I have been often mentioning in my musings that I hate Arushi and have been increasingly feeling uneasy about it. Hatred is not exactly an emotion I savour ( I still hate AH) and have done a bit of introspection. What I have realised that there is something about A that stirs evokes revulsion and moral outrage in me. However now as I delve deeper into her persona, I can feel pity for her. I think A represents the ugly consequence of repression. What thwarted desires can do to a person.
I think A was born an oddity in the Saxena household. She was the wild one, the maverick. Loud mouth, abrasive, brash..a cat among the pigeons.Social order meant that she had to conform and she did, unwillingly ofcourse.
Somewhere the ardour with which K courted P, stirred something deep in her. It aroused her need to love and be loved with such passion. But yet again all this was meant for the good girl, P, the girl who followed all the rules.A's reaction to K is a good enough proof of her motivations.
Aman M was meant to be her ticket to freedom. But here again, she was thwarted by the good one,P again. This marr of A is an act of sheer vendetta. An act of rebellion, it's like I dare to break all rules, stop me if you can. A desperate act to grab attention.
It is the hollow ethics, the sham of morality, the burden of always having to act good that give rise to pple like Arushi. Society hates a person like A but it is the soc which created her at the first place. She is the Frankenstein the likes of Saxena create.
Random thoughts of mine. Think about it!
Edited by Mili97 - 14 years ago