Hullo everyone anyone remembers me I guess not hiii I m pritha finally updating my ts sorry again for the delay guys but what to do my laziness gets better of me and my nine track mind 🤣
So here u go Withthe update happy reading
No proof reading done guess by now u ppl must have known that 🤣
ShoT 2 TanhaaiYAAN
*ONE MONTH LATER*
"Hey wassup"
"Chilling in hawaii islands don't you know"
"Stop being sarcastic tanu"
"Then what should I do when your Mr Khan has turned my life hell"
"Tanu I m also suffering yaar before getting this we used to wait for Mondays but now whenever Mondays come and I get ready for college I feel like I am getting ready to enter the den of a blood suckin monster who'll suck my blood the whole week ."
"Me too feel the same yaar everyday I watch the calendar longingly the whole week waiting for Sundays only to get disappointed till Saturday. I swear man this Mrs Smith is taking revenge from me cuz I cut her 1 m long hair."
"Haha what about Mr Khan who makes me run all the time trust me I have lost so much weight in this one which I haven't lost since an year."
"That's good right"
"Hell good with this speed I m going to disappear soon. ... accha badla liya hai Mr Khan ne job k naam par hume torture karke"
"I know you love him zoya but I won't spare him I m going to make him pay for this"
"You have all my support bestie even I m not gonna leave him"
Asad was just passing by when he heard zoya talking to someone on phone. He shook his head and smiled knowing these two are probably planning to kill him. Well that's justified cuz in this one month he has tortured these duo a lot they have to do almost all his or Mrs smith's works and all they (him and mrs smith)do is enjoy he knows that this is not good but he is just having some fun. He had learnt from office staff that these two besties have troubled the whole college with their pranks so it's just a kind of payback from teachers. One whole month has passed in a blurr but he still felt like it was just yesterday he had stepped inside the college.
He sat on his chair and leaned on it thinking about everything that has happened in this whole month how his life has turned upside down during this period of time. He knew with time his feelings for zoya have become more intense something much much more than just infatuation something that he was scared to name or admit. He didn't deserve zoya every time he keeps chanting this in mind to keep himself in control, to not to give in to his feelings but every time when he looks into her eyes his heart betrays him and he gets pulled towards her like a moth gets pulled towards the fire but thanks to his luck every time someone or something interrupts them most of the time its tanu. He chuckled remembering zoya's expressions when he was about to kiss her but tanu interrupted them god knows how was tanu alive next day. He was a control freak around her and this is also the reason he makes her run almost whole day cuz he knew if she'll be free she'll be near him and he knew at that moment he'll be betrayed by his own feelings and that thought scared him not for him but for her. He isn't good for her she deserves someone better than him and he can't be selfish. He is darkness and she is the light and when these two collide then either light destroys the darkness or darkness engulfs the light. He can't let this happen it's ok of he gets destroyed in all this anyways his life isn't worth living but he can't let his darkness to engulf zoya he will protect her from himself and for that he'll stay away from her.
A loud shriek broke his chain of thoughts I was Zoya's he immediately jumped from the seat and ran towards the voice. He came where zoya was. She had deeply cut her finger they were badly bleeding now.
" What the hell zoya how can you be so irresponsible " Said asad holding her hand and blowing softly on her cut in order to soothe the pain
"Its just a small cut Mr Khan it will be alright. "
"Small cut see how badly it's bleeding Ms Farooqui."
He made her stand up and took her to the wash basin to wash her hands and was now applying antiseptic on her wounds again softly blowing on them whenever he felt it must be hurting her.
"Is it hurting Ms Farooqui "
"Yes Mr Khan it hurts a lot" she said in almost a whisper looking straight into his eyes and at that moment asad too dared to look into her eyes completely understanding the hidden meanings of her words. She wasn't talking about the hurt that the cut is causing her but the hurt that he is causing her. But wasn't he too hurt cuz of that maybe more than her. He immediately looked away from her eyes scared she might see the immense love he has for her. What an agony on one side zoya is literally begging for his love on the other side he too is dying everyday to love her but still he can't do that cuz he needs to protect her from himself.
