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"It was a mistake," you said. But the cruel thing was, it felt like the mistake was mine, for trusting you."
David Levithan, The Lover's Dictionary
She sat there as she saw him sway away to his room... Her head hurt so much that she could hardly put the pieces together to recall what just happened... Did he take the wedding vows... Was the loose thread hanging around her neck which he claimed to be the mangalsutra for real...
She turned to see the helpless faces of maitli , kakusa , and suneri looking at her...
Her hands trembled as she touched her maang and saw it filled... bright red...
Shreemathi. Rudra Pratap Ranavt... the words echoed into her ears and she clenched her hearts to stop it from beating erratically...
"Isn't this what I wanted?" she thought ... But it still hurt... she wasn't liking it.. She din feel it right.. there was something missing... Something that she actually wanted... Something that she actually wanted in the wedding with him than the phere. sindoor , vajans and mangal sutra... ... Something which made her feel shattered and it hurt every part of her... It was missing... his love for her... it was missing...
She looked around as she saw the news paper lay there at a distance...
She took them in her hands and slowly made way to the door.. the garden...
Her eyes gazed through the news as kakusa walked to her
As he told her all that happened to Rudra at the BSD office right from his interrogation to the stripping off his medals and respect...
" kakusa... can i speak to aman bhaisa" she said softly her lips trembling and her words choking as she knew what he was going through...
She saw maithli walk up to her with the stuff needed for grahapravesh as she smiled faintly " jija.. i must be the luckiest one... but this can wait" she said pushing aside the plate as Maithli and her husband looked at her surprised
After much reluctance from both sides kakusa gave her the phone and left... they knew she needed sometime...
Her mind ran into the past making it flash in front of her... right from the time she saw him something had made her feel his pain.. something made her want to rush to his aid wiping away those tears.. something made her throw away the most precious possession she had with her... something beyond what words could explain...
Every time he had showed his rudeness she had seen the softness in his eyes... something which showed his hope on her... something which showed he cared and he bothered for her.. But today... She could see no trace..all she could see was regret and anger and worst of all feeling of betrayal in his eyes which seemed to shoot daggers straight to her heart tearing it to pieces ...
The mangal sutra. the still burning phere. the filled maang with sindoor all screamed loud that she now belonged to him but her heart refused them blindly..
" rudra will never be paro's" rudra's 8th vajan came hitting like a blow as she finally let the tears flow down her cheeks... it hurt more than the last time she lost her first husband... it hurt more coz she had loved him with all of her heart despite his anger , despite his rudeness and despite his hatred... But betrayal she never thought she was capable off and that having paved to her wedding was the last straw she could phantom want to happen...
She heard the sound of Aman's car come to a halt as she walked out... he stood startled frozen at his place as he saw her... paled and puffed up eyes dried of tears and she looked lifeless...
" parvatii" aman's lips parted as he rushed to girl in who he had seen his dead sister come back alive
All she wanted was a shoulder to rest on.. a shoulder to unleash the burden she was suddenly given the responsibility of..
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Next morning Maithli got up to see the pot for graha pravesh still untouched,,, As her eyes glistened at the memory of last night she made way to Rudra's room... the door was wide opened and rudra lay there coiled to a corner of the bed...
She looked around and found no sign of her...
" paro... parooo" suneri and maithli frantically searched around in vain
Kcm searched around holding her head wondering what more drama the couple had in store...
Rudra stretched his hands holding his head,, it hurt more than ever... His eyes scanned the room and searched for someone...
"parooo paroo" the faint voices of his family reached his ears as his eyes filled with rage as he hit the bottle by the side making it crush to ground shattering
" Rudra sirrr" Aman's voice made everybody assemble in the hall
" whats it aman?" an irritated Rudra came out as Aman showed him a paper...
" sir ..." aman saluted as Rudra opened the warrant
" who's this guy... why are you to arrest him " Rudra asked as Aman replied " sir hes the journalist who gave the false report in the news paper..."
rudra looked up his eyes suddenly showing an unexplained fear creeping in him
" sir last night i had interrogated him and he has told us everything... and further" Aman voice trailed into silence as Rudra raised his voice " tell me aman.."
