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Rudra , yes the second name of Lord shiv, who is indeed every unmarried girl's prayer, who is a figure for love and eternity for the universe, whose love had that immense power to bring back his lady love as his divine power. The strength and intensity his love had was always unmatchable.
So do i see Rudra Pratap Ranwat in that similar figure. Yes, the character indeed is sketched so beautifully here. Paro is as transparent like water, her heart and soul is just plane and clear, no complexity, no fear, no regret but just devotion, devotion which is NOT for Rudra, but the saviour figure, which she presumes that her bholenath has send for her.
Coming back to Rudra, his being complex and battered soul does not make him opaque, his heart is equally clear and transparent as his Paro's, but his heart is equally bruised, till a point that even one ounce of love or tender coming his way makes him scared, his fears, his inner demons, everything screams from his inside and makes him so repulsive towards love and happiness.
But then what happens when such a man, for whom LOVE is like comitting suicide, actually is on the verge of attempting it ? yes i believe, Rudra's love for Paro has just crossed barriers, more than the fact that he feels for her so much, he is scared and frustated about the fact that he is actually feeling for her, feeling so much for her. His fears arose, he is frightended that what if once AGAIN, he starts worshipping this woman, and again circumstances force her to leave him alone ? Can his heart bare another brutal betrayal from the concept called LOVE which is supposed to be divine ? Can he again reform himself IF ever he has to lose Paro ? These questions haunt him more than the fact that Paro is the virtual suspect of his dad's condition.
Rudra is one hell of a passionate guy, today when he hold Paro and told about his theory of beautiful women being cheaters, his eyes spoke volumes. He just said everything which he did not want to, that yes Paro i do love you and need you, but you cannot be mine, as I am destined to live with my misery. The intensity he had when he gave that bridal costume to Paro, ohh that was terrific. He just hated the fact that the red color which he had rubbed away from her life for her good will, for her life, he is returning it to her again. He could bare Paro living a lonely life without him, and all hating him for his trick to marry her with Sumer, but he cannot just bare her being with him and him not being able to reciprocate to her devotion towards him. It just kills him to turn away his face and hide the selfless love he has in his eyes for her every single time she questions him about why he did all these for her, will he be happy if she marries sumer, will he be able to throw her out of the house blatantly, why his eyes speak something and actions speak something else ??? WHY ???? Such a killing question it is for him that he hates himself for doing this to her ..
For Paro, it is not LOVE yet. I cannot buy the fact that once you see the doll you had given to the boy, you blindly realise you love him unconditionally and propose him. Its more like that she has immense devotion for him, yes, he is like a bholenath figure for her, whose one move can bring waves in her life, yes thats what, she still has not felt the pain of love which Rudra has felt, its more like she has nothing to lose here, not even Rudra becos he cannot belong to any other woman. so she is just brutally honest with her devotion for him. On the contrary in Rudra's case, he is wriggling, giggling, fuming, mumbling, tumbling, yapping, and doing all the ings because he has felt the pain, the feeling of separation from the lady he worships, for him he does not have anything to win, but has his treausurable Paro to lose, and he fears losing her, yes he fears losing her in the way he lost his mother, his feelings have no direction atall.
PS:- I am sorry guys for this long essay, i am bad at words, but i felt like writing this as i felt immensely heartbroken for Rudra when he was holding the doll and telling about his friend. I would really hope that CVs show how Paro actually falls in love with him, it should not be becos of the doll he has, it should not be becos he is bholenath's prasad, Paro's love should be for the jallad he calls himself, for the man who is bruised and flawed but still loves him like crazy.
CID
Kumkum Bhagya
Pyaar Kii Ye Ek Kahaani
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
