"She is free in her wildness, she is a wandress, a drop of free water. She cares nothing of borders and cares nothing for rules and customs. Time for her isnt something to fight against. Her life flows clean, with passion like fresh water."
Roman Payne
"Hum tum ek lockup me band ho, or light chali jaye "
"Is waqt yaha hum dono ke alawa koi nai hai"
"dekhiye madam, ye mera thana hai or yaha me Jo chahe kar Sakta hu. samjhi aap? "
"acha Agar me phir bi darau to?"
"socho kabhi esa ho to kya ho "
"ruk kaha bhag Rahi hai, ek policewale pe hath uthaya, dugni saza dilwaunga "
"Dada to gaye "
*crash *
Swara shivered against the harsh winds of kolkata, trying as hard as she could, the memory failed to go away from her mind, she tried to divert her attention towards bade papa's health, badi maa's misery at her husband condition, she tried to think about her lil brother's heart melting toothless grins, his innocent attempts to pull her hair nd scratch her face.. Mildly succeeding, a small smile slipped on her face nd she closed her eyes only for that small smile to slip off again nd the innocent touch of his lil brother to be replaced by the poisonous touch of the subinspector. Her eyes flew open bcoz of the nightmare.
She rubbed her arms harshly to remove the vile touch even though she didn't let him, but the way he eyed her, it was enough to make her skin crawl, she started rubbing more harshly, her hands, face. She only knows what she felt during those horrible 20 minutes of her life, her eyes stung, lips quivered, body shivering, nd heart raced at an abnormal speed, yet she tried to compose herself, she knew she has to find a way out as none but she herself can protect her dignity. Swara looked down to her hands, marks of her courage still bore by her hands, the heat of the hot bulb seeped into her palms giving them a burn, not severe but not too mild either. Drop of tears unwantedly rolled down her cheeks nd fell on her hands blurring her vision, one nd two nd three nd tears were uncontrollable, she tried, God knows she is trying to believe that it's all over but how to make her heart understand who is not ready to coordinate with her mind?
She still is feeling the chills in her bones, that was the effect of that vile look by that monster, swara kept thanking her stars for sending her guarding angel, her sanskar on time, God knows she was losing her calm even though she defended herself courageously. She was chanting his name like a rosery nd like always he didn't disappoint. He bursted in like a volcano nd erupted on the vile monster for even having negative thoughts regarding her. Unconsciously a smile spread on her face thinking about sanskar nd what a sight he made while punishing that officer.
Swara took a deep sigh nd stood up, it's no time for self pity, their family is going through a very rough patch nd they need her to stay strong for them, she can wallow in her misery later, her family needs her, her sanskar needs her, knowing how he must be burdened with guilt right now thinking about her, she stood up determined to not let him blame himself, sending a silent prayer for the well wishes of her Family nd owing her life nd self to her soul mate, swara started to walked out of their room in search of sanskar only to come at a halt abruptly.
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Sanskar was sitting in the courtyard of baadi, his head in his hands, despite whatever he tried, the scene at the police station played on loop in front of his eyes, he pulled his hair, walked briskly, shut his eyes tight only to open them up at a jerk, nothing helped, it felt as if a movie is playing on nd he has no option but to sit right through end, difference being this movie has no end.
He is unable to erase her scared face from his memory, her dishelved state, frantic eyes, stumbling steps, only increased his trauma, anger seeped in his veins like fire thinking about the scene he witnessed after reaching there. Swara was running from one corner to other escaping the officer's clasp narrowly every time, bulb held tightly in her hands, looking for something or someone to protect her from the devil's eyes.
He stood up with a jerk, try whatever he want, it wasn't working, if anything his shoulders were weighing down with the huge amount of guilt for letting her go through that, for not being there for her nd keeping her safe in his arms from the cruelty of the world, he knows she is strong, strong enough to face everything, but she don't have to be alone, he will always be there for her, but today he felt as if he failed her, of course sanskar is no stupid to think that it happened bcoz of him,
he knows what happened was unfortunate nd none predicted that, but the protective instinct in him kept bugging him constantly, he never wants her to go through the fear of helplessness again, if he have to become her shadow for that, he will, but he can't let her vulnerable like that.