" sir parvati has given her statement in detail... and Singh sir has ensured it appears on all papers... she has stated clearly that it was all her fault,... and how you are not to be held responsible,,, and sir..."
" whatt" rudra said still in shock as Amans aid " the man who posted said it was given by your brother Sumer"
Rudra felt the earth beneath him slip away.. not because it was sumer but because of how he had taken it on paro... memories of phere, sindoor, his 8th vajan came rushing to his ming as his ahnds clutched the paper
" and sir... parvati has given the proof of 2 identical dresses and few other details to investigate into your father's death... she has also apologized in the statement for having embarrassing you in public
Suneri quickly walked to rudra as she and maithli explained the probability of paro not having been the culprit...
" parooo/... where is parooo" rudra asked looking around as all the faces fell and Aman looked at Sumer with a gaze of disgust as his men held to him
Parooo parooo" rudra called running around the haveli to find her no where...
" aman... where is she.. you must know na... she has given statement and all" rudra said clutchign aman by his shoulder his words trembling
" sir...i ..." Aman said as Rudra looked at him with eyes of fear and guilt mixed
" sir i dont know... but parvati left this for you..." he said giving him a letter and walking out with his men taking sumer leaving behind a pleading Kcm...
Rudra walked to his room as he opened the letter
" Major saab...
His words choked as he remembered her rushing into his function...
the first time i knew you i never knew i would give my heart to you.. i still dont realize when i did... i rushed into the venue that day because i dint know how to stop myself... remember... you told me how pure the relationship was with that girl who gave you the doll.. you dint even let me touch it...
Rudra's mind flashed to that day as he continued " i though it meant something major saab.. something which in could read in your eyes.. i thought it will give you the same happiness which ti gave me... actually more... i wanted to see that smile on your face,... see the happiness in your eyes that the relationship you considered pavitr is bound with me... Bound with the girl who you were avoiding for your own reasons...
i had seen the way you cared for me.. seen the anger when you thought i would say yes .. but every time i saw something in your eyes..something that may be feel belonged.. something which i thought if may be i tell you the doll will break the hurdles and you will reach out to me and realizeee you will love me as much as i do...
i din see the crowd.. my background.. your grade .. it was just love and i don regret that even today...
But in all this i failed to see... failed to understand what you were going through... It has been pain... and i had always looked over it thinking it to be love... but last night... it was not love.. it felt like betrayal.. the hate in your eyes..." Rudra choked as the tears tickled down his cheeks
I thought i had finally found the rajkumar.. the prince of my dreams.. a man who would make a family for me.. my little world... but i was so wrong...
i wanted to marry you.. not because i wanted those pheres. sindoor and mangal sutra.. but because i loved you and wanted to never be away from you...
i wanted to be the reason fro your smile and not pain.. last night i knew how much my presence hurts you..when i cant see the love in your eyes i dont have the braveness in me to watch you hate me ,,,,,. i will got away major saab... i will ensure i leave nothing that reminds you off me... i hope with this all the obstacles and pain in your life goes away... Like how you said...
i am tired of crying out and pleading... i dunno if i can take away all my mistakes but i have tried,.,,, tried my best to restore your honor... plz forgive me for having fallen in love with you... but that is one thing i can never change about myself
Yours,
Shreemati Rudrr Pratap Ranavat
Parooo.. you cant do thisss" rudra's hands trembled as the fear of the reality crept into him,... he rushed to his wardrobe pushing down all the clothes... his hands searched everywhere...
the doll it wasn't there anymore...
" parooo" his legs gave away as he fell on his knees his guilt making way out of his eyes trailing down his cheeks
The end!!
It hurts when love turns away from you... they say we never value things when we possess them... sometime the real way to love is to let go... Sometimes the deepest scars are made by actions and words that can never be taken back!!
I know its bakwas! but my heart went to paro last night and i couldn't stop myself!! i made the ending open ... so make it how u like it😆
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