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Hello Everyone! I finaaly finished my OS on AnGini. It continues from friday's episode Nov 12th to..Ah! well read and find where it leads to. It didn't turn out how I expected but I think it would be able to make you smile..😊..SO read and leave comments.. so Here you go!
...'Tum Bin!'
The moon-light peeked into the dark room as she sat on bed, lost in deep thoughts. The past week was full of events and she could not believe that Anmol has left 'Rajvansh-House.' She tried her best not to be in the bed room and tried to keep herself busy in other work but she couldn't. It was just not the room but every nook & croony of the house that reminded her of Anmol. Whoever she came across with, has asked her, 'When was Anmol returning?' and everytime her heart got a liitle heavier. Days ago, She stood in the same room with mixed feelings about her decision and she asked for divorce...her voice was breaking into fragment of sentence but she tried her best to hide. She thought this relation-ship was a burden on him and she tried to lift that burden by setting him free from this relation-ship. He gently held her hand, cupped her face and asked her to look into his eyes. She gulped down one after another lump forming in her throat to prevent from breaking down in his arms. She wished she could tell him how much he meant to her but she didn't tell back then. She wanted to see him smile with the 'love' of his life. When she didn't know him, Ranveer has told her how cruel Anmol's life has been to him when it snatched everything dear to him. He has lost so much in the process of giving her family a 'reason' to smile. She knew if she looked into depth of his heart she would find so much love for the family and........perhaps for herself as well but she knew somebody needed to love him 'unconditionally' and...she was not that 'somebody.' He has killed his old-self in order to make her smile and she knew she could not pay him for what he did. As long as she could remember, he was there in her every memory...his nod...his smile...his concern for her..and sometimes something much deeper and pure was in his eyes but she couldn't comprehend it then and she ignored to look into his eyes when he asked whether her decicion (fpr divorce) was coming from heart. His touch had that serene feeling that overwhelmed her and she felt herself squished between the overwhelming feeling from his touch and growing heaviness in her heart. How simply he had told her that he is happy with this relation-ship and whether can they stay that way. With 'fake' rudeness, she said it has been a sham and she cannot put off with a relation-ship that is a show-off. She could feel the pain in his voice when he asked her to think about Tammy. The life threatened to leave her when she asked him to sign 'Divorce-paper.' The courage she mustered was not easy for her when he gave her the file and left the room. She hugged it and cried hysterically. Her sobs converted into hiccups in no time but a 'decision' to make him happy made her wipe her tears. She wanted to see him perhaps the last time and went down stairs. Why she felt she was missing something when she thought he would be happy with Shivani but it seemed right to her..He looked into her eyes when she bent down to give Tammy a kiss and she knew he could look deeper in her heart if the 'momemt' was long. He left the house with daughters squeezing the peace and happiness out from her heart; she simply looked at him as he parted his way from her while leaving Rajvansh-House'
Another worry struck her when kids did not come home. A while passed but kids didn't return home and she could think of only Anmol for help but he was gone! When Sakshi's called and she asked for money, She broke down, knowing she couldn't protect her family for even a little while without him. it just became so easy for him as it became his family. She remembers passing out at the news of kids being 'kidnapped' and when she woke up hours later, kids were with her. How did that happened??.. she never knew. When she asked kids about it, they didn't say at first. Khushi wanted to say something but Tammy stopped her from sayng anything. Elders of the family were told by Sakshi that Anmol saved them as he followed Tarun's Auto and called Police. He went to School to see the kids before his 'trip.' She knew she wouldn't be able to look into his eyes if he was there with kids.
This didn't end here! Shivani was not found for hours next day. Shlok was dead-worried for her she came back so late, looking so upset and asked Shlok to marry her. When Shlok asked about the 'someone' she had in her life, Shivani said that 'someone' had found true love already and even he is away from his 'love' he would never love anyone, That piece of information made her smile but she lost it as she remember she told him that she is not happy with 'fake' relationship.
The last few days she spent with him rewinded themselves in her mind and she felt love he had in his eyes and heart, was for her. How could she ignore the 'intense' love he had for her. His soft voice just soothed her eyes and when she called him 'Anmolji' a smile always occupied his face. His effort to bring a smile on her face was so geniune. How could she trusted her decicion so much that she didn't pay attention to what he had to say. She wanted to see him again and talk to him but she didn't know ..Where was he? Her life was empty in true 'sense' now. She cursed herself for parting him from her. She looked at the couch as he would just appear there..sleeping. She got up from the bed to look around the room as he would just appear and she would hug him. Tell him that She Loves him too but she was left alone with Sadness in her life. Sleep was no where near her.