Guilt consumed him again nd he can't help but let out a silent painful sob grieving for the pain his swara had to face today, silent tears ran down his face portraying the state of his heart, it felt as if a hand is clasped around his heart squeezing it continuously, that was the intensity of his pain.
He knows swara is alone in the room nd definitely not In a good state, whatever happened is unbearable to him even though he wasn't the victim,she on the other hand bore everything alone,her pain,her misery is far bigger than his own.
Determined, he stood up, wiped his tears nd walked out to her, to be her strength nd not to let her fall apart, it was time to remove all her misery nd hold her close nd give her his undeniable love nd support.
He opened the door to their room nd came to a halt abruptly.
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"just like there is always time for pain, there is always time for healing "
-Jenifer brown
Both stood rooted at their place, gazing at the other's soul, trying helplessly to ease out the pain somehow though not knowing how..
"Teri muskurahate hai takat meri, mujko inhi se umeed mili,
Chahe kare koi sitam ye jahan
Inme hi hai Sada hifazat meri"
They had tears floating in their eyes yet it didn't blur the pain they easily read in the other's eyes.
sanskar tried to give her what he thought was a small genuine smile that turned out to be a grimace. His attempt tore a sob from swara nd don't know who initiated but soon they found swara wrapped in his arms nd sanskar holding her as close as humanly possible, or maybe more than that?
"Zindgani badi khubsurat hui
Jannat ab aur kya hogi kahi"
She strangely didn't cry, didn't wailed in misery neither complained about anything, she simply kept bunching his shirt tight in her fist to the point that it choked him slightly but he didn't notice, his whole focus was on her, the slight heaving of her chest, feel of her pressed to him limb to limb. "Swara..." "Plzz sanskar, kuch nai plz, just.. Just keep me close, make me feel safe.. Please? "
"Teri dhadkano se hai zindgi meri, khwaishein teri ab duaaein meri,
Kitna anokha bandhan hai ye, teri meri jaan Jo ek Hui..."
her begging tone brought out a fresh set of tears in his eyes nd he tightened his hold on her, gathered her more close, he had his face pressed in her shoulder nd she had her hands in between their bodies, no.. She didn't wrap her hands around his neck nd waist like always simply since she wants to have him wrapped all around her, not a single inch of her skin outside the circle of his protection,her desperation was loud nd clear to him, nd he held nothing back to give her what she wanted, she has always been his priority, his one nd only destination for this life nd for other lives to come,
"Lautunga yaha tere pas me haan, waada hai mera marr bi jau kahi "
Swara smiled in wonder,
"Swara tum thik ho? "
"Teri himmat kese Hui meri swara ko hath lagane ki? "
"Agar me swara ke liye jaan de Sakta hu to uske liye jaan le bi skta hu"
Minutes ago she was getting horrified with the terror she escaped luckily nd just being in his arms now nd her mind changed course, every memory is a sweet one..
"Toot to gayi hogi na tum, tumhari itni badi problem me mai tumhe akela chod kar aagaya? "
Trust him to go all caveman on her, good or bad, he blames all himself.. Swara smiled nd snuggled closer.
"Sanskar hamara rishta rasmo
se nahi rooh se Juda hai, tum mere sath na hokar bi mere paas hote ho, mere sath hote ho meri himmat bankar"
"Woh inspector kuch nai kar paya, tum aa gaye the naa muje bachane? Kuch nai hua hai tumhari swara ko. Plz ab iske bare me mat socho"
Sanskar smiles grimly, did she really thought he will believe when she says she is fine, anyone but him knows best that swara sanskar maheshwari is incapable of sharing her pain, she shares joy in multiple amount, but when it comes to her own grief, she tries to push it under the rug. He remembered their Convo an hour ago, where she soothed his guilt nd anger, he chuckled at the irony, it was her who faced the trauma, yet she was being the swara she is, concerned about everyone but her own self.
"Jo tu mera humdard hai,
Suhana har dard hai"
"Sanskar?"
"Hmmm" Silence. Though he wasn't surprised.
