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Hello😳
Does anyone remember me? 😃
I am Paro and I had written a few stories on our favorite couple before going awol😆😆
Life had been hectic and I had no time to log into the forum. But tonight's episode had been the limit.
I had to log in and I had to do something to get rid of the pent up frustration inside me. 😛
So wrote this to satisfy my inner Swasanian.😃
I am not very satisfied with this and I know that Swara never in her seven lives will talk to her bade papa this way. 😆😆 This was written completely for my satisfaction and if I offended anyone in any way I'm really sorry.
I just wanted to show a sane person's reaction, had they been subjected to what Swara had to go through not just today but also throughout the whole show.
And I don't know about Swara, but I certainly have reached my limit.😆😆😆
I really want to continue this, and will if anyone is interested. 😊
If you didn't like the way Swara behaved, let me know.
Lastly it's 1:30am and I'm too lazy to proofread, so beware of errors. 😆😆
Limits
"Never push a loyal person to a limit where they no longer care." -Unknown
"Swara"
I turned around to the sound of that voice. I instantly recognized who it belonged to and felt like a mist of dread had enveloped me.
"Yes bade papa." Even I was surprised at how indifferent my voice sounded. What happened to you swara? I found myself wondering. Why do u feel this way? Why are you so.. detached? Don't you care about these people anymore? Why swara? But it was too late now. The swara who cared so much was no longer there. She was burried alive by the very people she tried to save, she was burried over and over, feeling suffocated under the many layers of sand. I no longer cared, I realized yet again with indifference. With the same blank face I waited patiently infront of my bade papa, waiting to hear what he wanted. Oh yes I knew he wanted something. I saw no other reason for anyone to speak with me, baring my maa, dida and him. I unconsciously balled up my fists, my nails digging into my palm, the pain of which was nothing compared to the agony inside my heart. Thinking of him was painful, but I was sure my face was blank. After all, I was now an expert at pretending that I was fine.
"Why didn't you come back home child?" He asked in his calm and composed voice. I almost snickered.
"Why would I? My husband didn't need my presense."
"We needed you. Your sister is beside herself now, even asking Annapoorna to clean the floor with her hands. She needs her Swara bahu my child" He said in a sad voice.
"You shouldn't have broken my marriage and thrown me out then." I said as I quelled down all those awfully familiar feelings of protectiveness arising from me after hearing those words. This is what he wanted, for me to break down from his words and go running back to Maheswari mansion, so they'll have someone to fight infront of them. Someone who takes up every blow inflicted upon them. Sorry bade papa, been there done that. It will change nothing. Everyone's first priority is themselves, maybe it's time I started doing the same.
"I can't believe you are saying this Swara. I always had high hopes for you." Bade papa said more shocked than disappointed.
"I can't believe it either." I whispered pensively. "And the feeling is completely mutual."
Bade papa looked at me as if he had been slapped. I still stood indifferantly. I knew what I had said hurt him beyond his limits, and it certainly was a bit cruel not to forget rude but I didn't care. I wanted no longer part in this. This twisted game being played at that house. And whatever his reasons had been, he had tried to break my marriage. To break two soulmates apart from eachother and it was just not justified in any way.
"Swara" His whisper sounded so broken that I wanted nothing but to hug him and assure him that everything will be fine. But I did no such thing. I stared back waiting for him to continue.
"Annapoorna, Sujata, Parineeta and Uttara. They need you Swara, they need someone as strong as you. Ram, Lakshya, Sanskar, Adarsh and I, we need to go to the office. And they are all alone, they need you Swara. None of them is strong enough to handle Ragini-"
That did it. I started laughing. Bade papa paused his speech and looked at me, very painfully.
"They need protection right? They need their scapegoat to bear everything Ragini throws at their way, hain na? What about me bade papa? Don't I need protection? Happiness? Love? Or am I some sort of mutant specie who doesn't feel all this. It is the same bade papa. I feel the same way everyone else feels pain. There is nothing installed in me to make me immune to all of that. What all I did bade papa? I would have given my life to any of you without a second thought. And what do I get in return? Betrayal, backstabbing, pain.
Pain, pain and pain." My voice was high, I was not shouting, I was venting. "I give up" I said defeatedely.
***
Sanskar crossed the doors to Maheswari mansion feeling worn down. It was no longer a home. Just a place where some strangers lived. They walked silently, afraid if the sound of their footsteps will unleash the monster within.
He sighed. She is not here. His home was where she was. If only he had... stop right there Sanskar, he internally scolded himself. It's better this way, she is gone. Don't keep pondering over maybes. It's over, it's over, he kept repeating in his head as he climbed up the staircase towards his room. He saw no point in going downwards to meet the family. All he would get would be Ragini again trying to establish that she owns this house in yet another sick way. He was frankly tired of her crap and wanted some moments of peace till the inevitable happened. It was then that he heard some musical tinkling. Anklets, he recognized. Since the only anklet wearing resident of the house was Ragini, he steered himself to bear with yet another one of her speeches giving insight to her twisted perspective. Imagine his surprise when instead of Ragini a shorter and a very much loved face was seen slowly walking down the stairs. At first he thought he was hallucinating, that his fatigued and desperate mind had conjured up an illusion of the very person he craved for like a drowning man carved oxygen. But as her petite figure reached him and filled him with the warm and pleasent feeling she always ignited in him, he took a double take. It really was her, dressed in a light blue dress that hugged her figure, it really was his Swara descending down the stairs. He held his breath and stilled as she reached him. To his utter shock, she walked right past him not showing the slightest aknowledgement of his presence, with an expression totally blank. He remained standing there with the same astonished expression for a few more seconds, unconsciously drowning in her sweet fragrance that lingered.The musical tinkling of her anklets were starting to fade when Sanskar shook himself out of his reverie.
"Swara" He called out and she turned back.
She looked at him questioningly, a frown between her perfect eyebrows in contrast to the fond look in her eyes.
Sanskar couldn't speak. He just stared at her dumbly contemplating what to ask. What was she doing here? Is she back on her mission 'Maheswari bachao andolan'? Or was she back for him? Who let her inside? Why is there no dramatic scene by Ragini? He didn't know what to ask first and stood there silently.
Swara raised an eyebrow, seeing that he just stood there silently without speaking. She shrugged, turned back and continued walking.
Sanskar watched her leave, feeling a bit relieved as he needed a bit time before he could speak with her, but the overwhelming feeling was the familiar one of despair that enveloped him every time one of them walked away from the other.
Why are you back Swara? I still need to learn to live my life without you. How can I, when every path I take brings me back to you? Why Swara? Why do yoj keep doing this? To myself and to you too.
These thoughts kept running through his mind as he watched Swara enter the guest room and close the door. Why Swara? He repeated. Why?
I know it's short and Swasan interaction is also less, but if you guys want me to continue, I promise the next chapter will be longer.😳😃
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