Moon-light spread on the couch and she sat on it. Her hands caressed it and she laid down on the couch. He was not there yet it was the calmest place for her at the moment. She could feel his presence there. She feet asleep on couch feeling his warmth so close to her.
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Dawn broke few hours later and a long day awaited Ragini. Shivani-Shlok marriage was taking place in Rajvansh house today. Every rituals will take place in short amount of few hours and Malti Bhabhi has been preparing for this day for so long. Ragini kept herself busy to ignore to miss him but it was impossible. First it was Haldi at 10:00 a.m., then 'Mehndi' with Sangeet at 2:00 and pheras will take place at 6:00 p.m.
She woke up at 6:00 a.m. and took a shower, her body had his robe on it; she was missing him so much. She was surprised when she loooked into the mirror, the door was locked when she went to take a shower but he was there behind her looking at her. He came closer as his lips sang
"Jaanam, dekh lo, mit gayi dooriyaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
Kaisi, sarhadein, kaisi majbooriyaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
Kaisi, sarhadein, kaisi majbooriyaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
She turned around to see him but he has disappeared leaving her confused. She got ready and left the room to check the preparation When Malti Bhabhi complimenetd,
"Arrey Wah! Ragini..Bahut achchi lag rahi ho..Aise lag raha hai tu Anmol Ji ke liye saji hai!" She smiled and saw him smiling as he sang once again,
"Tum chhupa na sakogi main woh raaz hoon
Tum bhoola na sakogi woh andaaz hoon"
Tum bhoola na sakogi woh andaaz hoon"
The rituals of Haldi took place but Ragini was busy in other work that was finished as 'Mehndi' started. Vasu Insisted her to put the Mehndi on and when she saw her hand a dark & clear 'A' peeked through the design; she felt Happy. She looked up to see him walking from the dancing crowd and held her hand..
"Goonjta hoon jo dil mein toh hairaan ho kyun
Main tumhaare hi dil ki toh awaaz hoon"
Main tumhaare hi dil ki toh awaaz hoon"
He took her forward to Dancing floor as her voice reached her ears.
"Sun sako, toh suno, dhadkanon ki zabaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
Kaisi, sarhadein, kaisi majbooriyaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan"
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
Kaisi, sarhadein, kaisi majbooriyaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan"
She danced with him and smiled happily..but when she looked around he went back to her imgination again!
The time of pheras arrived and everyone was getting ready so she came to change as well. She changed into Mehroon Dress but its back has strings. She tried to tie it when..his fingers caresses his back and she saw him in the mirror again..
"Main hi main ab tumhaare khayaalon mein hoon"
He tied the doori and moved her hair from shoulder to back..His lips caressed her neck while his hand hugged her. She felt like melting and closed her eyes to take a breath..when she opened her eyes..he was gone again!
When she got ready, her eyes looked at the 'picture-frame' on the wall. He was smiling there along with her and she felt his breath caressing his cheek this time..
"Main jawaabon mein hoon, main sawaalon mein hoon
Main tumhaare har ek khwaab mein hoon basa"
Main tumhaare har ek khwaab mein hoon basa"
The door opened and Guni entered the room. Ragini looked around he was gone again...and Guni took her downstairs. Her eyes were searching for him everywhere..She went to get something from store room and she looked around to see if he was there. She turned to leave the room when when some petals of rose brushed her face as he threw at her..
"Main tumhaari nazar ke ujaalon mein hoon
Dekhti, ho mujhe, dekhti ho jahaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan"
Dekhti, ho mujhe, dekhti ho jahaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan"
He came closer to her and cupped her cheek. She felt nervous and intensity of his gaze made her break the eye-contact with him and she blinked. He was gone once again back to her imagination. She threw what she held on the ground and ran to lawn. She sat there on a bench as his voice faded..
"Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan....."
She called him while crying,"Anmol" Kahaan hain aap?..Kyon chale gaye mujhe chor ke....bas ek baar keh diya hota..'Ragini..Mein Tumse pyaar karta hoon'..Mein Kabhi na jaane deti aapko.." She cried loudly closing her eyes, where in surrounding Anmol was everywhere...but behind her close eyes..she saw how he wanted to say so much but she never let him..She opened her eyes to feel even more miserable now.
