|AsYa SS| ~Whispers of the Wind~ (Now Complete!) - Page 5

"Zoya'don't go please! Don't leave me please'I need you." I whispered the last part, her face held a surprised expression and after that she disappeared completely. She had gone and was never coming back. Why had I acted like a hero? Had I not gone to Shadaab's house Zoya would still have been here!

I heavily sat down on my bed and let reality sink in; she was gone and wasn't coming back. Not now. Not ever.

I stood there grasping thin air with my hands and eyes still closed, I knew I was just pushing my luck but I had this stupid feeling that she would come back. Zoya would come back. I could feel my tears pricking at the back of my lids. Why? Had I acted so stupid and heroic? Had she asked for my help? NO! But here I was pretending to be superman.

But why was I feeling so low? I had just known her for a few hours and that was it! But why did it feel as if I had known her for an eternity? As if she had been part of my life since forever. Is this is what is love at first sight? Is this that feeling which makes you feel happy and giddy at the same time?

I looked at my armchair and closed my eyes hoping that she would pop in the room just like she did before. But when I opened my eyes there was no one standing in front of me. Just me and my empty house. I massaged my temples gently and switched on my laptop again and stared at the blank document in front of me. I don't from where the spirit came but once I set my fingers on the keyboard I just typed away.

Love. Some people think it's silly and a waste of time for some it is the meaning of their life. I was one of those who thought love didn't exist until I experienced it myself. I don't know if it was actually love or just plain attraction I felt towards this girl but whoever she was she now has my heart and I ain't getting it back.

It was one night when I saw her, she looked out of place and had this face which looked sick with worry. But it wasn't her face that held my attention, it was her doe like eyes that held my attention, they were filled with pain. One look at her and I knew I was a lost case. But she could never be mine because she was already in love with someone else and no matter how hard had I tried I wouldn't have won her heart.

Even though she loved someone else I just had to help her to make that pain go away was all I ever wanted. But had I known that even she would leave, I would've thought twice before doing that. But what is done is done now, it cannot be reversed.

I had heard people talking about when love happens it gives you the best damn feeling in the world. But right now I felt shattered, the one girl I had ever loved was gone and wasn't coming back ever.

Now that I think of it, I think love actually can happen at first sight, because it happened with me. Even though I might never see her beautiful face again, her memory would stay alive with me forever.

I saved the file and then mailed it to my editor and his reply came instantly, saying it was absolutely perfect and did not need any editing. I just sighed silently and switched off my laptop and looked at the clock it was 2 in the morning and I hadn't slept since the past 28 hours. I lay down on my bed and stared at the ceiling, I tossed and turned but could not sleep so I turned on the radio I was changing stations when one song caught my attention

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

I turned off the radio as soon as the song ended and closed my eyes and then I was engulfed into darkness. When I woke up it was 2 in the morning I looked at my clock with confusion and then looked at my phone I had around 53 missed calls and 45 text messages. I looked at the calender of my cell phone it was 12th may! I had slept for one full day! I hurriedly checked through my text messages some were from Ammi, some were from my secretary and some were from my boss.

I opened the text message of my boss's and it said that my story had been a huge hit and they now had fan letters pouring in asking for the whole story! So they had assigned me one full column for the Sunday edition. I took a bath and took my car keys and stopped at the nearest florist and bought a bouquet of delphinium and headed towards the cemetery where Zoya was buried.

I entered the cemetery but felt as if my legs were glued to the place I could not enter it. So I turned round and sat in my car at that particular moment my phone started ringing, I picked it up it was Ammi.

"Asad! Thank god you picked it up! I had almost booked my tickets for Delhi because you had not called and were not even replying to my text messages for one full day! Where were you? You had all of us so worried!" Ammi literally screamed in the phone.

"I was just tired Ammi, I had this deadline and I hadn't slept well so I just over-slept I guess. I'm sorry it won't happen again." I said.

"Asad, is there something wrong beta? I can sense it in your voice, you're sad. Has something happened to you?" Ammi asked me softly. I covered the speakers of my phone with hand and sighed loudly trying to fight back my tears.

"Ammi everything is alright it's just that I'm stressed nothing to worry about. And by the way a very happy Mother's Day. Did you get the flowers I'd sent?" I asked her faking happiness.

"Oh yes! I got those! They were beautiful Asad! Thanks! But I would've been more happy if you would have been here." Ammi spoke the last part softly. That immediately made me all the more sad.

"Ammi I don't get that many holidays you know that na, I'll try my best to come home next week, ok? Now I need to go I have some important work. Assalam Walikum." I said.

"Take care, Asad Walikum Assalam." She said and hung the phone. I kept my phone on the dashboard and got down from my car and entered the cemetery.

As if my feet knew where to go exactly after some time I saw myself standing before her grave. A dozen flowers and candles were placed on it showing how much she was loved by her near and dear ones. I crouched and gently placed the flowers near her headstone and softly spoke a prayer for her.

As I got up someone called me from behind, I turned round and could not believe my eyes it was Zoya and this time I could see her clearly like the first time I had laid my eyes on her.