Youn jo badhe hain inn keh qadam inhain rasta tu hi dikha" Raba....
Rasta ,the way to bring these two hurting souls together is the "key" mannat ki chabbi" ...Khushi who is his mannat ki chabbi can't be away from him as this is HIS no matter what and divinity has to bring a way of light among em before dawn again prevails.[Shyam and his plan to marry her quickly]
Arnav's Mannat ki chabbi after pearls is the second most important elements of IPK---Khushi is again getting ready to face Arnavji as his heart's key is here in Khushi's palm which accidently or divinely came to surface through Buaji's bitter batter about her marriage preparation .The key of the door which Arnav closed on her apparently is right here with her since from the beginning since Dargah where he said to her "throw it" but she treasured it always god knows why .The key of privacy of all the events which remain in between them as always just like this key in her bag hidden from the sunlight...Khushi echoes the Dargha's scenes but still adamant
"hume isse koi matlab nahin... hum nahin jaayenge," [means nothing to me, I won't go] despite Nanij's sweet request.hmmm...but the second moment emotionally surrendered by Naniji's love"hum nain aap se kuch ziyada maang liya kya"[Did I ask you too much]...
PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS: The Same way she'd gone to his home to resign after throwing her anger on him found this key in her bag after coming back (episode 34) and held on to it to have this abrupt feeling "hum Khush kyuon nahin hain"[Why am I not happy?] because of yearning of his proximity unconsciously and same for him on the other side
Three ladies are trying to bring her back RM.[3 # of victory as well as masculine #]. Naniji said "hamesha hamra maan rakha hai... bohat hi achhi ladki hai.," [she always gives me respect, Khushi is a very good girl . Naniji speaking to her and requesting her to come to RM, if not for her job, then for her Naniji [Hamari Khatir]
Other side, his angst has no rest as he just found out that today is her last day, bitter batter by eyes evidently as always adumbrate to the fact that he hadn't thought of that.At the top it seems just like her he did not sleep either... There is aggression first time at mamiji's nasty exhortation of a plan to send off Khushi[patti saree] and above all Di's reproachful but praising words for her, "Khushiji has done so much for this family and it was impossible without her to see Chote's wedding which would be a dream ,A DREAM...
and here comes his dreamy mask, his brewing anger ,layers on his face with clenching jaws and narrowed eyes . He paced out immediately may be because he wants to see her too just like her though he keeps saying he doesn't.
In his room,on recliner with deep austere working on laptop. but with intangible feelings of her just her thoughts in a disarray order, visuals saying one thing and dialogues other "Don't think a rich guy was keeping your payal closed to his heart... but other side he is putting the payal around her ankle tenderly and humbly , enjoying every moment of it contradicting with doesn't make a difference to me, you don't matter... yet he's getting tranquilized in her proximity closer to kiss her rosy quivering lips and that's all he wants.He wants her just like she wants him...
he's telling these things to keep her away from him, her insinuated voice turns on the trigger in him... "koi matlab nahin..." [doesn't mean a thing"]. Naniji's voice adds on, how about this pendant for khushi bitiya, Today is KHUSHI's LAST day.
Shutting his eyes with sharp pain as its unbearable...and making it more oppressive when La comes in to discuss Khusji's gift in La's style...
He stormed out by slamming the poor laptop and comes down on those steps to tell everyone to stop with the execution of their plans over Khushi ...
Arnav aggressively and assertively,"Di," kya zaroorat thi ussko yahan bulane ki," .. rising rage with prevailing tiredness in the voice .. "usska kaam yahan khatam ho chuka hai na.. woh iss ghar se jaa chuki hai... aur hamari zindagi se bhi... toh phir kyun bulaeya use?"
Translation:'Why did you call her? Her work is done, she's left this house and our lives, then what was the need to call her again?]
Anjali gets astonished at his sandy anger in his words and attitude suddenly just like "[Kia Kia hai tumhare Dimag mein jo tumhain pareshan kar raha hai"What is in your brain which is bothering you].Episode 34.The more she tries to calm him down the more lava erupts and spreads in the tone of money
Arnav with his witty but raw thought," She'll come and ask for money for this extra day. He is losing it again. Anjali along with others is just blanched
PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS: Just like janmashtami (episode 68), "har cheese paison se nahin kharidi ja sakti...har cheese par tum..."[everything can't be bought by money ...yes everything but you]
Today, the feelings have crossed the bridge of attraction to all the way down to the road of indulgence with only one intention...to hold her for eternity but his desperate fight last night with the intention of throwing her away for eternity by crushing the red rose along with his burning yet soothing desires making him act and go on incessantly ..
Arnav,"Haan, Di, "Kya zaroorat hai us larki keh liye itna drama karne ki...main bhi yahi keh raha hoon, kyunke main bhi pareshan ho chuka hoon... Khushi yeh, Khushi woh... bas kijiye."
Translation:yes, Di,What's up with this all drama for that girl I am saying the same thing... I am tired listening khsuhi this, khsuhi that... stop it, please.
With that, he turns, and the gust of wind with flickering feelings... make him stop, his eyes avowed her presence with change, he knows she is here....
head slightly turned as he struggled again, then giving up, slowly turned and looked at her... seeing her standing there with teary eyes but neither could stop this yearning and flowing emotions any longer .There is a little but detonating chat in between them without any barrier..without any fear of surroundings...
Khushi with unbearable pain ,ready to leave but stopped by the lady who sees herself in her eyes "thairiye, khushi bitiya," [wait, khushi bitiya,] you have come here on my invitation... you don't have to go because someone else has problem..
