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Chap 12 Killed by your silence
Zoya spent her entire day silent, looking sad when Nikhat asked her what happenned, she just faked a strong headache, but the truth was that this argue with Asad, touched a lot, more that expected. She was supposed to stand up for Ayaan and humeira, but she didn't want to hurt Asad in between. He was his friend, a good one, he has proved his loyalty toward her many times, she shouldn't have to talk to him like this. He never hurted her but she hurted him back. Asad was a stubborn and to make him understand, we had to push our limits and she pushed them far this time. She realized that he was hurt because of her, he felt rejected when she ran away. They never discussed about that night, but now she realized that the wound was still open deep inside of him, and she knew that someday she will have to pay the prize of her silliness.The guilt, her harsh words, seing him hurt and his eyes full of insecure still rang in her minds, which created a chaos inside of her.
Zoya left the office that day, with heavy heart and mechanically, she went outside waiting for him to drop her to home. She let a sad laugh, she laughed and cried at herself,
- after what happenned, how can he come to drop me ? She though, I don't know if I can face him, if I will be able to ignore his eyes, how can I ? She felt helpless. She wiped her tears and started walking slowly, her feet were also heavy that day. Suddenly, she saw a car blocking her path, she looked in shock.
-you ? She started cring, Aassad, she whispered
Asad was here, like he promessed her, in his car, like he was supposed to be, he didn't look at her, he was wearing his shades staring to the road, his face straight. She just looked at him, waiting for him to talk, but he didn't. He waited like this, she saw his features of his face rigid and she can imagine how his eyes might be. She sighed sadly, opened the door and got inside, without lifting her eyes from him.
Duaa , Shanghai movie, source bollymeaning.com
Kise poochun, hai aisa kyun
To whom to ask, why is it so,
Bezubaan sa, ye jahaan hai
this world is, as if mute..
Asad drove silently, ignoring her but Zoya, tears in her eyes, didn't expect that he will come, once again, she judged him quickly. He is a man of words, She couldn't help but admire the man in front of her. His behaviour increased her guilt. She turned her face to hide a fresh tears running along her cheeks.
Khushi ke pal, kahan dhoondhooN
Where to find moments of joy,
Benishan sa, waqt bhi yahan hai
Even time is like without a sign..
They passed next to the ice-cream shop, Zoya smiled sadly remembering how he offered her the ice-cream that day. She remembered their last conversaion :
-Ok, mission one accomplished, now mission two
-what are you talking about?
-just wait, you lost something today and I will try to bring it back.
He didn't only confort her, what he called mission one but he also brought her back her smile, his mission two. She looked up at him, did I ever try to make him smile as he did to me ? She felt digust by her behaviour toward him.
Jaane kitne labon pe gile hain
There are complaints on so many lips,
Zindagi se kayi faasle hain
there are many distances from the life..
There is huge difference between us and them, the difference is that Ayaan loves Humeira, but I DON'T LOVE YOU...
The truth, Mister khan, is that I don't deserve you, you deserve someone who will love you more than herself and her stupid dream. You don't deserve a selfish girl like me, who broke your faith in love, Asad, I don't deserve even dreaming about a men like you, you are out of this world. She cried inwardly.
Paseejte hain sapne kyun aankhon mein
Why do the dreams dampen in eyes,
Lakeer jab chhoote in haathon se yoon bewajah
when the line leaves these hands, for no reason..
Finally, they arrived at Farooqui's mansion, Asad and Zoya looked straight , she waited motionless, she wanted to tell him many things that may smoothe his pain, but her inside feeling blocked her throat, full of emotion, she closed her eyes in frustration, instead of her word, her tears found easily their road to her eyes. She just muttered :
-I'm sorry, that was the only thing that came out
Asad stayed stoic, her word didn't move anything in him, he looked like he was somewhere else. She opened the door and walked slowly, she just heard the starter of the car and she let her sobs out, finally.
Jo bheji thi duaa, woh jaake aasmaan
The wish I had sent,
se yoon takra gayi ke aa gayi
that collided with the sky such that
Hai laut ke sadaa
a call has come back
-I'm sorry too Miss farooqui, I'm sorry for thinking that one day you may fall in love with me, how I was naive to dream about it. He said calmly, Deep down, I thought that you started loving me, he smiled lazily. God, how I wished ..., he stopped, that I never met her , those prayers remained unsaid.
Saanson ne kahan rukh mod liya
where have the breaths turned their face,
Koi raah nazar mein na aaye
I don't see any path..
