LET THEM KILL ME,BUT I AM PROUD OF U RUDRA

na jaane kitne saal maine pathar ban ke beetaye hain

mere zinda hone ke pal tho abhi hi aaye hain

na jaane kitne saal maine beparvaahi ko apnaya hai

parvaah karne ka pal abhi kal parsoon hi bana humsaaya hai

befikr hone se mera rishta purana hai

fikr karne ki ada ko mujhe abhi apnana hai

mere seene main band kayi raaz ahin

meri gardishoon main qaid kitne kaale andaaz hain

main jo hoon woh raha nahin hoon kayi saalon se

main jo tha woh kaise batla doon apne

hi hothoon ke band taaloon se

mujhme jo zinda dil tha, uski chaddar abhi tho kisni hatayi hai

varna kitne saal isne kaale andhere ki dhool khaayi hai

mere andar

mere bahar

mere har ore bus main tha

aur mera dard tha

waqt beharam tha

zinda rehna kya kam tha??

maine iss dard ko jeeya hai

apni kismat ka zeher chup reh kar akele peeya hai

nazar ka teeka meri kismet se gujarate hue andaaz ban gaya

main shuru hua tha insaan sa

na jaane kab pathhar ka saaz ban gaya

woh aayi hai ban kar mere rooh ke andhere main

roshni ki pak si pehli jyoti

woh giri hai mere mann ke banjar veerane main

bankar baarish ka pehla moti

uski chahaat main zinda ho jaane ko dil chahtha hai

uski roomniyat main bus kho jaane ko dil chahtha hai

usse dekhtha hoon tho jeene pe pyaar aata hai

use dekhtha hoon tho mar mitne ka matlab samjh main aata hai

woh hai itni pak, saaf , bandh phool ki kali jaise

main hoon ruke,gehre paani ke band gali jaise

woh ban baithi hai aisey krishan ki meera deewani

jiski na koi khoobsurat yaad

na koi khoobsurat kahani

uski rooh ki safedi se mera kaalapan sharma jaata hai

kaise usse batoon who ateet jisse mera mann bhi ghabraata hai

uss har dard se bachane ki aadat ab kamzoori ho chuki hai

usse har ashq se bachane ki zid majboori ho chuki hai

kaise dekh paoonga uski aankh main mere diye aansoon ka paani

kaise sun paonga uski rooh se meri hirakat main nikale shor ki kahaani

uske rooh ke aaine main apne liye shikiyaat

mujhsse na bardaasht hogi

uski masoomiyat ko khatam hote dekhene ki keemat

mujhse na ada hogi

PAR USKA JAAN LENA MERI ZINDAGI KA SACH

AAJ HO CHUKA HAI ZAROORI

JITNA BHI DARD DE JAAYE WOH PAL

PAR USKO NIBHANA HAI MERI MAZBOORI

MAIN NAHIN JAANTA KE USS PAL KE PAAR

PARO KITNA KAREGI MUJHSE PYAAR

BUS ITNA JAANTA HOON KI

WHO JO BHI SAZAA DEGI HOGA MUJHE USSE IQRAAR

P.s... yeahh yeahhh I KNOW ITS DAMN CRAP,BUT WHAT TO DO I WAS INSPIRED BY CRAPINESS OF TODAY'S EPISODE,,,everyone including me were so busy doing shikaar of laila with our guns n eyes,, that we forgot our darling rudy boy.

TO ACCEPT SUCH A TRUTH CAN ONLY BE DONE BY LOVE WHICH IS TURE

TO CONFESS SUCH A PAST,,CAN ONLY BE RUDRA'S WAY TO UNDO

WAY TO GO RUDY BOY,,,PROUD OF U

N YUP BELIEVE ME,,,,ONE DAY SHE WILL BE PROUD OF U TOO