Originally posted by: koolgal_anisha
i dunno wat to say guyz ive all of u n soo many others around me all moving fwd tos ay they r wid me but still i dunno y i feel soo lonely i feel lyk a starnger amongst my own people all i wnat ryt now is to cling onto sum1s shoulder n cry out loud...i wnat to talk my heart out but i dunno how i dunno to whom
yes Jen its a joke a big joke played on me by fate i can see the god laughing at me shattering me further..
im trying hard to stop thinking about it ...i wnat it out of my mind or i'll die these thoughts will kill me i need a way to keep it out of me i wnat to be distracted but this will never stop haunting me i know it wont im trying my best but i know its a losing game im trying hard to run away from it all its been 8 days now n my condition has only worsened ...
i know its hurting him too i know hes crying out wid me he sheds 2 tears for every 1 tear i shed i wnat to stop i really wnat to but im failing hard i juss cant stop thinking about it ...for 8 days ive confined myself to my room n stayed alone widout talking to any1 n dat had only made me sadder n sadder n hes sad too
i will try to break free of it for his sake somebody told me that he will be in peace only when he sees my tears fade away he will leave for his new world only wen he sees me happy in this world .. i promise i will try to take away all his pain by wiping my tears i will try to be social i will do about anything that'll make his soul rest in peace ....
hey hi anisha..well we both dnt really know each other..but I saw that u are shattered at the moment..and I felt it from heart to post this message.. I dnt know what has happened to you..but reallyy wanna say.. face it bravely dear..don't run away, the last line shook me off, u have lost someone you were extremely attached yu baby, and I very well know how it feels, you feel to just go away from the world, and cry so loudly that your head bursts out, it is a very miserable moment. loving someone is an eternal part of life, that reallyy doesnot happen each and every time, and this incident must have really shaken you hard, or even more. I think you are a very brave girl..you had humungus guts to write this on the forum, people don't do this, hatts off, I really loved when you shared this with us, I know u must be with tears day long, but baby always remember that you love is watching you, and is telling you to calm down, as he is crying along with you, I am not showing ne sympathy dear, coz you are way too strong to get sympathies, I just wanna be aside you, coz you are a genuine person. don't run away from this baby, I know it will be very difficult, eve I have recently faced this, I lost my mama on the 17th of nov😭, one cannot express what he feels at the moment, one just keeps on thinking and thinking, and cursing that why don't the memories vanish with the body, but that doesnot happen, coz memories play the part when the individuals are not with us physically. think that he has challenged you is a game of hide and seek, to test ur guts to stay without him, feel him in you dear, if the memories are crossing ur path, plzzz let them cross, there is no harm in crying, just cry it out as much as you want, don't listen to people, that u will spoil ur health, noways..just cry.I know u must be thinking that this would probably be the first person who is making you cry, but no dear, there is a time for everything, and this is the time to cry with the extreme great memories that ur beloved gave to you. he is not gone ne where, he is with you anisha, always, in all ur difficulties, happiness, everything. he will always be with you. I will surely pray for him I promise.and his soul will surely rest in peace as bhaggu knows there is someone who is praying from heart and core for her beloved. we all are there with you anisha. always, come and write what u are feeling, and I promise. you will be feeling better the next moment. I really advise you to cry everything out. but don't confine urself.scientificlly speaking that will lead to a psycological problem. du u want him to c u in problem? just go out for a small walk, imagining you are going out with him, and cry if u feel like, don't give a damn who is watching you. this will surely make you feel better. I cannot completely discard ur pain, but wuld feel blessed if I could be a friend of yours dearest. please take care okk
luv: divi 😊
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