Dhadkan ne kahan dil chhod diya
where has the heartbeat left the heart
Kahan chhode in jismoN ne saaye
and where have these bodies left (their) shadows..
He watched again his moment with her : the coffee shop, their stupid game, the hug, her smile and her cry I don't love youuu . He closed his eyes in hurt, he wished he never heard that from her, she broke his last hope for loving her. They became close day by day and his hopes had grow up but for her, it was just a strong friendship, not a love, nothing else.
Yehi baar-baar sochta hoon tanha main yahan
I, here, think this again and again..
Mere saath-saath chal raha hai yaadon ka dhuaan
a smoke of memories is walking with me.
I didn't love you and I won't love you like they love each other, that why I ran that day, I didn't imagine leaving with someone that I don't love
Don't let my mistake break many hearts, humeira, Ayaan, mine and yours, Asad
Her voice and her words rang in his head like a sad melody, she left nothing, she broke him again. Did she ever suspected my wandering in her love ? He though sadly.
Jo bheji thi duaa, woh jaake aasmaan
se yoon takra gayi ke aa gayi
Hai laut ke sadaa
-it's all over miss farroqui, all over, but before I leave you forever , I will fullfil my promess to your parent that day, he promessed to himself.
He went outside of his house, everything was dark, perfect color that his life chose to wear tonight. He just wished that day would finish, he rushed toward his room, when he heard some sound coming from her room. Humeira, he though sadly.He opened the door slighlty, looking at her crying, constricted his heart, he promessed to himself to care of her and never hurt her. But, today he fell like his prayers never reached sky. He sat next to her, she was alerted by his presence, and she wiped her tears.
-bhaijaan, she avoided looking at him
Asad putted his hand on her head, she closed her eyes, touched by his gesture.
-when did you grow up, humeira ? When did you start being a woman ? Did I miss a lot ?
She looked at him , in surprise, she didn't understand what he meant. He cupped his face and kissed her forehead.
-what do you wished Humeira ? He continued
Humeira throw herself in his arms and started sobbing.
-just to forgive me, you are the most important person in my life bhaijaan, nothing else matters. He smiled sadly and hugged her back.
-and Ayaan ?
She froze and what about Ayaan ? she though
-just Ammi , you and me like always bhaijaan, she tryied to sound firmly
-well, we are and we always be like this, he thighed his grip around her, but the thing that he asked me your hand, so I came to ask your opinion, he replied, she looked at him like she was hitted by his words.
-he what ? her eyes was wide open
-he asked for your hand ? he smiled softly
-and what did you say to him ? she gulped nervously
-well, he didn't ask my hands, so I'm asking you ? He didn't want to influence her decision
-I ..I don't have any answer, it's up to ammi and you, I will follow your decision, her blood reached her cheeks. She couldn't tell him the truth, she couldn't loose her brother.
-ok, so I guess, I'm going to say NO , she looked at him , tears in her eyes, for the wedding, both of you are still young and both of you, can't cary a family, no one of you has a job properly and no one are ready. You have to focus only on your study.
She just nodded sadly.
-And I guess, there is no mind to say yes for an engagement now her face lighted up suddenly, and the wedding will happened only when I'll be sure that he is on his feet, strong enoough for both of you. I won't let him take you easily, miss humeira, is that clear ?
She nodded vigorously without saying her word, she can't believe her lucky star to have a noble brother like him. She said a silent prayer to Allah that he let her brother to accept at least the engagement. She hold him tigh and her tears flowed with happiness this time. Asad had just accepted for humeira's sake, but he will observe everything and he will be behind Ayaan, all the time, if he had to do it. This day reminded him his priorities : his family's happiness and his happiness is and always will be his family. Dilshad who was holdind a glass of milk for Asad, had witness of this bond, and wiped tears, happy to see that her prayers had reach the Almighty at least for her daughter to find love, it only remained Asad, but she knew that with his golden heart, he will find soon his soulmate.
Farroqui's mansion
Zoya didn't sleep well that night, she kept tossing and turning in her bed, watching their argument. She couldn't remove her guilt, she tried to convince herself that afterall she fought for right thing, at least he might decrease her feeling, but nothing help. The only image which was still in her mind is Asad and his piercing sad eyes. This man drove her crazy if it's not his arrogant attitude, it's his eyes. His eyes spoke volumes. Ayaan rushed in her room like a hurricane, yelling her name :
-Ayaan, are you mad ? What are...Before she could finish, he hold her and twirled again and again, Ayaan , stoop, stop STOOOPPP
-Zoya, he finally accept, he accept , HE ACCEPT
-who ? What ?
