'what are you doing? How can you do this to yourself...han? Answer me...how can you do this? Have you any idea that if something happen to you then what will i do?' she yelled 'what are you doing here zoya?' he whispered 'i came to know the truth Mr.Khan' he stared at her in disbelief, she understood his unspoken question and answered him 'ayaa...ayaan planned everything and made sofia reveal everything to me...' it converted into the whisper as she started to tell him, guilt took over her, all the confidence she had in her a moment ago dried away, she looked at him with guilt filled eyes and he just gave a look which wasn't explainable, she tried to read his eyes but didn't had a coverage to face any dejection, not able to stare at him any longer , she crushed herself in his arm, tears started to roll down her cheeks later converting into loud sobs, she tried to ask for forgiveness but nothing came out and if she uttered something it was quite difficult for her to say perfectly as her continues sobs made it difficult, she kept crying until she felt him pulling her back...
He stared at her when she told him how she knew, he noticed how her answer converted into a whisper and she looked him with guilt indirectly pleading him, he wasn't able to figure out anything as it was unexpected for him to think that all the things which were badly messed up in past will fall back in place once again...he was stunned when she came closer to him then before and hugged him, she started to cry badly and was mumbling something he wasn't able to understand, he closed his eyes to make himself calm so that he can understand each and everything she utter, he pulled her back and make her face him, tears were continuously flowing from her eyes, his hand converted into a fist seeing her tears, she was crying badly, 7 years back, when his life messed up badly he tried to stay away from her just because he can't see tears in her eyes, because his facing her every now and then with anger would had made her cry and today he saw her crying again, in those 7 days, no actually 5 days which they spend together, he never witnessed any tear in her eyes even the day she left she wasn't crying but today he can see how badly she is crying
He wiped her tears with his thumb and nodded a no 'please don't cry zoya, i can't bear it...' 'i am sorry' was all she could whisper, tears still were there in her eyes as if she didn't heard him, her mind still had so much in it that she can't digest any new thing at that moment, 'i am sorry asad, i shouldn't had left, i should had trust you the way you did, i should had defend you the way you did, i am sorry, i ruined everything because of this , i am sorry i made you suffer, i am sorry i kept you away from your daughter, i am sorry for every slight mistake i did in past 7 years...' she cried more, he just pulled her in a hug soothing her, he made her sit at the couch and sat in front of her on his knees, he took her hand in his and said 'zoya...there is no need for you to say sorry, it was never your fault, it all happened because of me, i shouldn't had showed so much anger to you, i should had behaved nicely with you... I thought because of it i won't be able to hurt you, i was just a fool, i didn't even realized that it's a wrong decision...because of my problems and pain i hurted you a lot, to such extent that you stop trying, that you stop trusting me, you left me and i deserve that...i was selfish, i forced you in all this...i was the one who made you live in grief...i am sorry' he placed his forhead on there intertwined fingers while she nodded a no 'don't blame yourself Mr.Khan...it was my mistake and thus i got this punishment' he just sat in the same way not uttering a word...
Leaving the couch she too sat on the floor beside him, placing her one hand on his cheeks she make him face her 'won't you forgive me Asad...please, i know my mistake was huge and i don't deserve your forgiveness, but i am selfish, i want you to forgive me because i need you...i want my complete family, u me and sidra...please ' he raised his head and looked at her, placing his hand on her's which was still on his cheek he said 'don't blame yourself for whatever, it all started by me when i started ignoring you, i had hurt you a lot and i guess staying away from you and craving for your love was my punishment...' 'you never deserved any punishment asad...it was me...' she cried and he just took her in a hug weeping silently, they sat like that in each others embrace for God knows how long until she was calm to ask him about his recent action, she broke the hug and look at him 'Mr.Khan ho...how can you d..do this?' her voice chooked thinking about what could had happened if she hadn't reached here on time while his brows frown as he was so lost in this moment, she understood his confusion and continued herself 'how can you try to kill yourself...how can you even think of leaving me..? How can you lose so easily? How can you Asad...how can you...?' she asked, tears again flowing from her eyes, he took a deep breath before he could answer her, he knew he has too, if they are ready to let go of past then it means they shouldn't hide anything
He cupped her face and replied 'i was tired zoya, i lost all my strength, when i realized that you left me and there is no way to make it perfect i realized that at last i lost...completely...i don't want to live my life with this grief, anymore, i don't know why but i hadn't have the stamina to live my life with loneliness, i needed you but i knew it's impossible...' he paused and took a look at her who was looking at him intensely waiting for him fo continue 'you know when i came to know the entire truth, i was angry thinking that from so many years i thought i made u leave me and with this anger i send those divorce papers, but when i started thinking keeping my anger aside i realized what a wrong move i took, i realized that it was my anger which always acted as a hurdle between us and today after seeing you there i wanted you back but at the same time it felt impossible, i understood that i lost the battle between my love and anger and the most precious thing which was taken away from me was you...i had no reason left zoya to live this life...i had no choice and thus i decide to end this life Otherthan dying thousand death daily without you...'