"Y..Yeh kya kar diya meine aur kyon?..kyon jaane diya aap ko..pata nahi kahan hain aap aur kis haal mien hain...ab nahi raha jaat mujhse bas..Bas aapko dekhne ka Mann kar raha hai mera..itni Udaas hai mera dil appke Baghair..Kaise Samjhao ise ke aap ab nahi aayegein...Kya karoon mein in aankhon ka jo aap ko har jagah dekhti hai..aur mere kaan aapki awaaz sunna chahate hain...Kash! mein app ko bata paati ke mere is dil ne aap ko pati ke roop mein sweekar kar liya hai aur..aur mein bhi aap se bahut pyaar karti hoon..Kaash! ik mauka mil jaaye..jab mein aap se ye baat keh sakoon..Kaash!.." and she cried after pouring her heart so much. She hoped that wind take her message to him and he would come back to her. Her throat was dried with non-stop crying and her heart was pain...A while passed and silents tears were shed from her eyes...she needed him and a voice pulled her from her trance.
"Ragini"
It was Anmol's voice..She looked up and ran to him. Her hand rose to touch him but it stopped..She knew when she would reach him, he would go back to her imagination again! Why was her heart punishing her so much when she accepted her mistake of letting him go! She knew She was foolish!.. not to ask him anything and drew a conclucion but it was painful to her as well. She just wanted him back. With this thought her silent tears converted into sobs and she started shakin then she was held by two hands!.."Ragini Sambhaliye aapne aap ko!" She opened her eyes in disbelief and hugged him so tighly as there was no way she would let go of him!.. Breaking the hug, She said,"Kahan the aap..aap ko pata hai kitna bechain thi mein" She spoke with a hoarse voice."Ji?" was Anmol reaction.."Ragini aap ne hi to kaha tha ke...aap ye rishta khatam karna chahti hain.." He said reminding her. "Mein kuch bhi kahongi..kareige aapk??.." She asked.
"Pichle kayi Saalon se yahi to karta aaya hoon main..Ragini..aapki marzi .." She cut him off.." Meri Marzi?..Aaapki marzi kuch nahi hai aapke liye..haan!..ik baar wo kiya hota jo aap chahate the..ik baar mujhse kaha hota..ke" She was overwhelmed with the thought then she spoke "..Ragini..'I love you'..mein tumse pyaar karta hoon..to.."
"To?? kya Ragini.."
"Mein Aap ko kabhi na jaane deti.."
"Meine bahut koshish ki..Ragini par aap kuch sunna nahi chahati thi..Par achanak aisa kya ho gaya jisne aap ko mere dil ki baat jaanne par majboor kar diya.." She was silent and he scooped her face in hands again. ''Kya kuch aisa hua..jiska janna mere liye zaroori hai..kahiye Ragini..Aapki Aankhen kuch keh rahi hain par aap ki zubaan khamosh hai..kyon?..aap kuch dair pehle kuch keh rahi thi..kisi baat ka iqraar..kya tha wo..?"
She just looked into his eyes who simply waited for her answer and took a deep breath. When her tongue couldn't utter anything, she simply embraced him. She let a sob escaped as she spoke, " ap bahut achche hain Anmol" She breathed his name into his ears softly .."Mein aap ke baghair nahi reh sakti Anmol..meri zindagi ki zaroorat hai aap..I.." She paused and he heaved a sigh as she said it finally.."I love...you Anmol.." She relaxed and all tension of her body was gone. A smile spread across his face and the moment stood still for him. His dream finally came true she spoke of her feeling to him, confessing her love..Happiness rolled down his cheeks in form of tears and he held her but he wanted to look at her face. when he tried to break the hug, she held onto him as if, didn't want to let go of him. He just smiled, "Ragini..Relax..Main yahi hoon" He whispered into his ears,"aap ke pass!" She let go of him and he looked at her. She was glowing with beautiful feeling in her heart called...'love'!
"Mujhe to Yaqeen nahi aa raha hai Ragini ke aap mujhse kabhi ye kahegi" She looked into his dark-brown eyes that were reflecting with happiness. "I love You, Ragini very much...I just love you...aur mein aapko kabhi chod kar nahi jaonga..Kabhi nahi" and he pulled her in a hug. This time her head rested on her chest and she smiled. The silent surrounding witnessed their most 'awaited' Confession...
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