Ragya/Raglak: Loving you
was crazy, leaving you was not easy
It's been 3 weeks since Laksh has been nice, loving and
caring towards Ragini. She was surprised shocked and suspicious as to why he
changed all of a sudden. She knew there was going on in his mind and if she was
to find out she needs to keep an eye on him. She knows people don't change that
easy there must a reason why Laksh was being nice to her. he always said that
he hated her and can never love her or that she didn't deserve anyone's love.
Then how can he change so soon, she knew that he saved her
from the knife incident and was there when she needed him to go with her mums
barsi. But there was something bothering here she had a feeling that there was
something amiss. She knew he wanted something and now she knew what he wanted
and why he was being kind and caring towards her. she was in the room sitting
on the floor crying because she knew that she has been a fool, well she turned
into a fool since she started loving him.
Right now at this moment she wished that she has never met
him, or that she had never loved him. She never loved anyone and didn't care if
no-one like/love her. When she found out that she would get married to him she
started to love him, respect him and treat him like a husband because that is
how she was brought up and she thought that loving him was her best option she
had to spent the rest of her life with him. Little did she knew the love, care
she had for him will turn her into this woman she didn't recognise anymore, who
was she what was she? She got up moved towards the mirror and looked at
herself.
All she saw a a woman broken, beaten and scarred for life,
she knew there was no going back for her she knew that everything she did was
the reason she is here in this state now. What she saw in the mirror made her
think back to the time where she was innocent, when she did what she was told,
when she thought she had the rest of her life to live. But now this person she
didn't deserve to live, she can't live anymore, what will she live for and who
will she live for? There is no purposed in life for her.
She has made her mind up and she had to do what she needed
to there is point in hesitating or waiting she had to do it, if she didn't do
it now she can never do it, it took her a lot of will power and strength to
make this decision and she cannot change her mind now.
Flash
She walked in saw some papers on the bed, Laksh was in the
bathroom she read the papers and she was shocked she didn't know what to say do
or think. She went out of the room before Laksh came out she couldn't face him
now. She needed to compose herself before she could face him. Now she knew why
he was being nice to her and why he was acting all lovely to her. The most
disgusting thing he did was not being nice or faked he loved her, but he used
her slept with her knowing he didn't love her, he only did it to get his
property.
She went out of the house walked for 2/3 hours because it
was now or never she needed to make a decision and the decision she makes will
affect her for the rest of her life. She needed to do the right for as a human
and as a woman. She couldn't live with this anomore she has to make her mind
up. She was walking non stop she didn't know to do or where to go. There was
no-one in her life who can help her or give her advice. Everyone she every
loved, respected or cared for they all used her.
Her dadi made her out to be a human doll she just told her
what to do and she did it, her dada he was always quiet didn't say anything.
Her dad was a man who didn't have an opinion on anything just let life go on
and on. He didn't say anything to his mum when she ordered Ragini around he
just let things happen. Shomi was meant to be her mum but she never actually
acted like her mum. Swara always made out as if she cared but she never did she
never understood what Ragini needed or wanted.
Janki her mum she left her when she was young, that was the
biggest regret in her life and she knew that if her mum was alive she wouldn't
have to worry and she would have thought about what was best for Ragini and she
would not be in this mess now.
Sanskar she thought he was her friends but he used her and
made her this thing she is today, horrible person and his mum helped her as
well. She didn't know better then and they used her.
She wishes she had someone she could rely on but there was
no-one, in this world she came alone and she has to leave alone. She couldn't
share her pain with anyone and she has to take the pain with her when she
leaves this pain.
DP and AP were meant to be her mother and father in law but
they didn't see what their son did to her or made her. She did everything
thinking she had right on Laksk and she wanted to get his love and respect. His
parents didn't discipline him if they did maybe he would not be like this.
She didn't know that her falling with someone would mean she
will lose her selfect as a woman,girl, person and a human. Everyone who she
loved hates her because she loved him, everyone she cared for her doesn't talk
to her nicely because of him, and everyone she had in her life she lost because
of him.
She has nothing to fight for anymore at least she knows this
and now she can be free. Free from this so called marriage this relationship
this sham which people call a marriage, she was wring she should have never
gotten married to him and made her life a living hell. She didn't get any love,
respect, happiness, care or anything from this marriage.
She has to go home and sort this out for once and for all.
There is no point in delaying anything and for what there was no reason, as
they say better late than never, she is glad she has learnt a lesson an she can
take the decision she wanted to long time ago.