"I have applied the antiseptic Ms Farooqui the hurt will go away soon"
"What about the hurt you are causing me Mr Khan."
"You have mistaken miss Farooqui it's you who's the reason of your pain by not moving on from your infatuation"
"Mr Khan if you can't love me back then please atleast don't insult it by calling it just an infatuation"
"That's the truth Ms Farooqui it is an infatuation."
"Say that while looking into my eyes Mr Khan."
"It. Is. An. Infatuation. Ms. Farooqui." He said while looking into her eyes somehow controlling his emotions but they were slipping away from his hands with each passing second.
"Liar you're the worst liar I have seen Mr Khan even if you manage to lie your eyes betray you."
"I m not lying" she chuckled hearing that
"Then why your own eyes are telling me some other story"
"Stop imagining things Ms Farooqui they'll only hurt you"
"why do you care? You can lie to me but how are you going to lie to yourself Mr Khan. "
"I m not lying to anyone."
"Admit it Mr Khan you love me"
That was it for asad forcefully grabbed her arms and shook her
"I do not love you Ms Farooqui I will never" he shouted more to himself than her. Tears were streaming from her eyes which were piercing his heart unable to take them anymore he freed her from his grip and fled away from the lab to the terrace the same place where zoya has admitted her love for him.
Khwaab mein tairti parchaaiyan
tar batar shor mein khaamoshiyan
dooriyon mein bati nazdeekiyan
Baarisho mein ghuli chingaariya
*FLASHBACK*
It was his mother's death anniversary that day he was standing on the boundary of the terrace if anyone would see him like that they'd probably think that he's going to commit suicide but thankfully no one was there as college was closed today but office was still open. He saw the ground beneath him from the terrace of this six storeyed building wondering what would happen if anyone he fell from here. He chuckled at the thought he would be where with his mom he would be able to see listen to her sleep in her lap and all his miseries will fade away like they never happened. She'll understand him and tell him that he is not wrong he wasn't wrong that time too and he is innocent the whole world can go against him but she can't. He just wanted to end this just two more steps and his miseries will be over there was nothing to him hold him back anyways no one to call his own no one to cry for him for whom he was still living he didn't even know. He just wanted to be with his mother only if she would have been with him nothing like that would have happened years ago he would have been happy not broken like this. He closed his eyes and was about to take a step ahead but a face stopped him from doing so ,a smile appeared on his lips as his thoughts drifted towards the owner of that beautiful and like always an unknown peace washed over him as he spelled her name. Strange isn't it that a girl whom he didn't even knew properly became so important in his life. She was the only light in his darkness, the only reason to live and only ray of hope for him but can he let her enter his darkness what if she loses herself in his darkness no he can't let that happen.
"Zoya..."
As he whispered her name he heard her calling him and soon he felt her pulling him down from the boundary due to the pull they fell on the ground of terrace with him over her
"Have you lost it Mr Khan what the hell do you think you were doing." She said still in that position
"What was I doing"
"Don't try to be over smart Mr Khan what the hell were doing on terrace boundary how can you even think of doing anything like this Mr Khan. Do you even realise what would have happened if I hadn't caught you on time you didn't even thought about your family for once before taking such a step."
"Family." He chuckled mentally at that word the same family that had abandoned him when he needed them the most. He wanted to yell at her that he didn't had a family but her next words didn't let him
"You didn't even thought about your loved ones about me. What would have I done if something happened to you? " that was when he saw the care affection and love in her eyes for him something that he was craving for god knows how many years. Her eyes were filled with tears she was hell scared for him
"Zoya look at me" he held her chin softly making her look at him. The tears that she was controlling till now started flowing from her eyes. Unable to control herself anymore she flung her arms around him and hugged him as if her life depended on him.
