Swara , You are Sanskar's world he lives , breathes, smiles because of you...this man ... Swara continuously hiding own wounds behind smile only because he doesn't want you to feel uncomfortable ... He is ready to sacrifice his everything for your smile..
The fact is that he can't watch you leaving him but only for your happiness he offers you that freedom ..to make you laugh he is making fun of his own feelings that he won't behave like Majnu or Devdas if you leave , but what you will never know that his condition would become worse than any of them (with due respect to Majnu and Devdas) yes , but still he will smile ...only because he doesn't want you to feel guilty...
Did you ever notice the pain in his eyes when he says "tum toh mujhse kabhi pyyar nahi karogi" if you know what's pain of love then you must know his heart is bleeding for you...
I am happy that today you said "main nahi chahti mere wajahse tum he dukh ho " and your tears said it all..but y you think you can't do anything? you can Swara... only you can... don't let him go Swara...admit to your heart at least that you are feeling bad for Sanskar and you were sad because you think YOU CAN'T LOVE HIM BACK LIKE THE WAY HE DOES...
but you know what ...the moment you felt that you can't love him and you feel guilty for that...that moment you actually loved him more than anything else...and now you can't accept Lakshya back in your life definitely not because of Ragini...it's because YOU KNOW YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO LOVE LAKSHYA AGAIN... but you need to realize the reason as soon as possible ...your feeling bad . you are feeling guilty..You are Feeling You Should Love Sanskar that means You want to love him... and as there's no reason not to love him...so You are falling for him unknowingly..
Sanskar accepted the fact that you would never love him and he gave himself few limits and learned how to smile even in this situation ... but what about you Swara? you feel restless the moment you don't see him near you... you need him badly in your weak moments ...in your pain in your stress , you Can't live without seeing his ever smiling face ,his ever consoling ever soothing attitude ...and you will never be able to live separated from him now Swara...understand this...
You get angry when he says you to go back to his brother ...but why ? when you don't love Sanskar and Ragini also wants you to accept Lakshya then why not? Like Sanskar we all SwaSan fans Asking you the same question.. why Swara? Hope you soon get the answer...