi. Tujhe meri birthday yaad hai na? Ya mere saath, saath yeh bhi bhool gayi? Vaise why am I even surprised? Jis ladki ko apni ma ki hi kadar nahi, usski meri kya kadar hogi? Sorry...zyada bol di na? Ab tujhe mujhpe gussa aa rahi hai na? Toh ek kam kar yahan aake mujhe do teen thappar mar. Issi bahane Amritsar toh aa jayegi. Oye Siyappa Queen meri birthday kitni shanti se guzar rahi hai tujhe pata bhi hai? Kissi ne koi ulta sidha harkat nahi ki ab tak. Bilkul boring sa hai. Issliye tu aaja. Aake meri is berangin duniya mein thoda sa toh rang dal de. Arrey pagli ek gift toh bhej de? Please. Bhir se keh rahi hoon Twinkle, vapas aaja.

-Kunj

Dear Twinkle

Tujhe Alisha Kapoor yaad hai na? Haan wohi hamesha pink pehenne vala, zyada sajne sawarne vala ladki. Aaj uski saat baat hui. Voh itni bhi bure nahi. Actually bahut sweet hai. Haan thodi zyada bolti hai. Zyada smart bhi nai hai lekin okay hai. Thoda impunctual bhi hai. That's a problem. Tujhe toh pata hai na ki mujhe sab kuch time pe chahiye. Jo bhi hoo, ladki mein class ki koi kami nahi. Thoda zyada chikni hai though. Usski saath lunch pe gayi aur ussen sirf ek salad order kiya. Shayad yeh hi ladkiyon ke liye normal hai. Itneh saal sirf tere jaise bhukkar saath lunch ki hai na iss liye shayad kuch aur expect kiya tha. Zyada mat chir haan maine bilkul enjoy nahi kiya. Mein bechara yahan kitna kha rahi hoon aur voh kuch kha hi nahi rahi. Bara awkward tha. Issliye tu vapas aaja. Main bhi kitna pagal hoon na. Hamesha yeh hi puchti hoon tujhse. Ab tak toh mujhe yeh baat samajh mein aana chahiye ki tu vapas nahi aayegi. Tu vapas aana hi nahi chahti aur main tujhe bahut acche se janti hoon. Agar tu kuch nahi karna chahti na, toh tu voh kabhi nahi karegi. Par aapni khayal rakh rahi hai na tu atleast? Itna toh kar hi sakta hai mere liye. Uff Twinkle just vapas aa ja please. Yeh sab mujhse aur sehen nahi ho raha hai. Yeh dooriyan mujhse ab aur bardash nahi ho rahi hai. Twinkle please come back. Please!

-Kunj

Dear Twinkle

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MERI SIYAPPA QUEEN!! Kitni buddi ho gayyi hai na tu. I'm sure, safed baal aana shuru ho gayyi hogi? Am I right or am I right? Kyunki you know I'm right. Vaise tu enjoy kar rahi hai na? Ussne tere liye kuch accha toh plan kiya hai na? Aaj likhne ka man nahi kar rahi for some reason. Lekin tujhe na wish karke chod dena mere liye na mumkin tha. Tujhe har chitthi likhna zaroori ban chukki hai. Usski baad hi tohda sa sukoon milta hai nahi toh bechaini cha jaati hai. Bas tu thik reh aur kabhi na kabhi vapas aaja.

Dear Twinkle

Happy 2 years. Tujhe pata bhi chala ki 2 saal beet gayyi tere jaane ki? Tujhe kaise pata chalega. Tu kahan meri tarah count kar rahi hai. Tu khush ha na Twinkle? Itna na toh jaane ki haq banti hai mujhe. Chale jaane ka faisla tera tha lekin sabse ziyada effect mujhpe hua. Tu toh challi gayyi. Ek bar mur ke bhi nahi dekha. Teri khushi tujhe mil gayyi. Lekin mere khushi toh mujhse cheen gayyi na. Meri zindagi thi tu Twinkle. Meri sab kuch thi. Tere bina main kuch nahi hoon. Tu thi toh main thi ab tu nahi toh main kahan? Taklif dena tera adaat ban chukki kya Twinkle? Ek phone call kya ziyada mang rahi hoon mein? Arrey vapas nahi aana toh ek chitthi toh bhej. Mujhe itna sukoon toh de ki main jaan sakun tu thik hai. Twinkle phir se keh rahi hoon, vapas aaja. Mere liye please.

