In the end...Ashi one shot

Okay guyz....since the remix repeats have started again...me can't help but remember all the season1 scenes that I loved...all the times ashi made me laugh..and cry...

I'm sure, all AY fans would remember the scene when ashi comes to know about Yuvi n Sid's bet about making her fall for Yuvi...and everyone must have applauded Priya for her acting, her expressions, her emotions in that scene and the one after that with Sonia...

It is one of my favourites in remix....

So what was Ashi feeling during that scene? What were her thoughts that time..

I tried to write them down....😛..interspersed with one of my fav songs...

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Breathe....go to the left...then the right turn...come on...

It starts with one thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time

Ashi half ran through the halls of Maurya...her hand was balled into a tight fist...her own nails digging deep into her palm...her other hand clutching her cell phone as though her life depended on it.

All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal

The hallways were empty...no one was around...which was both a blessing and a curse...one hand ashi didn't give a damn about who would see her...comment on her....probably they would be shocked to see her...Anvesha Bannerjee Ray...the school's resident prankster like this.....

Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time


Maybe they would laugh...oh yes...ashi was sure that Tia and her friends would jeer if they saw her now...Latty would smirk...Jumbo would say..."Well well well what's happened to you now Miss Ray?? It seems as though the joke's on you now.."

'A joke', she thought bitterly, yes, that's what she had become...she was always related to jokes...it was fitting that in the end..she had become a joke now...

All thanks to....him...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

Ashi increased her pace...she didn't want anyone to find her...or maybe she didn't want him to find her...and laugh at her...

But in the end
It doesn't even matter

She felt her vision go blurry...and thought that maybe she was going to faint. 'Maybe then he'll rejoice...if I faint here..' she thought and then realised that the blurriness was her own sheen of tears. She stopped and swiped her hand over her face, fiercely.

She didn't cry...she was Anvesha Ray...she couldn't cry...she wasn't like all those cry babies at Maurya...she wasn't supposed to cry...not for anyone...not especially for him...

In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so far



Yet, it was getting harder n harder to suppress the lump that had formed in her throat....she cursed the fact that it was taking her such a long time to get to her room...

Then she stopped and reconsidered...why should she go to her room..where Vrinda and MP would ask her questions and mostly likely pity her...
No, she changed tack and whirled around, going in the opposite direction, almost running now...

She wanted to break free...get away from all this...the school...and especially from him. Him....

Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me (in the end)

She could still hear the taunting voice...of his best friend...telling her that it was all false. She had listened and for a moment...her world consisted of a small square of blue design on the canteen wall...she could not bear herself to focus on the guy infront of her...anything to make him take back what he had said...

Then...after a moment which seemed like eternity...she walked away from there...willing herself not to break down...Her whole being felt as though it had been through a huge grinder...as though her whole world had crashed down upon her...

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time

Her foot caught on a piece of wood jutting out from the staircase and she went sprawling over on the floor, landing hard. For a moment she lay there...letting the pain wash over her...till she felt numb.

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

This was what it felt like to be humiliated, she thought. Then she got up, purposely treading with her injured foot...it felt so good to feel the pain...to be overcome by the physicality of it...knowing it could be healed...

Ashi now hobbled towards the front entrance of the school...her sight now even more blurry...so blurry that she didn't see the mass of white infront of her.

"Ashi! What-what happened?!" a strong yet soft hand gripped her. It was only after the mass of white held her face that she realised dully that it was her mom.
She pulled back...she want to face her mom as well...didn't want to admit to her that her mother had been right all along and she had been nothing but a fool...

However Sonia held on to her...and ashi broke down completely...
"Mumma..woh mujhse pyar nahin karta...he doesen't love me mumma.." was all she could manage to choke out...

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go

Sonia looked shocked to see her like this...all broken and fragile..and without a word led her away...to her car...

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Sonia watched her...she was sitting all alone on the sofa...she had a piece of glass in her left hand and a rose in the other...
Ashi had been clutching the glass piece so hard that it had crushed beneath her fingers...and splintered.showering her hands with blood...

In her right hand, she held a small, dried up rose...and she was balling it up as tightly as she could...the thorns scratching against her fingers and not doing so much damage as the glass.

Yet Sonia knew that it was her right hand that was hurting the most...
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Ashi heard the last few words of the song....

