Originally posted by: omshreejaanu
New OS:
"Confessions"
This OS is for:
Mr and MrsTony Rode and Leena on their birthday. 🤗
And to all members of our forum who are ruled by the Leo sign!!
Happy Reading then to all the "leonine"!! Hope you enjoy it!!😃
Saras was standing at the window gazing at his own reflection as his mind went to her. Why was she behaving weirdly these days? He too was not himself as it was time for him to go back to Dubai. He has to. Her parents have found out the truth. There was nothing left now and she has also told him to go away. He wished she would stop him. Crazy... but he wished she would give him at least a reason to stop...
His eyes fell down to a book left on the window sill before him. It has a red cover. Saras picked it up and opened it. He was shocked. Kumud's journal. No he shouldn't!! But...
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6th March 2013
Oh kanha Ji he is here!! He has come!! Why? because I challenged him to come? I played hide and seek all day but couldn't stop myself to sneak into his room at night and...I have never set my eyes on anything more gorgeous in my life!! He was mesmerizing, sleeping peacefully, his face glorious and I found myself fanning him so lost in him!!
He turned some more pages, stopping at the mention of his name and took a trip down memory lane.
21st March 2013
"Tum to apne aap se bhagte ho, tum kisi se rishta kyon jodoge?"
I was very rude to him and he deserved it. He hurt me. What does he think of himself?
He said it was just my ego that made him come to Ratnagiri!! How can he...
I have packed his bag n asked him to leave early in the morning and leave the rest to me.
2 April 2012
Yeh kya hogaya!! What happened to me? Why did I get carried away? I kept pretending that I was just helping him on humanitarian ground. I must not forget that he has rejected me even before seeing me!!
But...my heart still would go to him and the moment he would look at me with those eyes which always have the power to overpower me and melt my insides and I would just turn a slave, his slave...
"You sold all the pots... I am not worthy of it... U don't even give me a chance to say thanks..."
I tried to move away but again he had stopped me "I didn't want to give you any pain...but still I keep hurting you...
Taking my wrist in his hand to look at my bruise... holding me close to him... lost in his eyes...mesmerized...and...he did the epic "gustaaki" that sent shock waves to my whole body and made my mind numb!! Hehad trailed his fingers around my waist, burning my skin in the process. My breathing hitched, I looked at him completely shocked. Finally I managed to run away feeling guilty for melting in his arm and succumbing and... more guilty for loving it!!His hands on me never seem wrong to me!!
Is this what happens to lovers? All the confusion...The desperate longing... I want to scream stop and at the same time cry out for him to touch more of me.
22 April 2012
" Hamare beech kuch to hain which has no name but that ehsaas I can't ignore n u cant either."
What a day it was!! I spent it with him in town, we got trapped in the storm n he protected me from the winds by wrapping his jacket around me n then...he had closed in. So near that I could feel his hot breath caressing my face.
I could see where it was going. His lips were dangerously close, inviting, and irresistible. I was tempted to give in but I knew I had to keep myself under control. I turned away to go but he had grabbed my arm n his eyes had stopped me. I surrendered as he cupped my face, caressing my left cheek with his thumb. It was heavenly and I closed my eyes to calm the storm which was building inside me. And again I managed to put a stop at it and moved away from him.
Back home maa had slapped me. I was hurt but then he came to my room and his confession undone me!!
23 April 2013
He has started the ignoring game with me. Fine. He never disappoints when it comes to running away frim himself, from relationships and from...me. I will let him go. If my "bhavishya" is indeed Saraswatichandra, then...till then we better stay within our limits.
Saras could not help but felt a twinge of pain in his heart. Why does he always end hurting her and her feelings??
As he turned the pages, his eyes stopped at one particular line below a specific date.
30 April2013
His deep sultry voice had whispered to me: "You are a desire I can't run from Kumud."
He had reached his hand up and gently brushed a lock of my hair from my cheek. When his finger had trailed across me, he had left my skin burning with a deep wanting for him. Leaning in closer with his body cradling me with the strength of him, he had said softly, "Nor will I try to."
I wanted nothing more at that moment. I just wanted him to make me his.
His gaze was burning through me. I felt my heart ignite into a firestorm.
Am I his desire? How could those big dark eyes do so much to my body in a matter of seconds?
What would happen if our lips were to ever touch?
His body was pushing up against me. I was trembling uncontrollably. He was smirking, knowing very well that he was the sole cause of that too.
His breath deepened in my ear as his body tensed along mine, the passion we felt for each other filling the air around us. I was in a poised state of waiting.
Waiting for...his words. Waiting for... his touch. Waiting for...his kiss.
Running the palm of his hands along my waist, he rested them at the small of my back. I let out a small whimper that could not be helped and found myself stuttering:
" I..."
"Sshhh," he whispered back.
His lips grazed my neck so very softly almost as if being ticked by a passing breeze. He then trailed his gentle lips up to my ear and whispered, "You are beautiful..."
And he was gone.
My first dream of him. Unrestrained, unleashed and since then every night he would whisper some wicked and naughty things n my ears and I would wake up blushing profusely!!
His heart started racing. He felt it leap with joy!! Has he found the reason not to go? Could it be that she was in love with...
Turning the pages, he reached to the place that has been marked with a pink ribbon. The date was that of today itself.
"Oh that was what she was doing in the afternoon", Saras muttered to himself.
10 May 2013
I can no longer face him without my cheeks burning. As he gazes at me, all my fantasies from my dreams would play in my mind and I feel so foolish ans ashamed. Sometimes it's as if they really happened when I gaze at him. It scares me. It draws me in. It consumes my thoughts and teases my senses of longing. How am I to fight this? To hide this?How come am i so attracted to him when he...
He will leave soon. He wants to go back. He has been very explicit about his stand about marriage...Tomorrow I will spend the day avoiding him and the next day...
There is simply no other way. For if I do not...I feel, no, I'm scared I will only be left with a broken heart.
Kumud laid in her bed thinking of him. He was going back in two days.. She suddenly sat up and said, "My journal."
Jumping out of bed, panic welling up within her, she rushed outside her room to the living room. She knew she had left it on the window sill earlier and cursed herself for doing so. Her walk turned to run...
She stopped dead. She only managed a:"Oh God...no," as Saras turned towards her with the journal in his hands. She stood before him breathless. Her thick long hair a mess around her face. Her cheeks burning.
Realizing he has read it all, Kumud backed up from the doorway. He saw the embarrassment flooding her cheeks and her eyes all wide with shock and...terror. She turned away and began to run towards the way she came.
"Wait kumud, wait!"
Tossing the book onto a chair, Saras took off after her. She had a good head start but not good enough. Before she could slam the door of her room on his face, Saras caught up to her and grabbed her by the arm spinning her body towards him. "Kumud please stop."
He saw the tears glistening in her beautiful eyes.
Pushing against him, kumud yelled too embarassed and angry with herself "Leave me!!". He tightened his grip around her arm and she finally pleaded: Please leave me!!
"I can't!"
She softened in his grasp.
"I won't." Saras loosened his grip further.
"Not ever Kumud. Not in this lifetime."
And he hugged never to let go as she hid her face in his chest.
That's it!! This is a weird piece of writing!! I dunno what i have really jot down. May b my version of SaMud confession to each other in a "hatke" way!!😳
U know the drill.Thank you😳
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