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"You never said, you never said, you never said
That it would be this hard
Love is meant to be forever, now or never seems to discard
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars,
So can you hear me when I call your name?
And when you fall apart
Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said and with a broken heart
You walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?
Complicated situations are the makings of all that's wrong
And I've been standing in the river of deliverance way too long
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars,
So, can you hear me when I call your name?..."
:'( </3
Hopes crashed. Dreams thrashed. Tears brimmed. Hearts clenched. Fears came back. Insecurities prevailed. Hoping against hope, it was only pain that they were left with...
A painful episode indeed. Intense. What else did we think?
A passion and intense filled journey of Junoon, started with hate, would have such an "easy" end? NOPE.
THIS, Intensified emotions. Passionate rage. Fiery streaks. THIS was all it about actually. It started it this way, HAS to end this way only. This makes them what they are. Yes they had their weak moments. So are they back to square one? Is this an end of what they were having and feeling these days? Would this Hurt and Pain be the only answer to their lives...
NOPE. NEVER. NADA.
They have burnt themselves in this intensity called Love. They have burnt themselves in the passion for each other. They have started to realise the so called "hate" they have in themselves for each other is nothing but LOVE. The love and care they feel towards each other, the dreams they have unknowingly started weaving with each other, the hopes of a blissful future with each other, hearts entwined together and forever, fears of losing each other...
They have really came a long way indeed. A simple conversation, more of an argument today, completed it in its own way.
She was dreaming about their own house smiling looking at the model they have created. He was stressed, pressurised, brainwashed (😡). He came to their room, so wanted to have a talk with her about why she was digging about his past. He doesn't want her to know about his past, the past which left only scars to him, those haunting memories, nightmares, he is ashamed, fearful, shattered of all that was his childhood about.. :'(
She smiled at him all excited about some changes she had on their house. She came and took his hand, to show him her dreams about their future..Only to get them thrashed.. Oh well. She has started to hold him way too much now 😆
He was furious, and asked the obvious. He was way too much hyper and tempered to think what he was gonna say. He said those words again "Its a fake marriage you know that right? Why are you suddenly being so caring about me? Why are you suddenly caring about this relation?" </3
But. He was not convinced himself. He knew she was not doing its purposefully. He knew she din't marry for money only, He has this belief somewhere in his mind, she is not like that.he has surely misjudged him. But his fears took the better of him, fear of getting close and attached to someone (?).
She was scared to tell. Scared that he would get hurt again. She has started caring for his worries, what worries him what makes him happy and is making sure not to have those memories back. She said she din't wanna show him that whip coz it would hurt him she knows that this would hurt. Trying to explain for all that she could. She wasn't lashing and giving him back like she used to do, maybe coz she knew he was in hsi weak moments. He eyes said that when he was lashing out at her, she knew he was not saying that from his heart, its only the anger speaking.
And then he saw that whip. His biggest fear which send shivers down his spine even to think of those days. Okay, When he grabbed that whip and she was yelling listen to me, who else felt he might start whipping her?! 🤣 (Oh I am a Viraj Dobriyal fan 😆)
Anyways, those memories he started having after seeing that whip. *shudders* God! those were indeed scary. But he did thrash and whipped.Yeah the poor dream house was the victim. Before he started breaking that house he sure had those weak moments. Why Sanam? Why are we acting like a real couple? When there is nothing but fake things in it? When its fake what is the need of thsi contest of best couple? He was hurt. His voice was the proof. His eyes spoke hurt.
And he broke. He broke that dream house. He was hurt, she was hurt too. Seeing those pieces of their home lying on the floor. They were both hurt and broken seeing that house in front of his eyes like THAT. It was evident with what he had done, he was regretting it the moment he was done with it. *Junooonnn...Junooonn..Junooonn...* 😆
And he walked out leaving its like that. She was crying, she was hurt, so much hurt. :'( He tears. It was painful to watch her like that. Wonder what he would be doing after going out? Maybe thrashing his fist or something? 😆 So want to see how he ends up making it again. CVs better show that! 😡
Not talking about those taunts by Billi. Poor Sanam baby. She was crying so much. She looked like such a baby.
Precap was nothing just the Promo. And some advertising by our Own Begum Jaan 😆 Can't wait for tomorrow! What big twist they are planning actually? Plus he would make it again, that house!!
Loved the episode. Yeah the rant was somewhat intense in the beginning, but it came down to my usual self in between 😆
And the song is by Daughtry. "Call Your Name" Beautiful one! <3
Anupamaa