He felt his T-shirt getting wet, still kept mum, simply tightened his hold on her, to remind her that he is here.
Swara wept in his shirt, for the fear she felt when no one was there in the dark, for swara if scared of anything, it's the darkness that troubles her a lot, she cried for the fear she felt when that creep started singing weird creepy songs, she cried for she desperately wished him to appear magically when that prick was unlocking the cell. She cried for when she almost was on the verge of having a breakdown but held strong since she knows nonw but she herself is her potential savior.she cried coz she momentarily when realized she hersekl isnt enough nd thought of harming herself before that inspector tries hurting her.
With each tear,sanskar felt equal stabs in his heart which he didnt thought was possible,
They both cried in each others arms seeking the warmth that is their lifeline now.
"Tum kyu mere paas nai the sanskar?, i--i was s..so afraid" nd with that she broke down all over again fully aware that he is weeping too,
"He..he was threatening me, I tr..tried telling him that u..u won't leave him if he said or did any..anything..wo nai ruka sanskar,I felt so so bad, me bohot darr gayi thi.."
She wounded her hands around his back nd held him tight, trying to dissolve in him,
She broke the hug nd looked at him, he kept quiet knowing she wants him to listen to her nd wiped her tears. Swara showed him his wrists "Ye ganda kar dia sanskar, he tri...tried to hold them here"
"Muje bilkul accha nai laga that's y I hit him with that bulb..I know u liked that, mene sahi kia na? "
Sanskar held her wrists nd kissed them both nd nodded.
"M proud of u swara, u r so very brave"
Fresh set of tears ran down her face again nd she whispered "phir y m still afraid?" Nd with that something broke inside him, who gets to see this vulnerable swara? Who is delicate like a dewdrop nd innocent like a newborn, who needs a cocoon as a shield from the harshness of the world? None, he concluded..
Sanskar framed her face delicately nd touched their foreheads nd whispered
"Coz u are a human swara, it's OK to be afraid, to be hurt, but only for this moment, I want u to remember that u are never alone, u are always having me by your side nd none can change that, we will fight this together, u won't be afraid anymore, I won't let anyone hurt you,"
Swara gave a barely there but genuine smile nd breathed out "I know..you love me so much, that's y m with u here, safe nd sound, u are my unbreakable strength, u will help me be strong again...but.."
"But you aren't strong today"
Swara stared at him in wonder, they are soul mates in true sense.
She slowly went ahead nd kept her head on his chest nd closed her eyes.
"Sanskar"
"Hmm"
"I want to report this incident today"
"We will. Tomorrow morning first thing"
"But what about badi ma nd bade papa? "
"We will handle that too, but nothing is more imp than you princess"
She smiled against his chest nd snuggled closer,
Sanskar lifter her in a swift motion nd lied down himself on bed with swara on top, she stayed there just tightened her grip on him.
"Sanskar? "
"Hmm? "
"Aaj jb tum gusse me us inspector ki band Baja rahe the naa? To bohot cute lag rhe the" *nd giggled silently*
Sanskar smiled, happy to have her trying to divert mind,
"Kya yar swara, me cute nai hu "
"Mere liye to ho, cute, sweet, little boy "
"Madam, ye sab adjectives will suit junior sanskar, remember by next janmashtmi, we will hv to add a member in our beautiful paradise? " he smirked
Swara turned 50 impossible shades of red nd hitted him on shoulder
"Sanskar!!! "
Sanskar laughed out loud at that with a blushing giggling swara in his arms nd life never felt so beautiful ever,
She knows he will make sure she forgets the incident nd every damn trace of it, nd he will do anything to keep her happy, in return she vowed to do the same like she always does.
Sanskar thanked the angels watching over them to not let them break apart nd in any damn situation nd vowed to keep his swara giggling nd happy like this forever, he knows it will take time for her tl fully recover but nothing he can't do, he will make sure nothing hurtful stays in her memory for long nd will forever be her guardian angel...
"When it hurts to look back and you are scared to look back, look beside and I will always be ther
Edited by sharif_lafungi - 8 years ago
Ishaani
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