Finishing his explanation when he look at her, she cried more, she sobbed harder digesting the fact once again that if she was late, even for a second then destiny once again had snatched her happiness from her and this time for always...taking his hand in hers she brought it near her chest placing it just above her heart and looked directly in his eyes 'asad this heart, it beats for you, from always and the day you will decide to leave me like this it will stop beating, i will stop breathing, you know till today i was alive, i admit it that sidra was the reason but deep in my heart i was at peace because i knew that you are fine and that is why i am fine, i am alive and i am breathing, i left you thinking you will be happy but i never knew that i am committing a grave sin, i know from whatever we both went through was a punishment, not only for me neither for you, but for both of us...your anger and my lack of trust on you made things worst for us...we suffered, since that day till today but asad we can't change the past, it had happened but please don't make it effect our present...Asad i want to spend rest of my life with you and sidra...it's my only wish, please asad...don't ever think of leaving me, i wi...will d...' he placed his finger over her lips stopping her from speaking further 'don't ever say that word which can take you away from me and once again' they hugged and cried
Cried over there cruel past where they were away from each other, cried for not being there for each other, cried for not understanding each other even when they thought for each other's happiness they took a wrong decision, they imagined there happiness in there decision even when there happiness lied in each other...there were tears of happiness at last where they were thanking Allah silently for giving them a second chance to make it better...
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He made her lie on the bed and lied beside her, she snuggled closer and he wrapped his arm around her waist, they kept lying like that until she break the silence 'Mr.khan...' 'hmmm' 'tell me one thing honestly ask Mr.Khan in past 7 years you spend without me, did you ever hate me in these all years...' she whispered, he looked deep in her eyes and replied 'i never hated you zoya, may be i got angry but i never let my heart hate you, i don't have any right to hate you, how can i hate you? Because i had promised you that the moment i will stop loving you would be my last breath...' 'i love you so much and i am so sorry for making you go through all this...' he sighed 'zoya stop now, time which had passed can't return, we too don't stop it, let it go, just think that our life is about to begin which will bring nothing but happiness...we will live together, and it's what i wish...' 'i promise you Mr.khan that i will never let our past effect our future... she said hiding her face in his chest 'acha now shall we sleep?' 'yes...' 'good night zoya... good night asad.. '
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'mamma Mr.Khan ...' sidra yelled from the living room, asya stirred in their sleep, getting no response sidra started knocking on the door, both of them stood up with a jerk, where asad went to open the door, zoya sat on the bed rubbing her eyes, asad opened the door for sidra who was in ayaan's lap, her face lite up seeing her daddy after a week and she literally jumped to him, he too took her and hugged her 'how is daddy's princess..?' he asked 'very fine, i missed you Mr.Khan ' she replied and then looked at zoya who were looking at them, she left asad ran to zoya hugging her 'mamma, is our punishment over??' she asked 'punishment?' asked asad as he came to them "Actually Mr.Khan mam...' 'sidra...jaan you leave it i will tell your daddy' zoya interrupted her, for a moment asad felt dejected but zoya cleared it all as she placed her hand on his 'i will explain it to you later...and sidra yes, our punishment is over...now ask your rabart chacho to bring our luggage here...now we will live with your daddy' sidra's happiness knew no bound 'sachi mamma, we will live with daddy for always? Yayyy... Now i will tell all my friends that i too live with my daddy, mamma i love you...thank you' she said hugging zoya, zoya hugged her back no one will ask me to join? they broke the hug and looked at asad who was making a puppy face daddy you look so cute...come join us and the three hugged together..
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AFTER TWO DAYS
'yes uncle anwar i will live with my daddy...' sidra informed them, anwar placed his hand on her head lovingly 'so my princess is happy? 'yes...very very very happy...but...i will miss you' 'aww, me too, but don't be sad, we will skype daily...i promise ' sidra hugged anwar 'you are the best uncle anwar' while these both were busy in discussing that how will they manage zeenat walked towards asad whose eyes were on sidra smiling at her antics she is so much like zoya he thought 'asad' called out zeenat but he didn't reacted 'asad...listen' this time she placed her hand on his shoulder 'uhh, ji...ji api.. ' he answered, her eyes widened as he called her api 'asad, please forgive me for my bad behavior towards you...i am so sorry, i just did that because i thought that you had hurt my zoya and you should be punished...i am so sorry ' she requested joining her hands in front of him, he hurriedly stopped her from doing that 'please api, don't embarrasse me, there is no need for it...i know why you did all that to me and honestly i was hurt but after knowing the truth myself i never felt any hatred towards you' 'thank you asad, you made my life easier, you have such a big heart, i am glad that you and zoya manged with the situation very wel...' 'we have to api, otherwise our life would had been incomplete' said zoya bringing the tray for drinks and signalled zeenat to take one and then to asad and walked away to others
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An year passed, asya were living there life happily, zoya was expecting once again and was in her third month and sidra was getting more adorable than before, people had said right that daughters are daddy's princess, same with sidra, she is getting closer and closer to asad in each passing day, she never forget to skype her family in New York, there life is passing very smoothly and they are happy with it
