Hello! Today was such a crap episode, but I was still inspired by the pre-cap... hence this OS.
What's that noise? I immediately stopped the car and looked at the side-view mirror. A child is injured, I know it's not because of me but my eyes don't want to look away. Ya Allah, is that really her? Am I imagining again? No I possibly can't, she's picking that child up. I must go there. I must talk to her; I can't let her go again.
I walk up to her, she hasn't noticed me yet. We're in an orphanage, what is she doing here? At the moment she's providing first aid to that boy. I must walk through the crowd so that she notices me. No, I'll wait till she is done, so that we have our privacy.
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Is that Mr. Khan watching me do first aid? No it can't be! I've been hallucinating about him for a month now, there is no way that figure is real. Ya Allah, please stop playing these games with me. If he was here, I would really run to him and asked him why he did that. It's been a month and I've been living with this question. WHY MR. KHAN, why?
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She looked at me but didn't acknowledge me, is she still mad at me? Of course she is. But I just want to talk to her once. Just this once, I need to say I'm sorry; I need to tell her that I love her; I need to tell her that I didn't do it intentionally – and I hate myself for it.
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The crowd is going away, but Mr.Khan isn't… what is this? Why is he approaching me? Zoya, get over it – he's just your imagination.
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"Zoya"
"Mr. Khan?"
"Please listen to me just this once!" I begged her; if this didn't work I don't know what will!
"I will, I want my answers" Thank you Allah for bringing my answers to me.
What answers is she talking about? "I'm sorry Zoya, I had no intention to – I hate myself for what happened. I really really love you, and without you I've been living through a thousand deaths each day. Please don't ever leave me again… I'm sorry." I begged but I also knew that she had all the rights to not forgive me. I was entirely wrong, and she doesn't deserve a man like me.
"Why did you do it Mr.Khan" I can't believe it took him this long to say that he loves me. Isn't it a bit too late? I would forgive him, but I need to know why he did that.
"I don't know Zoya, I really don't remember anything from that night. She was kidnapped, and I followed the goons to save her. I saw her dress was torn and I hugged her and just then somebody hit me from the back. I think I went unconscious. When I slightly opened my eyes I saw you. You told me that we were married and then I drifted out of consciousness again. I don't know what happened after that" It feels good so have told her everything. I have no burden on me now except the grief that she may never want me back again. But I will do anything; I mean ANYTHING to win her love back.
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Could this be tanveer's plan, to get him unconscious and pretend that she was sleeping with him – just to break us apart? It could have been, a man can't perform unconscious anyways. And if he was going through a pleasurable experience he would know it. "I trust you Mr. Khan, I left not because I didn't trust you. I left because I needed to cool down a bit, to gain some strength. I already knew something like this would happen"
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"WHAT? You knew, then why didn't you stop me" why did she allow it to happen to this extent? What is she hiding? How did she know?
"I did Mr. Khan, I did… you never trusted me enough to listen" I wish you had, at least we would have been together by now.
"When?" I don't remember her mentioning this
"I told you about her a lot of times, you didn't listen. You always trusted her over me. She told me she would do this – I was at fault because I took it too lightly, I trusted you enough to not cross your limits. But looks like she took advantage of you and your unconscious state… and if I'm not wrong, you couldn't have performed if you were unconscious. She has framed you, except you still won't believe me" Ya Allah, I said it – to his face. Well I am done seeking his attention. We're at the worst stage of a relationship – it can't get worse anymore, hence I'm not afraid.
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What is she saying? Oh god. I've been so blind.
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I look at him, he seems broken. He just sat down for support. I want to go and comfort him but would it be the right thing to do? I don't think I should think about that now. I am comforting him but he seems to have lost his last bit of faith. Ya Allah, how can I leave him like that. He hasn't been unjust to me. Life has been unjust to him. I will stick by him till the end.
"Asad, I'm sorry. Somewhere deep down, I am to be blamed as well – for taking her lightly. But now that I know what has happened, I am by you. We will get through this together. I promise"
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Here she is consoling me, when I have wronged her. What is this girl made of? Thank you Allah for sending an Angel in disguise, and I'm sorry to have not recognized her earlier. I hug her. "Promise?"
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"mmm-hmmm promise"
