Surreal Sanam

Sanam, looked into his eyes and could see the truth so clearly, that it baffled her. She didn't understand how she felt about him confessing his love for her. Ahil, the man who has literally turned her life upside down, has wiped out her dreams, has tormented her, challenged her self respect, treated her like a servant, questioned her ideals, put her through so much pain, and yet, she is drawn to him in a way she cannot comprehend. She wants to believe his words, she wants that glimmer of hope that beneath all that hatred is the love she craves. She doesn't know how she would feel if this was really the truth. Can she handle the man she outwardly hates to be in love with her? For Sanam, Ahil is an enigma she cannot get her head around. He does everything to make her hate him. And yet, she cannot get her heart to. She knows when she is in trouble, he will come to save her. It was that one night where he saved her, stuck by her through the night, calmed her fears, and showed her his true concern for her. That night changed everything for the both of them. Ahil knows it did, Sanam is yet to gauge that realization. She wanted to hang on to his words today, and that's why when they entered the room, her hand was still locked in his arm. She didn't move it away as soon as they were away from the family. She was still reeling under the effect of his words, still wondering about the evident truth she could see in his eyes for every word he spoke. Was she silently hoping it was all true?

Ahil sensed that he may have shown her a glimpse into his heart and knew he had been swayed by emotion. He had to shatter that hope once again and so he made sure to let her know he meant nothing. Rude shock for both of them. He was trying to convince himself more than her that he felt nothing for her, and she was awoken to the reality that there was no hope in this relationship and Ahil, was well, Jallad Jin once again. And when Sanam had had enough of his berating, she gave him back by saying she is going to sleep in HER room. And once again, he knew why he had fallen for this one. Every time she gives it back to him, he falls harder. But Ahil has taken it upon him to not be ruled by his heart and hence he goes back to his Jallad Jin days and orders her to sleep in the room in such a commanding way that even fiesty Sanam gives in without a word.

Sanam has glimpses of both Asad and Zoya in her. I am glad she has more of Asad, because Sanam falling in love with Ahil and realizing it is going to be one hell of a long journey. It is going to take something drastic for her to realize she has fallen in love with him, which means an intense sequence like the Mangalpur trip for Asad and Zoya. ( probably one of my favorite bits of them) Although, one could see Asad's apparent concern for Zoya from the very beginning that she saved her from the goons. But, right now Sanam has so much Zoya in her. She is as blind to Ahil's feelings as Zoya was to Asad's burning stares at her. Like Zoya, Sanam is ignorant and believes more in seeing things for face value. And just like her mother, knows how to ignore harsh words and move on. Which is what we see on the next day sequence where she wakes up and sweetly tells Ahil to come for sehri and then proceeds to help him out with his stuff ( despite how rudely he let her sleep without a blanket and with no concern) I wish they had shown Ahil putting the blanket onto Sanam at night, because he loves her. He can behave like he wants with her to put on a facade, but his concern for her should shine through in such moments. Instead, he slept with his blanket and no concern.

Asad and Zoya were an out and out love story and the external strings of the abbu track and Tanveer were added to take the story further. Ahil and Sanam have a story beneath their love story and the strings that they are bound in are so horrifically entangled, it will be a delight to see how they take their relationship through these ties.

Rehaan, is already developing a grey shade. His hope that Sanam will be his after 3 months is the hope of a sightless lover. He does not weigh the stones before him. Little does he know that 3 months are enough for two people who live under one roof to fall in love. He has hope his Ahil bhaijaan would give him Sanam back as she was. But does he realize that Sanam will have changed so much in 3 months, she may not want to leave Ahil? Poor Rehaan is living in a distorted vision of post 3 months that his ammi mollycoddled him to beleive. He is in for a dhoka on all fronts, from ammi and from Ahil-Sanam. But it will be amazing to watch Rehaan turn bad. Nothing like a villain with good looks :P And who better to kill Tanveer than her own son? Any more fitting end to her?

Razia is going to be back and I cannot be more excited. I want Gul to first play out the whole falling in love track with Ahil and Sanam and only when they are so irrevocably in love, she should play her trump card of the story unfolding before them.

Sanam dear, now it's time for you to start showing your thoughts and feelings about your new shauhar. We've had a glimpse of Ahil's heart, now let's have a look into yours.

P.S - Surbhi looked gorgeous in the red lehenga. I like the new look they have given her and I hope they stick to this for her. Asad would be a proud father. I hope Seher gets to be in a modern avatar like her mom Zoya. It will be stupid to show mom having been a new york return modern girl and not even one daughter to carry on that zesty, modern and chic legacy. :)

Aahil is a damaged soul surrounded by opportunists. He is very lonely and starved of affection. He's been a playboy but only with girls who play up to him. He's never been impressed by a girl before, especially one who doesn't think much of him.

The need to woo a girl is alien to him. He just wants and therefore he should get.

That's why Sanam is the perfect girl for him. She had a difficult childhood of hardship but filled with love. And he, a childhood of luxury but filled with loneliness and guilt.

Sanam is disillusioned by her bad luck, nothing came easy to her. Aahil is disillusioned with love, he is suspicious of it, he believes he is undeserving of it.

Even i was wishing k aahil shud hv given the blanket while sanam was asleep.. N it wud hv been such a beatiful scene when sanam would get up n wondered about the blanket.. But alas😭 anyways we did get consollation in shape of much more beautiful scene Aahil waking up to watch sanam offering prayers.. It was one of the most beautifully written n portrayed scenes... Just in love with it.. It was surreal ...

I love the positivity of Aahil's character...he is not hati g rehan for loving his life.. N despite all the promises he has made with himself abour hating sanam so much.. He hasnt gone the abusive or insulting way yeah he do mildly insult her sometimes but dats forgivable because the love he showers on her just through his gaze makes up more than enough