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My first try on what I have been longing for long - Abhay's thoughts. It is not as good as experts here but still, I had to try it. It is from the long drive, I just tried to imagine what was going on in Abhay's mind. A pathetic try but makes me happy.
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The green monster is raving my thoughts. I know that I shan't be jealous but I feel the anger when anybody comes near her, especially that Kabir. He has escaped death from my hands many times while testing my patience. Why he has to be with Pia? Even I am surprised at depth of jealousy I felt when they danced together. Pia, certainly, was bringing out all my human emotions which I have forgotten in last 200 years.
So, she thinks that we shan't be hiding our love anymore. But how can we show it to the world with Sid out there. She doesn't understand the threat he is to her and ironically, I can't make her understand. She is too transparent and naive. He will immediately find out that she knows and will come in open to attack her. I have already threatened her existence and my clan by being so close to her. But right now my priority is to save her from Sid and nothing else mattered. Telling the whole world about our love is not the best thing, for now. It will also be helpful later, if world doesn't know; for her, especially, when I leave her. She will be able to lead a normal life with some other nice boy like... Kabir? urgh... The monster raved again.
I realised that I was pressing the accelerator too hard in anger, only when she mentioned it. The green monster didn't let me sit quiet. "And you spent the whole day dancing with Kabir and now you have to go for private lessons too?" The words automatically came out without me realising it. And, as always, she caught them. Next moment, I was hearing a nice lecture on why and how she had to do it. hmmm... , so it was Misha's plan. Misha always acted bratty but somehow, I can't be angry with her either. Oh, Pia is complaining about having less time together. I agree. She is right, we should spend these together moments nicely as these will be the only treasured memories when I leave. Will she remember me? May be she will, initially, and then later she will forget me. Human memories were not as sharp as Vampire's memory. So, she will forget me - I could feel the pain in my dead heart at this thought.
Suddenly on realising what she said, I looked at her shocked. She couldn't see the shock on my face as I have practiced it over years - not to show emotions. Did she just called me cute? Cute? That's what I looked like to her ?- And not a monster? She finds a monster, cute? Her brain always worked backwards. She is always attracted to the dangers or her destiny pushes her towards dangers. But I realised that I was enjoying the thought that she found me cute. How can I leave this love? But I have to as I can't give her normal life. I could give away anything to lead a normal life with her right now. I knew it wasn't possible so, I will have to leave, someday when she is safe. For now, I was treasuring every moment of closeness with her.
I just smiled internally when Pia came close to me and her smell became stronger. My skin burnt where her warm hand touched my face. And then she smiled. She looked so beautiful when she smiled, not in a traditional way but in her own way. My anger on Kabir blurred with the closeness we had.
She said those words for the second time. Last time I had to make her believe that she was having a dream but today she said and they meant eternity to me. I hope I don't hurt her when I leave her. I know I will but it will be less hurt than how much she will get if she stays with me.
I have stopped looking at sky for hope. She was my hope of light and I can't bring her to my darkness. I have to keep her safe, away from the dark forces and my dark world.
And then my thought trail was broken by the sound of a familiar approaching car. I sensed him. It was Sid...
P.S. I had to bring Sid here. He is our hope of light for Abhiya. Sorry, to end such a serious thing in a joke but I can't bear seriousness for long.
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