She before she went home, she went
to get some papers because she knew she would need them and without them her
final decision will incomplete. She cannot leave anything incomplete not at his
point and not right now.
She went home she wiped her face,
enough of crying no more crying no more tears for someone who doesn't give a
s*** about her or her love.
She went in the house looked at
the Mandir, the rooms, walls, pictures, furniture's and they all seem to say
the same thing you don't belong here and you never did. She knew she didn't
belong here and she tried her best to belong but she didn't.
She run up the stairs, went to her
room no HIS room, she never belonged there and especially now, she was a guest
and she needs to leave the room, house and his life. There was no place for her
here.
She opened the door, Laksh was
sitting on the bed looking at the papers she read but he didn't know she read
them. He smiled at her, she gave him a bitter smile put her bag down and went
to the bathroom, she needed some cold water to calm her down, she needed an
hours to sort everything out.
She came out of the bathroom,
Laksh knew this was his chance to get her to sign the papers and he knew he had
to be nice to get them down. He got up and walked towards her. She was facing
the mirror on the dressing table. He came and hugged her from the back and she
felt disgusted at his touch and she wanted to push him away and run away but
she couldn't not for some time.
She closed her eyes tight and
didn't want to look in the mirror to see she was being held by the guy who made
her into a monster and now he was a monster himself. Laksh looked at her and
thought god Ragini you love my touch so much, but little do you know I hate you
so much I can't believe I am close to you but what can I do I have to do this
for what I want.
Eyes came out of Ragini these were
angry tears she was angry at herself for being to helpless and letting him hold
her. she turned around and got out of
his hold.
Ragini: Laksh can I ask you
something?
Laksh: yes sure you don't need my
permission.
Ragini: why have you changed so
much, why are you being so nice, caring and lovely to me?
Laksh: because you are my wife and
I do not want to fight with you anymore I am tired of fighting we are married
we need to live this life so no point in being angry at you
Ragini: how can you love someone
so fast you hated me, wanted me to die, you never wanted to see my face, you
said I don't deserve anyone love. So I am curious as to how you can love me? if
I was you I wouldn't be able to love you never
Laksh: Ragini we have to move on
in life, we have to think about the past
Ragini: don't you feel disgusted
coming close to me, being nice to me, caring for me, everything I did to your
parents and family, I took your love away from you, I tried to kill her?
Laksh: Ragini please lets not talk
about the past lets move on and forget the past
Ragini: I can't forget anything
Laksh and I never will, I will my pain and sorrows with me when I leave
Laksh: leave what do you mean?
Ragini: nothing don't worry forget
ai said anything, where am I gonna go, anyways I have a surprise for you, come
down stairs I want to give it to you in front of everyone and bring the papers
in your hand you want me to sign them right I will do that as well. Hurry don't
take time I will gather everyone in the hall.
Laksh stood in the room and
thought what is wrong with her and why is she acting so strange, she wants to
sign these paper if only she knew what they were, what surprise is she going to
give me. I am sure it's nothing good. Then he walks slowly to go and see what
she is going to do now.
Ragini stands outside the door
wipes her tears, no Ragini no more tears remember have to be strong and get
this done, and then you will be free forever.
Ragini calls everyone and gathers
them in the front room. She waits for Laksh, he comes out and stands, next to
DP and AP. Ragini is standing in front everyone, she wanted everyone attention
so she can talk to them and tell them everything she needed to be clear and on
point.
Ragini: I called you all here
because it's time I made a decision which will make you all happy and free from
me. I know I have be a complete b****. I know you all you all hate me and want
to out of your lives for good. I will make this easy for you all and just get
to the point. Its time I left this place, this house, this life, this marriage
and this so called husband of mine.
Everyone is shocked and surprised
as to what she is saying, everyone was thinking if she is in her right mind or
has she gone crazy. Laksh looked at Ragini with surprise, he couldn't believe
his ears.
DP: what are you saying Ragini?
Ragini: don't be so shocked
everyone is not any out of this world this is what you all wanted for so long
so be happy.
Ragini: if you can then forgive me
for hurting you all. If you can't I understand. Laksh I know why you were being
so nice to me, loving me, caring for me and respecting me. Laksh was shocked he
didn't know what to say.
