how can she stand that oppression when she was the one who stood against
the priest in her own community without fearing for the outcome. who had the guts to challenge a billionaire to come and refuse marriage on her face.who manages her fathers business and never looked down upon as a burden of being a girl child.
rathar a Laxmi , Durga and sarswati of the house .. how can she suddenly become a drained person without self respect and courage to fight for herself
but then she is fighting for Saras the man who she loves to hate. who has destroyed her and ruined her life by refusing her on marriage alter, breaking all her trust and promises...what the hell does she has to do with him..why not simply delete him and then empty the recycle bin of her life.
but ...but ...but
he is the one , she is living for ..her heart longs for him and her eyes cry for him,
her soul dies a million times seeing him in pain. every single moment reminds her of his existence and the love they once shared. she wants to hurt him to the level that hurts her bad as well so she can feel the pain she wants to give him for his betrayal. hurting him to show that she is super fine without him but her eyes just show the color of her bleeding heart.though deep inside... her inner consciousness has already convinced her that he is innocent and deeply broken.
Love isn't a decision. It's a feeling. If we could decide who we loved, it would be much simpler, but much less magical. so no matter how much she hides her feelings and keep the truth locked within herself, real love doesnt go away, it doesnt fade either, it always finds its way back because they are not two but one soul in two bodies. they are not Saraswatichandra and Kumud...but they are Samud
i am trying not to care
i am trying not to live my life
wishing you were there
i am trying not to wonder
what you did and where you were
i am sorry i cant help myself
i fell in love with you