"I m fine zoya" he whispered dipping his head in the crook of her neck
"Please don't do anything like that again Mr Khan please you don't know what I went through when I saw you on the terrace boundary. Agar aapko kuch ho gaya to main jee nahi paaungi"
He broke the hug and made them both sit on the ground leaning on the wall with her in his arms.
"I don't want to live zoya this life suffocates me."
"Mr Khan please don't say that just look around yourself life is more beautiful than you think it of."
"I used to think the same before she left me all alone to face the harsh reality of the world. I wish she was here with me then nothing would have happened "
"Wh...who"
"My ammi my only family why did she left me zoya I wish she was here am I that bad zoya didn't I deserved happiness why did she left me"
"You deserve all the happiness of this world Mr Khan please have faith and who said that your ammi left you she is still in your heart"
"I don't deserve it anymore zoya you would also have said the same if you knew what has happened with me."
"I don't know what had happened to you but I know that you are innocent I trust you Mr khan and I know you can't do anything wrong"
"How can you say that zoya you don't even know what happened all those years ago"
"Yes I dunno what happened those years ago but I trust you Mr khan and my heart knows you can never be wrong"
Asad didn't knew what to feel at that moment he just kept admiring the girl in his arms when his whole family who knew him his whole life failed to trust him this girl who knew him just from a month back trusted him without any explanation. Wasn't it something that he wanted in all those years to have someone who could trust tell him that he isn't wrong isn't she exactly what he has prayed for
"I was fifteen back then when I lost my mother in my whole family she was only one with whom I felt attached otherwise my dad was always busy with his business and extramarital affairs he never had time for us. It hadn't been a month of my ammi's demise that he got married again bringing Ayesha in our lives she was almost half of his age very young and beautiful. I could never accept her as my ammi for me she was just ayesha. After her arrival things were as usual at first 2 years but later on I started noticing constant fights bw them I was a grown up now and it didn't took me long to realise that ayesha wasn't happy with this marriage but she was still stuck into it cuz of money. Dad provided her all the luxury but he couldn't provide her physical satisfaction. I myself didn't realise that when she laid her eyes on me in that way until I observed her odd touches I swear I felt disgusted I tried to distance myself as much as I could I started spending most of my time with my friends or at college but... She always used to call me in her with work excuses but somehow she managed to touch me inappropriately I tried to talk to dad but he didn't had time for me somewhere inside I also felt that he won't believe me that's why I also didn't put that much efforts I thought I can manage. That day my friends got me drunk I only remember that I was highly drunk and collapsed on the couch of my room and next day when I woke..."
He didn't had the courage to say that aloud the fact that he has kept hidden from himself also. He didn't knew what made him say it aloud to zoya but all he knew was that he wanted her. On the other hand zoya was as miserable as him she didn't want to imagine what must have happened or what he must through. But she was acting strong he needed her she buried herself more in his chest drawing some patterns on his back silently soothing him
"Next Day when I woke up I saw we both were naked on my bed that's when I realised that she has sexually abused me. I immediately ran away from my house not having courage to face that woman, dad too wasn't at home I was scared to be alone under the same roof with her. 2 days I spent in college's storeroom hidden from the whole world without any food or water. After two days a guard found me in unconscious state in the store room and informed my dad about it when I got my conscious back I was in my room for a while I was scared but as I saw my dad I was relieved I wanted to tell dad about everything but couldn't as I was really weak. But as soon as I was fine enough I told him everything but ayesha turned the tables and put all the blame on me saying I forced myself on her. After that what followed was something I had expected he didn't trusted me and threw me out of house. That b***h destroyed my whole life my career my dreams everything. Was I wrong zoya??? what was my fault in all this? why I got punished? Don't I deserve to be happy? why didn't he trusted me zoya?"
