part B
Briefly our teeth clash, then his tongue is in my mouth.
Desire explodes like the Fourth of July throughout my body, and I'm kissing him back, matching his fervor, my hands knotting in his hair, pulling it, hard. He groans, a low sexy sound in the back of his throat that reverberates through me, and his hand moves down my body to the top of my thigh, his fingers digging into my flesh through the plum dress.
I pour all the angst and heartbreak of the last few days into our kiss, binding him to me, and it hits me"in this moment of blinding passion"he's doing the same, he feels the same.
He breaks off the kiss, panting. His eyes are luminous with desire, firing the already heated blood that is pounding through my body. My mouth is slack as I try to drag precious air into my lungs.
"You. Are. Mine," he snarls, emphasizing each word. He pushes away from me and bends, hands on his knees as if he's run a marathon. "For the love of God, Zoe." I lean against the wall, panting, trying to control the riotous reaction in my body, trying to find my equilibrium again.
"I'm sorry," I whisper once my breath has returned.
"You should be. I know what you were doing. Do you want the photographer, Zoya? He obviously has feelings for you."
I flush and shake my head.
"No. He's just a friend."
"I have spent all my adult life trying to avoid any extreme emotion. Yet you . . . you bring out feelings in me that are completely alien. It's very . . ." He frowns, grasping for the word. "Unsettling.
"I like control, Zoe, and around you that just""he stands, his gaze intense"
"evaporates." He waves his hand vaguely, then runs it through his hair and takes a deep breath. He clasps my hand.
"Come, we need to talk, and you need to eat."
He leads me into a small, intimate restaurant.
"This place will have to do," Asad grumbles. "We don't have much time." The restaurant looks fine to me. Wooden chairs, linen tablecloths, and walls the same color as Asad's playroom"deep blood red"with small gilt mirrors randomly placed, white candles, and small vases of white roses. Ella Fitzgerald croons softly in the background about this thing called love. It's very romantic.
The waiter leads us to a table for two in a small alcove, and I sit, apprehensive and wondering what he's going to say.
"We don't have long," Asad says to the waiter as we sit. "So we'll each have sirloin steak cooked medium, barnaise sauce if you have it, fries, and green vegetables, whatever the chef has; and bring me the wine list."
"Certainly, sir." The waiter, taken aback by Asad's cool, calm efficiency, scuttles off. Asad places his Blackberry on the table. Jeez, don't I get a choice?
"And if I don't like steak?"
He sighs. "Don't start, Zoya."
"I am not a child, Asad."
"Well, stop acting like one."
It's as if he's slapped me. I blink at him. So this is how it will be, an agitated, fraught conversation, albeit in a very romantic setting but certainly no hearts and flowers.
"I'm a child because I don't like steak?" I mutter trying to conceal my hurt.
"For deliberately making me jealous. It's a childish thing to do. Have you no regard for your friend's feelings, leading him on like that?" Asad presses his lips together in a thin line and scowls as the waiter returns with the wine list.
I blush"I hadn't thought of that. Poor Shayan"I certainly don't want to encourage him.
Suddenly, I'm mortified. Asad has a point; it was a thoughtless thing to do. He glances at the wine list.
"Would you like to choose the wine?" he asks, raising his eyebrows at me expectantly, arrogance personified. He knows I know nothing about wine.
"You choose," I answer, sullen but chastened.
"Two glasses of the Barossa Valley Shiraz, please."
"Er . . . we only sell that wine by the bottle, sir."
"A bottle then," Asad snaps.
"Sir." He retreats, subdued, and I don't blame him. I frown at Fifty. What's eating him?
Oh, me probably, and somewhere in the depths of my psyche, my inner goddess rises sleepily, stretches, and smiles. She's been asleep for a while.
"You're very grumpy."
He gazes at me impassively. "I wonder why that is?"
"Well, it's good to set the right tone for an intimate and honest discussion about the future, wouldn't you say?" I smile at him sweetly.
His mouth presses into a hard line, but then, almost reluctantly, his lips lift, and I know he's trying to stifle his smile.
"I'm sorry," he says.
"Apology accepted, and I'm pleased to inform you I haven't decided to become a veg-etarian since we last ate."
"Since that was the last time you ate, I think that's a moot point."
"There's that word again, moot."
"Moot," he mouths and his eyes soften with humor. He runs his hand through his hair, and he's serious again. "Zoe, the last time we spoke, you left me. I'm a little nervous. I've told you I want you back, and you've said . . . nothing." His gaze is intense and expectant while his candor is totally disarming. What the hell do I say to this?
"I've missed you . . . really missed you, Asad. The past few days have been . . .
difficult." I swallow, and a lump in my throat swells as I recall my desperate anguish since I left him.
This last week has been the worst in my life, the pain almost indescribable. Nothing has come close. But reality hits home, winding me.
"Nothing's changed. I can't be what you want me to be." I squeeze the words out past the lump in my throat.
"You are what I want you to be," he says, his soft voice emphatic.
"No, Asad, I'm not."
"You're upset because of what happened last time. I behaved stupidly, and you . . . So did you. Why didn't you safe word, Zoya?" His tone changes, becoming accusatory.
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