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i dunno why these days i feel like singing my head offfffffff perhaps coz its ay month and music and lyrics was such an integral part and parcel of themmmm🥰or perhaps becoz i am in loveeeeeeeeee🥰 yeah am in loveeeee and i feel like isnging all the timeeee🥰
wna know hwo the lucky one is?😆🥰
welll obviously ay toh is there that is one thing from which i can never get out of love indact every time i hear a good song i dunno but out of nowhere their faces would corp up in my mind and suddenly the song owuld become so so meanigful so so soulful so liek a froce of salvation which fills u with peace
and yeah am laso flaling in love with my own self all over again🥰🥰
these past three weeks have been one of the biggest period of turmoil for me i was falling deeper and deeper in the pit of depression and gloom i felt so drained so inferior so shattered i felt as if i can''t work can't compete in the corporate world can't do anything i felt liks such a good for nothing looser all the hard work i did for doing mba so felt like in a vain coz i so wasn't able to perform and the peer pressure was killing when i saw other trianees who joined with me getting the hang of working and actualy performing and me doing nothing sitting there like a handicap incapable of work on comps i really felt so demoralized and i so wanted to quit coz i used cry all the time and used to feel sorry for myself..and so ashamed coz god had given me an opportunity to support my parents my sister my whole family and i was just wasting it all.....gee it was a horrible feeling..but then my sister said something which worked like magic....she said..."doll u have reached this far other normal people just dream about going to the best college doing their mba from the best insty but you have ACTUALLY done that and now u wana quit coz of a stupid MS Office which even a sixth grader can do??"....and i was like shit she is so hell righttttt
those who don't know me might be thinking why the hell i am making such a big deal of MS Office but those who REALLY know me and know everything about my life its eevry single truth would know and understand the gravity of the situation theyw ould know how damm hard it is for me to sit before the comp for long hours..but i dunno my sister's word came as a force of inspiration for me and not just my sistoo but ninnyy too god i dunt even know what would i have done if nins wouldn't have been there with me during this phase i mena i couldn't tell my parents about all the problems i was facing didn't want to tell them coz they were brimming with pride when i got the job and i so didn;t want them to doubt me i wanted them to be confident baout me to have faith in me so id idn't tell them anything and nappy was the only one i confided in and man thatg url has seriously reinstilled my confidence in me i know for a fact that she would somehow anyhow make me learn compy but above all just by being there with me she has once again made me believe in myself she has actually chnaged my thinking and once again made me see the positive side of life earlier i used tot hink that this is an impossible situation where there is now ay to get out of it but naaps told me where there is will there is a way loony and yaaa i believe her i believe her faith in me and i actually for the first time really want to learn all this how so eevr hard it might be the other peopelw hos ee me always tlel me i am pushing myself beyond my reach that i can never ocmpete qwith normal people that i have to accept certain limitaions of being the way i am but i wana tell all of them i wana show the world how wrong they r i dunno how i would do in my job but i know one thing iw on't be called a failure coz i won't give up without trying.."TOUCH WOOD"😉
so yaaaa i am once again so so so desperately in love with my self i am once again so proud of being me and am completly out of that disgysting mode of self pity once again i feel so happy so lucky to be meee and once again i look up to myself and respect myself like helllll after ages am so at peace with my self and there is this serene contenment within i am once again dreaming to do the impossible and i know i can do it once again i have found strength and courage within myself and trust me its the best feleing in the world to know form within that for yourself you are the best.."TOUCH WOOD"😉
i am feeling good and i wana sing all the timeee i kepe on listening to music and imagining ay whiekl am working and u know in a way its helping its as if they r pushing me saying ki smriti gurl gear up ur gutts and do whateevr u do superbly coz u have it in you and we r always there to remind u that u r a winenr we wld never let u give up without fighting it out...didn't knew music can be this great a heeler when u r immersed in music u so forget abt all the tentions that crowd ur life and all u reember is thats ong that melody that symphony those words that tune and this wiered sense of calm which sweeps over you and add the thought of ay to it then this becomes the most soothing balm that can wash any fear any regret...
i dunnoo probably i can never ever thank them enough for always showing me the way of light and hope and optimism its like they r in my own aura always filling my life with positve wibes...
but i do wana thnak them and all my friends for being my savior in difficult times...and my way of thnaking is too dedicate htis topic only and only to muuuuuuuuusic lets all sing togetehr at the top topest top of our voicessss lets all become the rocking DJ's and organize a wild and crazy night for ourselves lets tune into love station and become freakingly crazy fools shouting shrieking jumping joyyling all away without giving a damm to whateevr tommorrow has in store for us lets just forget everything and become maaaaaad totlalyl mad and make the world go totally berserk with our insaneity lets let our hai down and just be ourselvessss
so start singing and dnacinggggggggggg don;t care about who is wathcing or who is hearing just do it for yourselfffff get wicked get naughty get groovy and feel that eternal bliss of having nothing but funnnnn
so shall we make a night to remember??
ps...geeeeeeee i realized that i have done a lot of bakwaas and maybe not been able to communicate the prupose of topic amidst all my ramble...u all my ignore it i need to write it for my onw sake to get this out of system for good...guys the tppic essentially is for singing and dancing and having khullam khulla fun so just Rock On guyssss its party time and music and drinks is all on the house😉
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