-I'm going to get engage to humeira, Zoya, he listened to you, thank you so much
Zoya couldn't believe that Asad had accept and listened to her request, she cries emotionally, Asad's heart melt away and he accept, wich mean that he may forgive me, she though with hope. She hold back Ayaan.
-Allah lak shukr (thank you Allah) , she thanked
Days after, Farroqui's family were so proud to be able, finally to consolidate their relation by a wedding between Khan family and their family. First time, it didn't work and everyone had move on or assumed that they move on. Gaffur and Asad shook their hands in approval of this union and when Asad shook Ayaan's hand, he tied his grip and whispered in his ears :
-behave, I'm watching you, he tapped his shoulder little bit hard
Ayaan coughed and nodded nervously. Zeinab asked Dilshad to prepare something ceremonious for both of them, since they won't get married so soon, they just want to celebrate this event at biggest size, Dilshad agreed at this idea, even if Asad had show his disapproval, he couldn't help but to accept looking at Dilshad and Humaira's face. Zoya who was witness, was really happy to see that everything turned to be good, but she noticed that each time, she tried to catch Asad's eyes, he avoided her. He didn't look at her or even said something, he spent his time avoiding any contact with her. She couldn't bear his silence, afterall everything is fine now, why did he have to act with so much attitude ? She though.
-You could not avoid me for the eternity, at one moment, we will be alone and you will have to talk to me, tomorrow, I will push him to talk to me, she said with a victorious smile
Day after, she waited him to pick her up, and she was grinning mischievously that this time he will have no other choice than talking, and if he didn't want , she will extracted those missing word from his throat. She walked a little, when she felt a car stoped behind her, she smiled and hide it quickly when she turned to face him. She claimed her victory too soon.
-Ayaan ? she said sadly
-No, the queen, he said annoyed
-what are you doing here ?
-I'm here to pick you up,
-how did you know that I'm here ? I didn't call you
-hmmm, I saw you going outside and I just follow you, come on, I have many thing to do before the engagement.
-Ok , I'm comin'
-from now, I'll pick you up from your work
-no, Ayaan, you don't have to, it's enough that you do that in the morning, I'll take a cab or your car.
-my car, you are just dreaming, no I don't mind to pick you up, I know that I can do it and I will prove him
-him ? Who are you talking about ? What do you want to prove Ayaan ?
-I ...I m going to get engage see and I have to be responsible from now and I start with my beautiful sister, he said holding her chin like a baby
-Beautiful sister ??? Are you kidding ? You used to call me moti and now I'm beautiful, Ayaan, what the deal ?
-Nothing , I'm just want to take of you, is that wrong ? he looked shock by her accusation
-Ayaan, something is fishy, I didn't call you today and I'm sure you didn't come here by coincidence, the only person who know that I'm here is...Asad, she whispered the last word, AYAAN, but she yelled this one, is Asad who told you to pick me up everyday ?
Ayaan looked outside the window
-see, how those kid are beautiful, do you want pani puri ? Your favorite, let eat ...
-AYAAANNN
-ok , ok I tell you, actually Asad told me to prove myself and he gave my first mission . So he told me that being responsible involve to care about my family without their knowlegde, so he asked me everyday to take care of you and if I succeed, I prove him right, I would be worthy of his sister.
-whaat ? And you just followed him blindly, we call this emotional blackmail, I will talk to him
-nooo, don't , he shouted in panick, don't, the deal is and he insisted on that without their knowledge , please Zoya, I'm begging you, this guy scared me, and I found nothing wrong to proove him that, you are my responsaility, I have to protect you. See I don't mind, he didn't force me
-he didn't force you ???? She rolled her eyes.
-please, please, don't say anything, please, please, he fold his hand as a prayer.
She couldn't add anything else, Asad was clever, he manipulated her brother and he succeeded for avoiding her, it's going to be a hard this time to make him open to her.
Engagement day
Khan's mansion was for a change full of scream, noise and person, everyone was preparing the ceremony, and Dilshad existed by this event, controlled everything, shouting on the worker and supervising everything. She couldn't control her emotion, her little girl was going to get engage, last time, this house was witness with such a beautiful environment it's on Asad's wedding. She wiped her tears and got back to work. Just a few hours before the guess come, Asad was still at work, he didn't like all of this, it made him feel sad . His sister will be now under responsabilty of another man, he just wished that he will worth his sister or he will teach him a good lesson.