With that he broke down into her arms hiding his face in her bosom. On the other hand zoya was still trying to register what he just said. Someone who seems strong like a mountain can be this much broken she can't believe that. How can a father not trust his own son. She held him more closer to herself if her love could grow even more it had grown now with a lot of respect for this man whatever life has put him through he rose up that too like a winner
"You were not wrong Mr Khan... you were innocent ...I trust you"
Jaane kya kya pal dohraati hai
Har lamha mujhmein ye tujhe bhar jaati hain...
TANHAAIYA TANHAAIYA TANHAAIYA...
He looked up at her confused not being able to believe her words but her next action made all his irrational thoughts shoo away. She kissed him. It didn't took him a sec to realise that and as he realised he kissed her back more urgently needing to feel her all of her pouring all his pain and love in it. In the almost silent atmosphere if anything that could be heard was the sounds of their kiss. Not caring about their surroundings their past their future they kept kissing each other knowing only one thing that they needed each other.
"I LOVE YOU ASAD"
These words brought him out of his small bubble bringing him back to reality. He hastily broke the kiss moving away from her.
"I don't need your sympathy Ms Farooqui "
"Mr Khan its not sympathy I very well know the difference between sympathy and love "
" Then it has to be infatuation but it can't be love."
"It is Mr Khan it is love and I am hopelessly madly in love with you."
"Ms Farooqui you don't know what you are saying"
"I know that very well. ... Please Mr Khan don't push me away from you please don't punish me"
"But I don't love you Ms Farooqui everything that happened was a weak moment ."
"Everything that had happened doesn't matter to you"
"No you are lying even for you it wasn't just a weak moment you too feel something don't you"
"Ms Farooqui I don't love you that's it... I don't want to say anything further"
With that he left from there not paying any heed to her. She kept calling him but he just ran as if he was trying to run away from himself.
"Mr Khan"
" Mr Khan. ..."
"Asad"
"You can't away from me for long Mr Khan I know you love me and I will make you admit it not for me but for yourself"
These were her last words he heard that heard from her that day.
*FLASHBACK ENDS *
After that day she started behaving as if nothing has happened but he knew it's just the silence before storm all he could do was to wait till the storm hits him and pray that this storm doesn't break his. It was almost 10 o'clock now he has no idea how long he had been standing here lost in his thoughts until he saw the time. The continuous ringing of his mobile broke his reverie from past one hour the caller was trying to but he kept ignoring it but now finally he decided to pick up. It was tanveer, she was really worried for zoya as she went to the market to buy something for their project but didn't returned till now. She (tanveer) is calling her from past few hrs but her mobile is switched off. Now he too got worried what was this girl upto how could she be this irresponsible what was the need to go to the market at this hour.
"Relax tanveer nothing wrong is going to happen I m going to look out for her till then you keep calling her ok."
"Mr Khan please let me come with you it's all my fault I shouldn't have allowed her to there alone. I can't sit here waiting for her please allow me to come with you."
"Try to understand tanveer I can understand that you are worried for her but there should be someone at your dorm in case if she returns back. "
"I guess you are right I'll ask her to call you if anyhow she contacts me"
"Okay don't worry she'll be safe"
"I trust you with her Mr Khan or else out of all people I wouldn't have called you."
"Do you have any idea where she must have gone."
"Yeah she told me that she's going to xyz market."
"Ok I'll inform you if I'll reach her."
"Ok Mr Khan"
He immediately ran to his car but it chose to betray him today having no other option he chose to walk. On his way to the market he kept calling zoya but to no avail but after few minutes when he was just near the market he got call from an unknown no he was about to ignore it but something inside him told him that he should take this. And he was right the caller was none other than zoya
"Mr Khan its zoya here"
He stopped in his tracks hearing her voice an unknown relief washed over him as he released his breath that he was holding
"Zoya... its you"
" Yes Mr Khan its me I just called tanu she asked me to call you wo actually my battery died down and i got stuck in traffic while coming here and my car too decided to betray me while coming here... I had to hire a cab that's why I got late ... I just got all the things I wanted buy."
