She's a victim of a life-long abuse from her own father and dadi, and after finding out the reason for that abuse, she went through first kinnarland trauma, then the kidnapping and almost selling trauma, then her mother (her only shakti for a long time) death trauma.
Then, when she was most vernalable she went through the biggest trauma of all; a.k.a Preeto, who didn't leave a way to convince her that her mere existence in life is a horrible crime that deserves worst punishment possible!
So, of course she hates her being a kinnar and thus hates herself very much, she thinks it's all her fault, that she's "bad" for all her beloved ones! She thinks however bad any of them treat her, it is her just punishment, that she deserves it for the horrible crime of being a kinnar, and of course, she thinks she doesn't deserve Harman's love or devotion, and thinks herself the worst thing that ever happened to him!
So, you tell me, if someone hate themselves all that much, would they have any place left for self-respect?
Of course CVs exaggerate that too much, resulting in a rather distorted image of her state, not to mention bad execution that doesn't give her proper space to showcase and clarify her inner turmoil and psychological problems to the viewer...
Edited by H_H_ - 8 years ago