He went back from work, looking at his mother ran everywhere, she looked exhauted by all of this. He came behind her and placed his hand on her shoulders .
-Ammi, he said softly
-you has just come and you are not even ready , ya Allah , go and prepare yourself , there is a lot of thing to do, Asad
He smiled at her and hold her, she was taken by surprised and knew that he just want to calm her down.
-Ammi, have a rest and prepare, you are the mother bride, you should be the first to be prepare and take care of humeira, I finish everything here, she started by protesting, when he cuted her, no ammi, I don't want to listen to anything, just go.
She kissed his forehead and whished him to be always happy. He looked at her walking away. He sighed and got back to work.
He went to take a quick shower, the guess might come in any minute, he went outside bathroom, only wearing a towel around his waist and looked at the white and blue sherwani. He stand in front of the mirror, closing all the buttons, he's looking not less than any prince in this outfit. The white color increased the dark color of his eyes and the blue only show his purity. Now, it was the turn of the shawl. He was not confortable with it, he was just used to his western clothes. While, he tried different combinaison, someone knocked at his door.
-Jee, ammi, how do you think do I have to put it..., he looked up and his heart skipped a bit, in front of him, was standing Zoya, wearing a blue saree with creamy floral embroidered patterns on border of her pallu. Her hair was opened, curled and place on one side of her shoulder, she was not less than any models. He cleared his throat and looked down.
-Miss farroqui
-at least you remember my name, he looked at her briefly, ignoring her remarks,
-what do you want ? He sound emotioneless
-Phuphi was calling you, she want you to welcome to guess
-thank you, I'm comin, he stand in front of the mirror, turning his back to her.
-mister khan
-mmm
-I want to thank you for Ayaan and humeira, that was really kind of you
-I just did it for my sister happiness but I still don't trust and I'll be watching your brother carefully
-I know and anyway I just want to thank you, it means a lot to me
-I didn't do this to erase your guilt or to help you to feel better , I just asked her what she want but she will have to assume her decision, I'm just here to help her and protect her as I always did.
Asad was with shawl when he saw her reflection in the mirror.
-something else, Miss farroqui ?
-May I ?
He didn't answer, as much as he want her to stay as much as he want her to let him alone, he couldn't support seing her next to him, she created havoc and strong desire in him. He looked at his reflection ignoring her, whishing that she will get annoyed and left. But Zoya was stubborn and she took from him the shawl.
-what are you doing ? I'll do it
She stood between him and the mirror and ignored his call, he protested again when she putted her forefinger in his mouth to stop him from talking. He was shocked, they looked at each other, Zoya realized what she did, she retreated her hand hesitantly, she blushed a little and to avoid any embarassement, she looked at the shawl between her hand. Asad couldn't help but his lips twirled a little. She looked at him and he got back to his serious face.
-Mister khan, can you lower your head, you are taller for me, she explained
Asad lower his head and looked in opposite to her face and she putted the shawl over her head. The back of her hand brushed his neck, he looked at her, she was looking at him, her eyes was showing a mixed emotion that Asad could not read. She hold the veil with her hands firmly, his eyes also was full of emotion that she couldn't read but sent into her body and heart some new emotion. The distance closed slowly between them, that now they are looking at each other lips. Asad was the first to look away and placed his head close to her neck, breathing in it. Zoya closed her eyes sensing shiver through her body, she was now close to his neck and she could smell his scent, she couldn't think clearly, his breath on her neck and his scent, made her loose her sense. She was supposed to talk to him but now she could even know where she is and what she is doing. She hold one side on a veil and putted him on his shoulders. Asad controlled himself hardly for not holding her and inhaled her perfume that didn't stop playing with his sense. He tried to step back but Zoya at the same time turned her face, he accidentally brushed the corner of her lips with his lips. Both jerked away like both had received an electric shock. Zoya felt a blood reached her cheeks, she mumbled something incomprehensible and left in hurry. Asad stayed stunned.
Zoya went outside and took support on the wall, she placed her hand on her heart, to calm her erratic heartbeat and her other hand on the corner of her lips.
-how that happenned ? she breathed heavily
-What did you do to me Zoya ? My whole soul claims you, I should stay away from you, just away from you, he said in frustration.
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