Ragini: Laksh you did all this
drama, faking to love all because you wanted me to sign the papers on your hand
correct, you have been trying to get me to sign those papers for some time now
but because of my nave behaviour you failed few times. You try to trick me
into signing them by saying insurance papers etc. Laksh you are pathetic you couldn't
find another way to get me to sign them so you had to physically abuse me to get
what you wanted.
Laksh was speechless how did she
know, when, where and how did she find out. He was being so careful.
Ragini: don't think too hard Laksh
your brain will hurt, you never thought so much in your life, you always did
the first thing that came in your mind like raping me to get the power from me,
to break me and my soul.
Laksh just stared at her he didn't
know what the hell was happening around him, what was she saying did he
actually do what she said, she is right he always did the first thing that came
ot his mind.
Ragini: Laksh give me the papers I
will sign them for you, if you asked me to do that before I would have done it
and you wouldn't have had to stoop so low like me to get them. I never wanted
your property, money or anything all I ever wanted was your love and wanted you
to respect me and care for me like any man does for his wife. But you were
right I don't deserve anyone love or care, I came in this world all alone and
will leave all alone, no one in this world will miss me. Even my own mum left
me she didn't want to live with me, she probably knew I would turn out to be a
monster. I turned into a monster because of you. Loving you was crazy, leaving you is not easy
but this is the best thing I am going to do ever.
Laksh: Ragini what
Ragini: Laksh don't, just don't
say anything there is nothing left to say for ou or me only one thing to do
Laksh: Ragini let me
Ragini put her hands up to stop
him
Ragini: Laksh I was wrong you never
loved me and never will, why would you I am aa evil person, I am not like your
first love and never will be, I tried to be the way you would want your wife,
partner friend and lover to be but that is not me, anywasy no point in wasting
all our time
Laksh stood there like a statue he
didn't kno w what to say, he knew what he did was wrong and he now realised he
shouldn't have but was it too late now.
Ragini: give me the papers, he
didn't move she went to him snatched the papers, took a pen and signed them,
she took some other papers out from her bag signed them, put both the documents
in a big envelop, she put the envelop down, took out her mangle sutra, rings,
earring and all other jewellery she put everything in the envelop.
She sealed the envelope wrote Mr
Laksh Maheswari, she wanted to hand them over to him, she dint want to touch
him again.
Ragini: Laksh I know you felt
disgusted touching me and coming close to me but you didn't it because you
wanted me to sign these papers, I hope you are happy now, I wrote your name on
the envelope so you don't have to endure the pain of touching me again, I
wouldn't want to give you any more pain then I already have.
She took a glass of water poured
it over her forehead to get rid of the sindoor, she didn't want to leave with
any sign of being married.
Ragini: Laksh you free from this
so called marriage, from me, from my love, from my care, from my respect, from
my life from seeing my face every day, from having to tolerate my voice and me.
I wish you all the best for the future, find someone who will make you happy,
make you laugh, make you want to live and not hate this world, because what you
are doing now is not living, it's just being alive. One thing Laksh never use
anyone like you used me okay, think before you make any decision, don't be in a
hurry to get what you want.
Laksh and everyone just stood
there without moving or saying anything.
Ragini: oh one more thing I forgot
to tell you, when I went to YOUR room this morning because let face it the room
was never mine or outs it was always YOURS. I came to tell you I went to the
doctors and you were going to become a dad but not anymore. I was never meant
to be happy in this life time that is why when I thought I got good news about
being a mum, I saw the papers and knew it wasn't good news. Anyway goodbye
everyone be happy and keep smiling, because this evil is going away from your
lives forever.
Laksh runs towards her holds her
wrist.
Laksh: where do you think you are
going, why didn't you tell me about my id? I am not letting you go with my
child?
Ragini pushed him off her, I can
go and do whatever I want Laksh I don't need your permission, I am not part of
your property that you wanted back, I am not your friend nor am I your wife you
have no right over me. Child what child this one, she pointed at the stomach,
who is never meant to come into this world, who is the mark of me being
deceived, fooled, played with and used. This child was never meant to come to
this world and you will never see this child Laksh, never.
Laksh: don't you dare take my
child with you and this child will come in this world. This is my child.
Raginis laughs don't make me laugh
Laksh, you can't stand me and you want this child, you can have more children
with the love of our life, who is waiting for you somewhere go and find her. I
gave you what you wanted, you took everything from me, my heart, soul, life
there is nothing else left.
I am sorry angry at what they are showing right now, I had to write this, hope you likes like it
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