Dear Twinkle

Shaadi fixed ho gayyi meri. Ek baat bataun? Sun ke zyada chok mat jana. Mujhe hamesha laga ki jab meri shaadi hogi, toh tujhse hi hogi. Mujhe laga ke hum, hamesha dhoondte rahega lekin koi aur nahi milega toh end mein ek doosre ka hi sirf saath rahega. I guess mein galat thi lekin phir bhi yeh ajeeb sa feeling mujhe chod ke nahi jaa raha. Aisa lag raha hai jaise ki main shayad kuch bahut hi galat kam karne vali hoon. Alisha mere liye thik ladki nahi ho sakti hai Twinkle. Usski saath mujhe voh apnapan nahi mehsoos hota jo kisi ko aapni jeevan saathi ke saath milni chahiye. Acchi ladki hai lekin mere liye nahi. Gash tu yahan hoti Twinkle. Toh mujhe sab kuch samjha pati. Mujhe bata pati ki main galat hoon ya sahin. Kuch samajh mein nahi aa raha. Har taraf se naya ishara aa rahi hai aur iss sab ke beech mein, main akele khadi hoon. Yeh akelapan mujhse bardash nahi hota Twinkle. Nahi hota hai. Bas nahi hota hai.

-Kunj

Dear Twinkle

Main zinda kyun hoon? Jab kisi ko meri zaroorat hi nahi toh mein kyun abhi iss duniya mein hoon? Iss duniya mein rehke mujhe mil kya raha hai? Sab thukrate rehte hai, dard dete rehte hai. Isse behtar ki main mar jaun. Mar jaungi toh at least papa toh khush rahegi na aur voh mujhpe haath bhi utha nahi payegi. Shayad Ma ko thodi gum hogi lekin sirf kuch dino ke liye. Anand bhaiyya hai na? Bhabhi toh hargiz miss nahi karenga lekin shayad Ishaan aapni chahchu ki miss karega. Lekin voh bahut chota hai. Ek na ek din mujhe bhul jayegi jaise tu bhul gayi hai. Leela aunty miss karegi. Abhi bhi mein teri ghar jaati hoon toh mujhe aapni favorite dishes banake khilati hai. Aapne beta samajhti hai mujhe. Shayad mujhe meri aapni ma se bhi zyada pyar karti hai. Mahi bilkul akeli pad gayyi hai. Tujhe toh pata hi hai na. Voh bahut his shy kissam ki ladki hai. Zyada friends nahi hai. Mere saath kabhi, kabhi baat kar leti hai. Teri baare mein baat karti hai na jab, toh bahut khush ho jaati hai. Face pe ek bara sa smile aa jaati hai. Voh tujhe bahut miss karti hai Twinkle lekin voh mujhe miss nahi karega. Toh aur kon raha? Haan Alisha. Alisha sirf aur sirf meri fiancee hai. Meri pyaar nahi hai aur hum dono ki beech koi emotional connection bhi nahi hai. Voh meri paiso se pyar karti toh shayad ussliye thoda sa faraq padega usse. Koi aur mil jaayegi usse. Koi jo mujhse bhi zyada ameer ho. Aur kaun baccha hai? Koi nahi hai. Kuch friend hai par unhe bhi faraq nahi padega. Ek tu hi hai, jisse shayad faraq parta. Leking tu nahi hai. Tu mujhe chodke challi gayi hai aur ab toh mujhe yeh bhi samajh aa gayyi ki tu vapas nahi aane vali. Good bye Twinkle.

-Kunj

Dear Twinkle

Nahi kar payyi. Main zyada selfish hoon. Aapni jaan nahi le payyi. Gayi thi main, lekin vapas bhi aa gayi. Uss pahari pe gayyi thi jahan hum aksar jaate the, shayad iss liye hi nahi mar payyi. Uss jagah pe sirf teri yaadein hai aur un yaadon ne mujhe marne ne nahi diya. Mujhe mein ek umeed bhir se jagadi ki, shayad ek din tu aayegi. Meri iss umeed ko tu hakeekat banade please. Vapas aaja Twinkle. Ek bar hi sahi par aa please. Ek bar toh aapni is khadoos sarna se mil ja. Please siyappa queen, vapas aaja.

-Kunj

Her face was drenched. She hadn't even bothered to wipe the tears. In only 3 hours she had read all of them except the last one. They'd hurt her exactly where it hurt most. Each letter had been like a little needle; like an arrow killing her far too slowly. These letter were a shadow of Kunj's feelings. Taking a deep breath, she began to read the last one.

