TAMANNA.....Finally Updated..Pg19 - Page 3

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Yuvi was now getting very very anxious as it's been four hours since he had left ashi and since den there was no news of her. He had searched every possible place but he couldn't find her…he then sat down tired and broken hearted! After few mins, he started crying wid his head in his hands…its all my fault I shouldn't have left her.

Yuvi: jaan kahan ho tum kyun kyun karty ho tum aisa…what do u get out of torturing me wacko…and suddenly he remembered one place where he hadn't checked, so he stood up as went to that place…but he wished desperately that he shouldn't find her there…though something told him that she would be there only…he drove hastily and stopped at that place…he was breathing very hard and summing up all of his courage to go inside.

With a heavy heart he walked through d darkness and saw a candle lighting that darkness at a distance…there he saw ashi…sitting besides d tomb of their daughter…he couldn't move as he remembered that day…ashi was eight months pregnant…the doctors had warned of a very very tough pregnancy…but they fought through it together with the hope of holding their child…who would be d symbol of their eternal love for each other…but their destiny had other plans and it betrayed them…ashi had to be operated and their daughter couldn't survive through it.
To uv the pain seemed to be so so fresh and new even now…it was as if he was reliving that anguish…ashi had held his feet and had pleaded to him… to bring her daughter back to her once and only once…she had held their dead child so so delicately as if she would break…she had said nothing as if mesmerized by the beauty of her daughter…the joy of holding her child was so evident on her face that uv did not had the courage to remind her of the reality…all he could do was go to her and together they had held their child and cried out their distress and dreams…

Ashi said, " uv look at her eyes…they are exactly your eyes…you know what does this mean? This means that her soul is as honest as her father's." Yuvi had taken the baby and had kissed her and then very very gently he had closed her eyes…that was the toughest thing he had ever done uptil now and it completely shook him…even today when he was remembering it he was shaking with pain and despair.

Suddenly he was thrown back to the present when he heard ashi's voice.

Ashi said,"u knw why I lost her uv?"

Yuvi couldn't speak…he didn't wanted ashi to go back to those torturous days of depression and loss…but he had no choice, he saw ashi breaking up again….and this was driving him mad.
He sat besides her and drew her close. He could feel her anguish and he forgot his pain…all he wanted to do was to shun away all possible miseries from her life…she was the only stability in his life…and at no cost was he prepared to see her in despair once again…

Ashi said, "I'm sorry yuvi but I'm the reason why we lost her." He was about to say something but she said, "Yuvi…I'm a very bad person…somewhere I have hurted my mumma…and thats why bhaggu punished me by taking away my child." Ashi melted into unbearable tears, "why uv why couldn't I have accepted her new life…why was I so so jealous of sharing my mom with someone else?why bhaggu? i swear…i swear…these ten years, there's not been a single day when I haven't missed her…anvesha was anvesha just and just because of her mumma…she was my strength…but…but….she got so busy with her new family and her new daughter…that she forgot my existence…meri life main kya kya nahi ho gaya and my mom was not there in any of those phases."

Yuvi consoling ashi, "Sheesh sweetheart sheesh….why do u always blame yourself for everything…listen to me ashi….tum hi to kahti ho naa that we have to move on…I guess sweetheart I hav not loved u enough"with that he started kissing her tears…and she cried even more.

She turned away and touched her daughter. The pain in her eyes broke his heart. He was on the verge of tears too but he stopped them…over d tomb there was Koko…the teddy bear which he had given her long back in school…

Yuvi said, " ashi, she would feel bad if she sees her mumma breaking this way…come sweety lets go home." He picked her up as if she were his child…and while leaving said to Koko, "take care of our child koko, see that she sleeps peacefully."