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OS written by neethi (Chill_Out)She is hungry *sigh*so i am postingđ¤Ł
I went there today, despite having been told not to. I knew going there would just make me pain more, it would make me feel more helpless, it would make me curse that fateful night even more when I lost both my sons. But I couldn't help myself. I feel close to him there, I feel his presence around, I feel like he isn't sleeping out of compulsion, but out of choice with his head on my lap. He seems rested, he seems at peace, he finally seems to be away from all the agony life has been inflicting on him for centuries.
I've seen him suffer, I've seen him cry, I've seen him getting traumatised over the haunting memories of Maithili's death and betrayal by his brother. I've seen him agonising as he came across Maithili's doppelganger, life playing a cruel joke on him, blessing Pia with the same pretty face He gave Maithili and finally, I've seen him falling in love with that very face all over again. Or was it more than just the face? Suddenly, his cheeks were glowing, his eyes were shining and he was happy. Just as I had started believing that my son has finally found the happiness I've always wanted him to have, my belief that every person gets their share of joy which they deserve came crashing down. Sid came back with Maithili wrecking havoc in Abhay's life. Maithili? The one who my son loved? No, not her. The Maithili my Abhay had fallen in love with died, remember? That sweet, innocent, pure-hearted Princess is resting in peace. This Maithili I'm talking about is nothing more than a selfish vixen who doesn't even remember what it is like to love and be loved. She just knows how to break hearts and separate lovers like she broke Abhay's dead heart, like she cruelly separated him from Pia. One night was enough to change everything around us.
The Treaty broken, Abhay falling into deep slumber, Pia forgetting Abhay, Sid dying, so much happened at once and by the time everything sunk in, I realised that it was too late. Everything around me was at sixes and sevens and I could do nothing except stand and come to terms with the fact that my life will never be the same again. I feel empty, I feel incomplete at the realisation that I have one son dead and the other under slumber. Agreed, Sid was evil and Abhay was emotional but they were my sons after all! I had been able to save them once over a lifetime ago but this time, I couldn't. I failed miserably at changing the circumstances which could've been avoided had so much bitterness not crept in. One son I will never see again and the other, I don't know when I'll see again.
Today was different though. Today the air around Abhay seemed different, like it was singing, rejoicing the meeting of two lovers. She was here, I know she was but how? She doesn't remember Abhay anymore, yet she got pulled towards him. What could this mean? And for once, Abhay didn't seem peaceful in his slumber to me, he seemed restless. Did he feel Pia's presence as well? Did he realise she was here? Does he want to meet her but can't because of the spell? Will Pia's love be able to break this spell and free my son? Is that possible? I know Sid will never come back but I haven't given up hopes for Abhay. Chand says thinking from the heart is meant for humans and not vampires but I happen to be a Mother, I am suppose to think from my heart, even if it's dead. And as my little one sleeps, I await his return...
I went there today, despite having been told not to. I knew going there would just make me pain more, it would make me feel more helpless, it would make me curse that fateful night even more when I lost both my sons. But I couldn't help myself. I feel close to him there, I feel his presence around, I feel like he isn't sleeping out of compulsion, but out of choice with his head on my lap. He seems rested, he seems at peace, he finally seems to be away from all the agony life has been inflicting on him for centuries.
I've seen him suffer, I've seen him cry, I've seen him getting traumatised over the haunting memories of Maithili's death and betrayal by his brother. I've seen him agonising as he came across Maithili's doppelganger, life playing a cruel joke on him, blessing Pia with the same pretty face He gave Maithili and finally, I've seen him falling in love with that very face all over again. Or was it more than just the face? Suddenly, his cheeks were glowing, his eyes were shining and he was happy. Just as I had started believing that my son has finally found the happiness I've always wanted him to have, my belief that every person gets their share of joy which they deserve came crashing down. Sid came back with Maithili wrecking havoc in Abhay's life. Maithili? The one who my son loved? No, not her. The Maithili my Abhay had fallen in love with died, remember? That sweet, innocent, pure-hearted Princess is resting in peace. This Maithili I'm talking about is nothing more than a selfish vixen who doesn't even remember what it is like to love and be loved. She just knows how to break hearts and separate lovers like she broke Abhay's dead heart, like she cruelly separated him from Pia. One night was enough to change everything around us.
The Treaty broken, Abhay falling into deep slumber, Pia forgetting Abhay, Sid dying, so much happened at once and by the time everything sunk in, I realised that it was too late. Everything around me was at sixes and sevens and I could do nothing except stand and come to terms with the fact that my life will never be the same again. I feel empty, I feel incomplete at the realisation that I have one son dead and the other under slumber. Agreed, Sid was evil and Abhay was emotional but they were my sons after all! I had been able to save them once over a lifetime ago but this time, I couldn't. I failed miserably at changing the circumstances which could've been avoided had so much bitterness not crept in. One son I will never see again and the other, I don't know when I'll see again.
Today was different though. Today the air around Abhay seemed different, like it was singing, rejoicing the meeting of two lovers. She was here, I know she was but how? She doesn't remember Abhay anymore, yet she got pulled towards him. What could this mean? And for once, Abhay didn't seem peaceful in his slumber to me, he seemed restless. Did he feel Pia's presence as well? Did he realise she was here? Does he want to meet her but can't because of the spell? Will Pia's love be able to break this spell and free my son? Is that possible? I know Sid will never come back but I haven't given up hopes for Abhay. Chand says thinking from the heart is meant for humans and not vampires but I happen to be a Mother, I am suppose to think from my heart, even if it's dead. And as my little one sleeps, I await his return...
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