Dear Twinkle

Main aur Alisha kal Dehli jaa rahe hai. Pata nahi maine Dehli kyun chuna. Amritsar mein rehna mere liye zeher jaisa ban gayyi hai. Aisa lagta hai yahan ki jaise main koi jail mein band hoon. Har jagah teri yaadein hai. Yeh pura sheher tujhse se juda hai aur main yahan aur nahi reh sakti. Kuch din ki liye hi sahi mujhe ek break chahiye. Iss liye Dehli. Lekin mujhe aisa kyun laga raha, ki tujhe Dehli ki saath bhi koi connection. Hai kya? Main pagal ho gayyi hoon Twinkle. Mujhe har jagah sirf tu hi nazar aa rahi hai. Yeh akelapan aur saha nahi jaata mujhe. Yeh tanhayee mujhe khatam kardegi. Tu vapas nahi aa rahi hai na Twinkle to maat aa. Tujhe jaana tha toh tu shehar chod ke chali gayyi. Meri yaadon se kyun nahi gayi? Meri dimaak se, meri dil se? Kyn nahi gayi? GO AWAY TWINKLE! Meri yaadon se chali ja please. Yeh dard mujhe se aur bardash nahi hota. I want to scream. I want to shout lekin kuch bhi nahi kar pa rahi hoon mein. Itni helpless feeling mujhe abhi tak kabhi nahi hua. I can't handle this Twinkle. Iss liye mujhe yahan se jaana hai. Yahan sirf tu hai aur teri yaadein. Jahan bhi dekhti hoon, toh tujhse kuch juda dekht hoon aur mujhe ab aur yeh sab sehen nahi ho rahi. Main Dehli jaa rahi hoon Twinkle. Lekin mujhe kyun lag raha hai, ki mujhe vahan tu milegi? Aisa kyun laga raha hai ke jaise kuch adhura sa jo hai, pura ho jaane vali hai?

-Kunj

And that was it. The end of the letters that illustrated the pain and sadness that she, Twinkle Taneja, had cause him. Everything he'd ever wanted to say to her in these 3 years, Kunj had written in these and now Twinkle had read them. They meant so much to her now and she could hardly breathe after having read them. Gently she tried to hoist herself up. Her breath was even as the waves of tears had yet to stop. Wiping one away, as to not warn any passers by of anything being the slightest out of places, she swung open the door and made a run for it. Having worked in the hotel for 3 years, Twinkle had memorised the paths of the floors. She reached Kunj's room in under 5 minutes. Throwing caution to the wind, she began banging on the door. Subconsciously, she knew how much could go wrong in the moment but the urge to see him overpowered all her restriction. She needed to see him. The door opened after a moment to reveal a disheveled Kunj. His eyes were swollen just like her, and concern filled them as soon as he saw her state.

"Twinkle," he began but she cut him off by throwing herself into him. Taken aback at first, Kunj pulled her closer against him. They were a mess of limbs as they held onto each other for dear life. They fell to the ground, still wrapped up in each other, as Twinkle continued to sob into his shirt.

"I'm so sorry," she kept on whispering as Kunj continued soothing her. In his arms, she found peace; a type of solace that she'd long forgotten. She felt safe. Moments passed and finally Twinkle calmed down a bit.

"I read them," she whispered, still not lettig go of his collar, "I loved them."

Kunj didn't say anything but Twinkle knew he had understood.

"I missed you," she said softly as she tucked herself under his neck. Again she was met with silence.

"Hum phir se shuru kar sakte hai kya? Can we start all over again," Twinkle looked up at an expressionless Kunj. He unwrapped himself from her and stood up. Twinkle felt the ground slipping away from her feet as she watched him walk away. She was about to start with the water-works again, when he appeared in front of her.

"Hi, my name is Kunj Sarna. You know, the dashing, charming, prince jiske peeche har ladki deewani hai. Haan main voh hoon. Aur aap?" Kunj flashed her a smile as he reached out a hand.

"Not interested lekin itna insist kar rahe ho toh bata hi deti hoon. Twinkle Taneja naam hai mera aur duniya mein mera jaisa koi nahin," Twinkle smiled back as she placed her hand in his.

This is me learning to trust you once again.

This is me giving you my heart once again,

This is me finding my way back to you,

This is me learning to love you again.

Those letters...

Only possible in fictions...hahaha Pyaar ho tho asha ho

Beautifully written, loved it

I did get emotional but thankfully didn't need tissues

Girl! I couldn't love you more for breaking my heart this way.

Yaar emotional wala update