He gulps down all the pain and have a glimpse of peace for a nano second seeing her with a fade smile with La but
then turns by putting his anger mask on to march back to his Eternal Heaven ... but as he climbs up the steps, he stops ,and gives back his signature turn look . to her and she responds back with hurt and complaint..
PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS: Just like that day [episode 69] he'd had to look back at her from these stairs when she was in pain and tears because of police insult but that day La was the cause and he was protector and today she is attacked by her own protector.
Khushi accepted the gifts by keeping her chin up with Mamiji's insults and Arnav's words..but not ASR.
Symolisms and connections:Shrimad Bhagwat provides that light which enables Jeeva (human being) to experience the wonderful freedom of liberation. One feels, "Yes, I am free!" Shrimad Bhagwat expresses this philosophy through the narration of the life stories of 24 incarnations of Lord Vishnu. Amongst these, the tenth volume of the Shrimad Bhagwat narrates in infinite detail, the story of Lord Krishna.
Anjali is giving it to Khushi unintentionally but willingly who is going to bring an inevitable change in Arnav by freeing him from all the past and present pains...
Unconscious guilt is playing game within him with extorting pains as he was atrocious with her and doesn't know how to make up so in this suffering terribly he barges out at poor Om Parakash by breaking glass..."just shut up... maine juice nahin, coffee mangi thi." [just shut up, I asked for coffee not juice...] Why not juice because it reminds you of her as juice in your shoes or her drinking of same juice to have same punishment just like now you want same infliction of pains as hers ...
PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS:On janmashttami..Jai [light] Prakash for starting lightening of God in him and today is OM [God] to bring him near to him taking his blessings by releasing him from his pains...as Arnav will be closed to accept his POWERS after bandagement but Khushi receives blessings and he still needs some more lessons to learn..all the way down when he will call himself failure and Khushi will strengthen his beliefs with "Bhagya"..Fate..and that day he will be free himself...
REMEMBERING MOMENTO: Tu hi Bata mingles when their relation is about to turn into new phase and Krishna mingles [Shrimad Bhagwat which Anjali gives to Khushi and then Om] when his character is about to turn into new phase as here besides his anger and crave for his control he is going to let her come close in coming epis ,in Mandir for bandage, in his home when she comes back "Tum aao par mujh se baat mat karo...etc EITHER way its a CHANGE'..
ASR screaming at poor OP who tries to place the broken pieces of glass on the table by clearing up near the pool... "get out, I said just leave it, Dammit."
A guy who did not get mad by spilling coffee on him ,today was ready to murder OP for juice...
Naniji and all wonders why he is so angry all the time these days. They obviously haven't figured out any thing. Priest comes by getting La's horoscope made for Shadi in a traditional way , khushi is being asked to join but she holds back . How can she see and bear all this happening in front of her eyes apparently ...Love hurts'.
But she had said she wasn't coming here. but she is here. She said , doesn't mean a thing by looking at the key apparently las night, but it does and for some reason it binds her to him. The key stayed with her but today after what he said, she wants to cut this "tar" this bond or maybe her conscious SAYS this is the only tar in between just like him...her memories,...
She sees him in his garden from the living room, and he sees her, but they both turn away but then she changes her to go to him but why ?
He feels the gust her essence closer to him, he knows she is close to his heart'.but with anger and mixed emotions...
Arnav,"chali jaao yahan se.. na tumse baat karni hai... na tumhari shakal dekhni hai..."
Translation:go away from here... I don't want to talk to you or see your face. '
Arnav,"just say bye to everyone and leave."
He turns away as facing her is the most difficult deal of the world for him right now
Khushi in abhorrence,"humain bhi aap se baat karne ka koi mun nahin hai...[ I don't want to talk to you. either].. khushi valiantly in her counter attacking mode... "hum sirf yahan aaye thai taakeh-"[ i'd only come so that]
Such idiots, fight like kids over a toy yeah that's the other part the toy is the heart with one heartbeat...without which they both can't survive...
He interrupts and roars, "maine kaha na mujhe tumse koi baat nahin karni hai, Khsuhi kumari gupta... eik baar kahi hui baat tumhain samajh nahin aati?" [ I told you, I donn't want to talk to you... why don't you understand first time.]
Khushi gulps down the pain over his coldness,"par aap..."[ but you]
He turns swiftly and tramps over her by gripping her shoulders tightly and daggering her straight into her eyes,. out of control,"I said... leave, dammit."
A silent yet painful moment and despite the pain he gives her but with lurking painful look of love in her eyes ...He leaves her with a jerk as her pain is lurking in his eyes now which refuse to open..turns around to grasp and compose himself with closed eyes...barges one more time
."tum abhi yahin ho..." [you're still here,] half hoping perhaps... "I said..."she's gone.
Pause here:There mehsoos"feel" ,permination is reaching to next level with strong vibes as he can feel her distressed heart while being far away as during Khushi's engagement he is totally devastated back and forth in his room while she was in the wilderment of raging emotions of pain remembering all the encounters.
She wraps her dupatta on her palm for leaving for good when calls upon by house ladies.She bids goodbye with teary eyes but with her steps out someone's steps follow her as she walks out with despair and loss .
The same way in Epi 34 but not with this depth...but today she doesn't need that key as key of his heart is connected to her heart and hers to his no matter how much distance they hold for each other...
Chakravarti Samrat Prithviraj Chauhan
Mangal Lakshmi
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