najma and nikhat along with there husbands had shifted back there business in india so they too had returned too while at ayaan's place there are few things which still hadn't been solved, dilshaad never got along with everyone too much, she keeps herself away while the rest feel sad for it but still live goes on
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'zoya how much time will you take..?' asked asad entering in the room but stopped seeing his beautiful wife getting ready, she was wearing a blue colour chiffon sari with the work of silver in it, a little accessories and light make up, she looked at him frowning 'what?' she asked and he shook his head 'nothing' he whisper 'then why are you starring st me Mr.Khan?' 'you look beautiful zoya' he complemented making her blush , he came close to her, placing his hand on her waist he pulled her closer , and kissed on her cheek, moving to her earlobe he whispered ' just forget the party, let's go to some romantic dinner...' he asked 'and what ex cuse you will give to your brother..' she asked raising an eye brow 'ohh zoya is having mood swings and she don't like attending the function' 'haww asad, don't you dare using my name in it...' she said faking anger 'chalo don't get angry, i will make some other ex cuse' he suggested 'you don't remember but i do that we have a daughter who is probably waiting for us outside as she is very much excited' zoya reminded 'sometime i feel that sidra is your partner in ruining my romantic mode' he said pulling a face making her laugh aloud and then they left for ayan's residency
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It was a function to welcome a new member in family, ayaan and humairas daughter, whole house was beautifully decorated, dilshaad who usually don't take part in family get togethers was running here and there checking out everything one last time, guest started arriving and after a while asad to reached along with his family, if it was in asad's hand then he never had came here because this house always bring those bitter memories of past but now it wasn't in his hand, he had to come for ayaan who had did so much for him when he was alone, when the truth was out...
While everyone sat together praising there daughter Imroza asad stood at the corner, there was a smile playing on his lips noticing his wife and daughter's antics but it wiped off the moment dilshaad approached him 'asad' she called out 'Assalm o Alikum a..ami' 'walikum as salam..how are you beta' 'i am fine ami, aa...ap kaise hain?' 'how can a mother be fine when her son don't talk to her' she complained disheartened 'noth..nothing like that' he argued hesitantly 'acha then say it looking into my eyes' she asked forcing him to look at her, his hand turned into a fist not wanting to be harsh with her 'ami please don't force me to do something i can't, our relation had changed long ago, but still i am talking to you is because i don't want it to get worst... I care for you and i respect you, please i request you to not to expect anything else from me...' he said and walk away, dilshaad wiped the tears that started to roll down her cheeks , none at the function except zoya noticed the scene but she didn't uttered a word in front of everyone
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'Mr.Khan can i ask something to you?' asked zoya removing her earrings 'hmmm' he responded loosening his tie and then removed his coat, he turned to look at her as she didn't said anything, she was standing just behind him 'what happened zoya?' he asked once again 'wo Mr.Khan pho...phoppi' as she started he understood what she wants to know so he turned back indicating her to stop but zoya being zoya hugged him from behind 'please listen na, i want to know your reason...' she requested, he knew what reasons she is asking about , in past one year he never had discussed anything related to him and dilshaad to her but today he needs to open up to her about it
'zoya, you and najma were my weakness but ami she was my pride, she was the one who gave me that stamina to face this world, she was the one who encouraged me to achieve my goals, she was everything to me, we had nothing when that man left us but just because she was with me and she had believed me i achieve this post, but zoya i never knew that she will leave me for that man, zoya he left us for money, in those 20 years he never tried to interact with us in any manner, he never supported us neither personally nor financially, he had his own family he was happy but when ayaan's ami died he came to ami saying that he is alone and she left me, she left my side, she broke my heart, the person for whom i was ready to sacrifice my life without even thinking just left me, she just thought about him and not me..' he let out all his feelings to her, she took his hand in hers 'Mr.khan i and najma also left you, how can you forgave us?' she asked
He cupped her face, caressing her cheeks with his thumb 'i had forgave ami too zoya but i can't make our relation like before, i don't want to get hurt once again so its better that i myself create difference to save our relation from any kin of rifs and zoya when Rashid Ahmed Khan left us najma was just 1 year old, i and ami never let anything from our past affect us, she left me because i started behaving rude to her, i myself made it difficult for her to stay with me, you remember when ami was ready to leave this house najam stood by my side, you too were there for me, and you zoya, i never forgave you..' before he could say anything else her eyes turned moist all set to cry, he nodded a no to her before continuing 'i never forgave you zoya because i never thought that you did any mistake, it was a misunderstanding but still we got punished because of our own mistakes, zoya we both had sort out all our issues of past and i don't want it to come in front of us, not now not anytime in future, we had already moved on with each other and we are happy...right?' she nodded 'and i promise i will never let that past of our's affect our present or future...' she said as he took her in a hug
'i am sorry, i will not talk about phoppi to you ever again' she apologized 'no need to do that zoya, if you hadn't ask me then i myself had told you, if not today then some other day...' ' i know u had but i didn't had patience for that, my emotionally challenged husband was crying silently and i can't tolerate this' he chuckled and shook his head
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