"What????? You are in a cab at this hr of night zoya you have any idea how unsafe it is "
"Mr Khan what other option I had?"
"What was the need to go to the market at this time"
"I had to come. ... I had to buy few things of my project of YOUR subject anyways you don't leave a chance to taunt me I didn't wanted to hear another one."
"So you wanna say it's my fault that I gave you that project"
"Basically"
"I guess you forgot you're talking to your professor"
"I guess you're my professor only in classroom."
"Zoya it's not time to joke i m serious travelling through a cab at this hour is dangerous. ... ok fine have you noted the cab no."
"Yes Mr Khan it's __________"
"Ok ... are you calling me from the driver's mobile"
"Yes Mr Khan I already told you my mobile battery is dead"
"Ok just give the mobile to the driver and yeah ask him to park the cab somewhere before talking "
"What????? Why????"
"Do as I said zoya"
"Okay"
She gave the mobile to the driver he parked the car before talkin to asad as instructed by zoya and gave the mobile back to zoya
"Are you relived now Mr Khan"
"Yes. ... where are you guys right now"
"Ummm I m near ----- park"
"Okay I'll be there soon I have told the driver to wait for with you till I get there"
"Mr Khan I would have came back what was the need to come out looking for me"
"Tanveer called me I had to come... I wanted to come... just keep talking to me zoya I need to make sure that you are safe"
"And you say you don't feel anything for me"
"Zoya please can we not talk about that"
"As you say Mr Akdu Ahmed Khan"
He chuckled at her name calling
"I hope the project will remain safe Ms Farooqui till I see it Ms Farooqui unlike the other one."
"Mr Khan how can you say that I fell just before your eyes along with the project."
"Yeah I remember that the clumsy girl that you're"
"You always need to have the last word don't you"
"I guess I do."
"Okay I guess I can see you Ms Farooqui is the person near the black cab you"
"Yes Mr Khan I also can see you"
He came near her
"Ms Farooqui you shouldn't have came out of the cab ." He said giving the mobile back to the driver not before thanking him
"Stop treating me like a kid Mr Khan"
"As if you're less than that"
"Mr Khan can we walk please"
"As you say"
He paid the and continued to walk along with her. And the clumsy girl that she is she again was about to fall but saved herself from falling holding his arms
"Ms Farooqui if you can't walk properly even for five minutes then why did you asked me to send the cab."
"I didn't wanted to miss my any moment with you Mr Khan"
She replied honestly making him look away from her and they continued to walk with her hands wrapped around his arms but it didn't felt awkward it just felt perfect they both wanted to be like this only.
"Ms Farooqui we don't always get What we want but its for our betterment only cuz life has stored something much better for us"
"Maybe that can be better but that won't be what we want right it can never give us that happiness it can't fill the void that will always remain in our hearts"
"Time is a healer Ms Farooqui"
"Will time make you forget me too Mr Khan"
He stopped in his tracks deeply looking into her eyes. How can he forget her... his only reason to live her memories are like breath to him how can someone remain alive if he forgets breathing
"Can't we be like this Mr Khan... close to each other in each others arms."
He released his arms from hers
"We're getting late Ms Farooqui"
"Your denial is hurting me Mr Khan much more than your acceptance will as you think "
"Ms Farooqui why can't you see I don't love you you are just misunderstanding my care to be love I accept that I care for you but there is a line between love and care. Why can't you get this little fact dammit!!!!"
" Is that so! Fine I am not going to bother you anymore. I just wanted your love Mr Khan but that didn't mean I will force you to accept. You want me to go away from you isn't it congrats I will go away from you for ever. My aapi and jeeju are calling me for a while to New York I guess it's time I should leave..."
He smiled looking at her once again he is going to his another reason to live but who could he blame its only him who pushed her away. He had survived his ammi's departure but he knew that he can't survive her departure. Finally the time has come to end his miseries
"It'll be for your own good don't worry soon you'll forget that some Asad Ahmed Khan was even there in your life."
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