Part 15
''Phir ek din Abbu ghar hi nai aaye... Ammi aur mai bohat ghabra gaye... Humne unhe dhoondne ki bohat koshish ki...par kuch haasil nahi hua..'' his voice depicting a range of emotions, terrified to disappointment.
Zoya couldn't understand why his abbu had left them like that, without informing that too when he loved them so much. Before she could think further, Asad's voice broke her chain of thoughts.
She could clearly feel disgust in his voice when he said, ''Phir ek hafte baad wo ghar aaye...sirf apna saamaan lene ke liye ! Aur hum se ye kehne ke liye ki unhone dusra nikaah kar liya...!!''
Zoya knew this was about to come ! She knew his father had ditched them, but she never knew hearing the same thing from him would cause so much pain to her.
Asad closed his eyes, not letting the tears come out; not letting them make him weak.
Zoya turned to look at him only to find the disgust wiped off from his face giving place to an unmatched pain.
He knew this confrontation was going to be difficult but he had to do it. He had to tell her why he was like that.
Not just scared but scarred too !
He heard her say, ''Aap logon ne jaanne ki koshish nahi ki...ke unhone aisa kyu kiya ?''
To which he had to reply, ''Paiso ke liye...''
Zoya couldn't believe that someone could stoop so low, to such an extent. How did his morals and ethics allow him to do so, she thought. Not knowing that some people could even sell their morals for a few coins thrown at them !
Asad continued, ''Ammi ne unhe rokne aur samjhaane ki bohat koshish ki...lekin sab koshishein naqaam rahi...!! Bohat mohabbat karti thi wo unse...lekin badle mein unhe kya mila..? Dhokha !?''
She could differentiate that it wasn't only anger in his voice, but pain disguised in the form of anger. Thats what he was always good at, she thought, until she heard his next set of words coming out right from somewhere deep within.
''Wo zakhm bohat gehra tha Zoya...'' he said looking towards her.
She immediately turned to look towards him. It felt like the whole world had stopped ! Nothing around them seemed to move except the pain in his eyes, that only kept growing every passing second.
He was so vulnerable at that moment with all his unhealed childhood wounds open infront of her. And the pain that was caused to him was heart wrenching. Nobody who looked at him right now would say that this was the business tycoon, Asad Ahmed Khan, they knew.
In that moment, she saw a baby Asad in him. The one who had just learnt to walk holding his abbu's hand and had been left mid way in the race of the world. She could see him fall, get bruised, hurt, cry and get back on his feet again, all alone ! Nobody deserved it, not atleast at the young age of life where he was.
She turned her face away from him to hide her tears and asked, ''Aur Najma..?''
''Najma bohat choti thi... Usse toh kisi cheez ka ilm bhi nahi tha...'' After a small pause, he said, ''Lekin ammi poori tarah se toot chuki thi... Unhe toh yakeen hi nahi ho raha tha ki abbu aisa kuch kar sakte they... Maine unhe har din rote hue...bikharte hue dekha hai... Aur mai kuch nahi kar paata tha...''
It came out like he was the most helpless person on earth.
Zoya slowly held his hand, slipping her fingers in his, not wanting to startle him but just show that she was there with him.
He understood her soft gesture and calmed himself taking in long breaths. The thought that she was there as his support, by his side, made it easier.
The night began to get darker and the air colder. Now it was time for him to confront his fears. After it felt like they had stood there for eternity, he opened his mouth to speak up.
''Uss din mera mohabbat se bharosa uth gaya... Mai jitna zindagi mein aage badhta gaya, utna hi iss ehsaas se door jaata gaya... Maine faisla kar liya tha..'' he said determined, ''Ki mai kabhi bhi kisi ke dil mein apne liye ye ehsaas paida hone nahi dunga...''
He completed his sentence giving Zoya all the answers to her questions.
She now understood what had turned him into this - the betrayal his ammi had faced. He didn't want some one else to face that because of him.
Her heart melted at his words and the decision he had taken in his disveled mindset.
He saw her expressions change, like she was now more closer to him, if she could get any more closer. Their souls and destinies were intertwined. How much ever they tried, they could never free themselves from each other. He had understood it by now.
He could see his own pain reflecting in her eyes. Her eyes were the mirror of his heart. They portrayed exactly what he felt inside. He was amazed to see to what extent she was tied to him and to his pain.
He had to tell her about Aayesha. He couldn't let her be in dark, after telling her so much about himself. This last bit had to be told out too.
He turned to face her and she instantly embraced him in a hug. She hid her face in his chest and placed her hand on his waist, the other hand still entangled with his.
She wanted to take in all the pain that he had suffered alone all these years. The pain of seeing his mother betrayed, the pain of being abandoned by his father, the pain of losing a beautiful childhood and instead taking the responsibility of his baby sister and mother.
He had been burdened by so many responsibilities at such a young age that he'd lost himself, the little him in the crowd of the world.
He had made sure to give them everything they deserved and craved for, in absence of their father; the one who was supposed to fulfill all their needs. He had worked hard day and night for it and proved to be the best son and brother in the world.
She held on to him like he was her world, he wasn't any less. Tears began to flow from her eyes, the tears that he hadn't let out for years were now flowing from her eyes. He held her close to himself, letting himself slip into the moment. How could he not ?
When she was crying over his loss !
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