time to move the train forward☺️☺️, am sure by now each one of you must have fallen truely deeply and madly in love with this rockstar☺️☺️, for those who havn't....well god help them now😉, because this next stop would reveal much greater deapths of the enigma called Yuvi Dev☺️☺️
in the first stop we saw how overly confident and arrogant and always too sure of himself was he☺️....but now as we travel further into his life, his inner self slowly but steadily comes out of its hide out and is out there for those who have the real eyes and more importantly the real heart to see and appreciate☺️☺️☺️....so if you feel you are REAL enough😉, then come join in.the....
...... MAYHEM......
i call this station as "mayhem" because this is the only stage wherein yuvi was unsure of himself and his feelings. There was a rather chaotic juggle going on within himself😳 and he was at constent conflict with his mind and his heart☺️☺️☺️ .....yes in this stage he was totally and utterly CONFUSED as to what he wanted from life and from love☺️☺️....it had been quite some time now since he had known Miss Banergee☺️☺️....and try as he might but he realy could never ignore her and the feelings which she managed to ignite deep within him☺️☺️☺️......though the general air of dislike was still present between them☺️, but her constent bickerings about him and his manners, have rekindlled a flame within him....yes he indeed was in the REALIIZATION stage☺️☺️....obviously his ego was still too big for his shoes and hence he wouldn't go accepting his faults in public and specially in her presance😳....aah wat an effect she has on him hai na☺️......yaa so he might not have lowered his ego and "am the best" notion☺️☺️.....{which u areeeeee definatelyyyyy☺️☺️}.....but still somewhere in his heart he had started realizing the fact that he had a long way to go before he could realy call himself "the best"😳.......yes all the innumerable and endless wars with ashi had made him see himself in all together new perspective☺️☺️.....and seeing her stand for truth and fairness always☺️☺️....seeing her fight for herself and her dreams☺️☺️....seeing her spirit and courage☺️...he too started enying her and her freedome☺️☺️....and without actually meaning to do so or rather without even realizing it☺️☺️....he started looking up to her not just as a friend philosopher and guide☺️☺️.....but as that one ray of light which meant hope and happyness☺️☺️☺️....without even realizing it he started admiring her cherishing her and even loving her☺️☺️☺️....but mind you he is still unaware of these emotions☺️☺️.....and thats why he always gets so confused, as to why he turns so murderous when he sees her with someone else☺️☺️.....or as to why he feels so elated and jubliant whenever hes with her☺️☺️...or as to why he deliberately wants to antognize her so that he can go on fighting and staring at her endlessly☺️☺️☺️....
that was all about the infant stage of love☺️☺️.... which was unseen unheard but yet it was growing stronger with each passing day☺️☺️...so that in times to come it would define Passion☺️☺️☺️..... this phase also saw him change a bit☺️☺️ though basically he still continued to be arrogent and headstrong☺️☺️☺️ but he started shwoing his emotions to friends☺️☺️ he started caring for people☺️ ☺️ and he rode past the barrier of superiority which his class inflicted upon him☺️☺️, now it didnt matter to him if someone was a sardaar or a scholership guy☺️ what mattered was that he or she was his friend☺️☺️☺️...and in his wacko's case his only enemy☺️☺️..during this phase he fake dated her to show his dad that what a strong minded and smart girl frined he had☺️☺️☺️.....and allt his fake dating business drawned him in her to an extent that now there really was no looking back for him☺️☺️....but as i said the feel was there yet they were unaware☺️☺️...you can call it as the initial sparks of infatuation and attraction☺️☺️...but besides that what it really brought about was....a big big big biggg Morale Boost to him....oh yes whenever she was with him she did made it a point to tell him to "FOLLOW HIS HEART" and he listned and took note of every word of hers......during this period Remix was formed too primarily because of her rebelleous nature☺️☺️...and he really was on top of the world that his dream his passion was after all coming to reality☺️☺️.....and she further made him believe that he was good and he had it in him☺️☺️ and he could win it all up. if only he kept trying and learnt to stand up for his dreams in front of his dad😳.......though he was still scared to death where his dad was concerned😆.....and the greatest fear of his life now was to keep his dad as far away from Remix as possible😆.....but the first step of rebel and revolt had been taken👏👏.....and with her by his side this revolt would only end till he had reached the doors of his dreams and destiny☺️☺️☺️ ......
Edited by smritisashi - 18 years ago
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