Everything is lost!
Can anyone be dead even though they are breathing? Am I normal if I say that's what I'm feeling right now? Would I still be sane if I say that I feel like a corpse, only alive? Will it be too exaggerated if I say that I feel like my heart has been ripped right out of chest and then trampled upon thousand times? Because that's what I felt when I saw my fiance in the arms of the woman I loathed with a passion. I didn't even realize that I was crying, I felt too numb to notice the tears cascading down my cheeks. I was too numb to even hear my own sobs which echoed in the old worn out factory.
Asad looked at me with dazed eyes, almost as if he didn't know what was happening here, or rather what had happened here. Tanveer as expected was smirking, after all her plan was successful. I had so much trust on him even though he never had an ounce of trust on me I had always trusted him more than I could trust anyone, more than I could trust myself. What did he do with my trust? He crushed it into a million pieces, mangled it beyond repair. I knew that tanveer's threat of sleeping with him was real but I always thought he would never betray me like this, I thought that seeing how his father betrayed his mother he would never do the same mistake but all my hopes and trust and beliefs were shattered when I saw him in bed with Tanveer. I know Asad is not completely at fault. I'm sure it was tanveer's devilish plans, Asad was just used by her, but no matter how much I try to rationalize that yes my man is nowhere to be blamed and it's that evil woman and her plans but when you see your man in bed with someone in front of you, it just finishes you off. It feels like your world is over, no pain can be worst then the pain of feeling cheated.
Why Allah miyan, why? What was my mistake? Why do I get punished every time? Why do I face rejection and hurt on every turn of my life? I have always tried to make everyone around me happy! Don't I deserve happiness in return? Don't I deserve to be happy for once? Just because I never complain and accept willingly everything that life throws at me doesn't mean I don't feel sad, doesn't mean I don't get hurt. I have never questioned you but today I will, today I will question you. I deserve answers, I deserve a justification to why me?
Tanveer looked at me and smirked, she has won and I have lost. Not only I have lost but my love has lost, my trust has lost. Not able to see the horrendous scene in front of me, I picked my lehenga and ran, away from the goddamn place, away from him, away from everyone. I walked aimlessly on the road, without any specific direction I just kept walking feeling dejected, desolate! All of a sudden it started raining. I looked up and let the rain drops wash down my face, wash away the tears that wouldn't stop flowing and if possible wash away the disgusting image that was etched in my brain, the image which kept coming back in front of me. How I wish I could reset my brain. The sky thundered and the rains became heavy. Looks like the clouds are also crying with me in solidarity. I never felt so lonely and lost in my entire life. How I wish I could go back in time and never let Asad out of my sight for even a second then maybe this wouldn't have happened. But nothing could be done now, everything is lost, everything is over!
~The End!
A/N - Sad I know but that's what I'm feeling right now! I wanted to write a one shot in which Asad and Zoya DO NOT unite, they separate from each other never to be together ever again but Ankie was vehemently against it and even threatened to kill me if I did that, she wanted a mangalpur but I'm not gonna write any mangalpur until gul gives us a mindblowing redemption track to make up for the buttload of crap she showered us with, to make up for the torture she made us go through when we saw that Tanveer all over Asad like ivy! Leave your comments while I go blow my nose and probably eat some more Ben&Jerry's!
PS - @sohu - yeh that finishes you off wala dialogue was yours! but i really liked it and i used it here! 😊
~ Sadie!
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