But in the end
It doesn't even matter ...

She threw away the rose as hard as she could...as far as she could........
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Now do review it...as I'm curious as to what u all ppl would say abt it since it'staken from remix's own scene n not really a fic...

Please address all brickbats to my PM😉😆

N rakhi...I knoe I had told u I would write abt ur idea...but this one shot took a life of its own....

Me know that i told you i would read 2morrow coz of my science test...but just couldn't control myself from reading it😳😳😳 Anyways this one shot is just sooooo awesum... even though it's not fiction it rocks😳😉 bhaggu... u showed each and every feeling of ashi in that scene... i never got to see that scene... but your one shot told me all and everything😳😳😳 It was seriously awesum... i was about to cry thinkin about this scene😭 wonder how would have ashi felt! 😭 I soo want to see this scene now seeing your one shot... coz it's sooooo beautifully written😳👏 and the song goes soooo perfectly with ashi's feelings😃😳 gurl this one shot really touched me😳😳😳 Thank you for writting it and please do write more like this... I love your one shots😳😳 They are just incredible☺️👏 This one shot has to go in my folder...I am going to save it forever☺️ This one's really close to my heart😳 Thank you for writing it... this seriously shows ashi's feelings and also symbolize that thrones are grown on roses!😳 Really touchy ☺️👏👏

tht scene is amongst my favourites too harshu........n trust me after reading this i understand ashi n tht scene sooo much more.......im really moved.....i wish u cud see i had moist eyes while reding this.....tht shud say it all......way to go harshu.....ur just getting better n better wid ur one shots.....n its ok u din write on the thing i told u.....no regrets atall infact i personally prefer the emotional side of ay as u've shown in this part.....this one is truely awesome 👏 will b waiting 4 more 😳

oh good harshu....dis sceen is my fvt ashi sceen by far....and trust me i hav no words to describe the magic u created wid dis song and ashis emotions....perhaps it was daat one time wen ashi was realy broken...broken to such an extent daat she cld hav lost herself her individuality her self confidence....and above all her belief in love and freindship...but it was jus becoz of sonya daat she servived and sailed through dis turmoil.....again a vivid example daat nothing is end and in the end it real doesnt matters...end is always happya nd if its not that ways den deres more to fight and more to suffer...but in the end nothing matters......realy harshum speahless to dis one.... 👏
and dese lines borught a tear dwn my eyes....



Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time

awwwwwwwww..its amazing yaar 🤗
just LOVE it 😳 its soooooo perfectly written..

In her right hand, she held a small, dried up rose...and she was balling it up as tightly as she could...the thorns scratching against her fingers and not doing so much damage as the glass.

Yet Sonia knew that it was her right hand that was hurting the most...

this part touched me the most poor ashi 😭
i lub u n lub ur fix re 🤗 now jaldi se rite a happy fic warna ill cry 😡😳

good job zubedaar 😆...was really touching...n u brought out ashi's feelings really well😳.......good going.....hope u write some more

its awesome!!

just..great! i have no words to describe it..

hey bhagguuuuuuuu........
HARSHU........hattss off to you man.. 👏 👏 👏
honestly..very well written dear...its so perfect... 👏 👏 👏
I haven't heard this song before..but honestly..I could feel every statement you wrote yarrr... 👏 👏
I just loved it man...
hey bhaguu..I'm having goose flesh yarr..honestly..
I swear HARSHU.. 😳
I am still imagining each and every statement .. 😳 😳
it showed AASHI's feelings in a crystal manner... 😊 😊 😊
SONIA's support to her life, thats AASHI...
she portrayed the role of the stem and root for the plant, for her heart, for her daughter..
very well title too..
AASHI ONE SHOT... 😳
exactly..this one shot was more than enough to express whole state of the gurl.....the way she faced the pain...
and the role of a responsible mother, 😊 😊 😊
the concept that you brought was really genuine and upto the mark....
OSSUM HARSHU....
get going gurl...
its really fantastic...
honestly..I'll be waiting for next one also.... 😳

BEAUTIFUL harshu 👏 n I wud like to echo wat I said in ur post abt AY-one shot, tht I dont want to ruin it more by using more vocab.... keep up the good work, n giv us some more of these 😃

ab to tere exams bhi khatam ho gaye hain 😉😆

brilliant harshu 👏 very well written dear 😳