You say you've lost your heart. You say it is with someone. You say it beats for someone. You say when someone is closer it beats faster, when someone smiles it skips a beat. When someone is gone from your life, you say your heart is broken. And you will never be the same.
You say you love him.
Then you say, your mind is blank. That it tells you not to believe someone of whom it has some misconception. You say, your mind can't move on from that false image...that incomplete memory. And you think all the wrong thoughts and nothing else. You continue to work on the whims of this ill mind and continue to ignore your very much accurate heart.
You say you hate him.
You continue down this disastrous path and each day lose a part of your beautiful soul. You engage in useless battles and turns emptier each day. So far you have come, on the twisted treacherous path. So far that I can no long see you in the fog that surrounds you. So far that you have lost yourself somewhere behind...
So long, you have ignored your heart that it no longer calls to you. Or perhaps it does, you no longer understand that language. From light he calls you, from heavens the stars in which your fate was written weeps, and you feel none, you hear none. You continue to trot deeper in to the swamp, the decayed lies, the dead roots, the places where light of faith cannot reach you. Are you in a trance or are you completely vanished?
Today you crossed that last point where our paths crossed. We called out, you turned around and we shudder. Who are you? So empty eyed, so blank faced. So indifferent, stiff and emotionless. A shell that looks like the girl who was once so pure, alive, happy and the soul of a man who has been wounded by world in every way possible? Somewhere down that wrong path you have lost yourself. You are no longer the girl we admired, or the girl he loved. Wait for a moment and think, what have you become...or leave, follow that path until the darkness consumes you completely.
I can't call you Swara, for she is everything you are not. Tell me this, what have you lost? Mind? Or heart? When you hear he is gone, doesn't something break inside you? Doesn't something prick your eyes? Can't you feel anything? Can't you leave a single sigh, or shed a tiny lone tear in his name? What has he done, to deserve this? What have you done to yourself?
I know she has lost her memory. But people who loses their memory don't lose their intelligence as well. The Swara I knew had tears in her eyes when she heard Urvashi was dead. Had tears in her eyes when Ragini who had caused her so much trouble was kidnapped. I can't see that Swara behaving the way she did today.
Is she a part of my OTP or not? CVs, I quit. This is not what I signed up for. I can't watch you burn away someone so beautiful for the sake of drama. This is it. The last nail.
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Sakura
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