Glancing around the room he felt darkness surrounding it how well it described the Current State of his Mind. He felt the Darkness surrounding him suffocating as if trying to engulf him into it. He has trying his best to fight it but it was a Lost Battle because his inner turmoil has larger compared to this darkness. How will he fight the darkness when his own Mind n Soul were fighting a Battle amongst themselves. He hated her for making him this weak. How hard he tried not to get affected by her presence but he was always at losing end.(sighed)
As if his heart had a mind of it own when it comes to her. How much it pained him to behave coldly towards her. To show he isn't affected by her words to even a slightest when it was completely opposite her slightest action would affect him. He knew she was here to help them, to help him make his Dream of The Dance Academy come true but the past incidents wouldn't help him from believing on her. Leaving no stone unturned to hurt or insult her by his words but he never got the expected response from her. Wasn't it their old way to keep fighting with each other on the senseless reason. Back then he knew he never argued with his whole spirit. It was just to get out a response. From her. He Initiated the fights just to be around her. To be in her thought process in any way like she was in his although with changes...đ His day seemed incomplete back then if he didnt see her. It felt so necessary to be with her although irrking her with his presence but it felt like taking in O2 to him. (Effect of taking science as ur fieldâşď¸đł)
He couldn't help but stop his heart wander back to the days when they were "just good friends" or 'aache dost' or more than that as she confessed. He was sure shot to get a reaction out of her maybe it be verbal or just a Glare even wen she was upset. SOMETHING WAS DIFFERENT. He might say out loud that he hate her , or even shout infront of the whole world that he doesnt need her but deep down somewhere in a corner of his Heart he knew it was a Lie. A BIG FAT LIE...
Pushing her away from him wasn't that easy atleast when his insides scream to hold her close to him and just melt in her arms. Hw difficult it was for him to concentrate on anything else when she was around. Even today he couldnt stop himself from admiring her while she was effortlessly flowing to the music like a SWAN... She did look like one in that her white outfit she indeed was a Swan when she danced A very GRACEFUL SWAN to be precise. How hard he tried not to lose his control over his thoughts, not to lose his focus from dance to the Swan Dancing infront of him but he failed miserably resulting her to fall while performing the lift. He knew staying in the Rehearsal Hall means caring for her which he didnt want to show to others. So leaving was the best option he could think of.
Snapping at her, behaving rudely or cold towards her were only his weapons to stop him from falling for her. How badly a part of him still carved for her. How miserably he wanted to attend the workshops only to see her dance but his EGO didn't allow him that. Her dance was the one thing which mesmerized him after her cute louts but he knew if he attended the workshops then not even her Universe Ji will be able to stop him falling for her all over again which he didn't wanted a bit... He just avoided talking to her or even listening to her because he would just lose his control and that wasn't a good thing considering the past they shared. That pre-valentine's night still gave him Nightmares. How he wished that it wouldn't have happened.đ
Now he cant help but think Something was Different, obviously Neither He was the Same Rey nor She is the Same Kriya which they were back then. He had to admit she had turned more Gorgeous than before , those short brown curls clipped with cute clips back then were now grown a bit longer which urged him to ran his hands through them. Her dressing had taken a Big turn. Gone were those cute frocks and tops instead she Look Sexy and Hot in her current wardrobe. He only knows how he had stopped his damn mind from not to just pin her to the wall of Fire Exit and put some sense in her regarding her dressing sense. How hard it was to bit back the urge to beat the help of the guys gawking at her or complimenting her. He only wished he could do that. But he didn't had the right atleast thats what he thought. Those eyes of hers back then filled with innocence which he could read at ease like he had done PHD on them. She was like a Open Book for him back then but now those were filled with Longing, with Loneliness, with Sadness as if they wanted to pour out there hearts content out to him.
He knew Something wasn't right. There was more to it than it seemed. Something was Changed. And now he was damn Determined to know what was The Change all about...(sighed)
-THE END-
P.S. this was just a look to Rey's innerturmoil from my p.o.v Sorry for the Grammatical mistakes. It is utter crap But thnks if u read it...
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Edited by princessSonia - 12 years ago
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Well done sonia.this is pretty good stuff I love the the way you've penned the whole thing and the way the emotions come out.I'm a science student too isIye connect bhi zyaada kara
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