IPKKND-ARHI-FF - Gypsy- Chapter 42 - Page 64

I just got up with the last few chapters finally and so much has happened. However, I do feel really bad for Khushi. Even though she is getting trained, she is basically becoming a different person, someone molded into becoming the perfect royal princess. And there's still the equation with Arnav. Yes, she plans to accept him, but she is petrified of him, so how is this is going to work? Thanks for the PM's; I will try to read/comment more regularly now.

So what's prithivi's thoughts on? Why the sense of deep loss when he kept her away?
And I loved the engagement scene. First indication of how much damage he has done. With the face-to-face he knows about her fears.

Chapter 34

The sagai ceremony long over as was dinner with his family, Arnav was free to closet himself in his study. He had changed from his traditional attire straight after coming home. Now dressed in casual trousers, shirt and a light sweater, the sleeves rolled up his arms, he tried to concentrate on the documents in front of him.

He was on the verge of finalizing a new hotel project. Normally nothing gave him more pleasure than working on a deal, negotiating terms, going over the paperwork himself and nothing gave as much satisfaction as did the final closing off of the deal, not even spending an evening in bed with a beautiful woman although the latter came close; very close.

However, on this cool evening, an evening when he needed the distraction of work or sexual pleasure desperately, it did not seem to be working. Work failed to distract him tonight and he knew it was useless to seek out a woman since his body seemed to have turned faithful to his fiance. Since the day he had come across Khushi, he had not touched another woman and frankly, he did not even want to. He was coiled tighter than a spring, his nerves stretched to near breaking point. An hour of trying to concentrate on the fine print and Arnav gave up, flinging the pen and jumping up to pace the study floor.

Today even the soothing and entirely masculine dcor of his study failed to work its magic. He had chosen the cool brown and cream colors and masculine furnishings himself, marking it entirely his domain but today he felt the walls were caging him. Restlessly he walked towards the door, flinging it open to breathe the night air.

But even nature seemed to fail him tonight. The night air, redolent with the heavy perfume of the flowers from the gardens washed over and around him, surrounding him and increasing the clamor in his blood. He clenched his hands against the doorjamb and breathed in deeply. The night brought back certain memories and powerless to stop, he closed his eyes.

The clearing!!! The memories crowded in fast of that long ago night; Khushi in her red and white outfit, her shy but passionate response to his kisses and caresses, the smooth silkiness of her limbs in contact with the masculine roughness of his, her adorable resistance when she realized things were spiraling out of control, the view of her smooth slender back as she pulled on her clothes; the list was endless. But memories could be kind and at the same time cruel as well! The beautiful memories were crowded over by the cruel ones; his promise that they would be together soon, his arrogant assumptions, her coming to his house, his study, his turning her away, her dignified refusal and then his black anger. The memories flashed like slides across his brain and finally culminated in the most recent one; her beautiful hazel eyes with that terror-stricken expression in the mandir today!!!!!!

With a curse, he flung himself away from the door to pace across the study. Damn, he thought, it was her eyes; the cause of his restlessness. He had not had a moment's peace ever since he had looked in them earlier today. He could not understand that look. Not at all. Hell he had been prepared for anger, hatred, loathing, anything but not that terror. He could not explain it to himself. Even in the very beginning, when they used to meet, she had not been terrified of him. Scared of him, yes, but not in a bad way and not of him but rather of who he was. But this was something he was not able to make sense of. And the worst part of it was that he could not ask her to explain or share any confidences with him. If she was terrified because of what happened to her then she should have been terrified of all other men and women since he recalled that it had been mostly women who had punished her. A dark thought occurred to him! God, could there be some other reason for her feelings? Had someone, some man or men tried to ... did someone violate her or perhaps try to?

Arnav's breath stuck in his chest. No that could not be. Maan Singh would have mentioned it surely. But what if those gypsy boys didn't tell Maan Singh either? Arnav stopped his pacing, running a hand through his hair in frustration. He forced himself to think calmly. If that was the case, then she should be scared of all men but that was not the case. He had noticed her in the mandir earlier; she was normal with other people. Shashi, Thakur Alok, she had greeted him politely enough and Prithvi as well. His jija had even touched her head but she had responded with a slight smile to him. So it appeared to be him only that she was terrified of. But why?

Did she blame him for what happened? But of course she blamed him; it was his fault after all. Completely his fault. But to be terrified of him in such a way! God, what a mess; what a bl***y royal mess!!!

Turning around, he strode to the small bar concealed against the panels of one wall and pouring himself a liberal amount of whisky in a glass, tipped it all down his throat. The drink burned a path down his throat straight to his stomach. Grimacing at the burning, he took a deep breath. He needed some answers and he needed them now. Unfortunately, the girl with all the answers was away in another house. He would have to wait for two weeks when she would be his wife. He didn't have any other option. It was just too bad that he was lousy at waiting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A short distance away in Shashi Gupta's house, the occupant of a pretty room lay curled up in her bed in darkness. Tears flowed unchecked down her cheeks and she did not attempt to stop them.

Her panic at the mandir ate in her soul. She should not have lost her nerve in that way. When would she learn that to show her weakness to anyone, especially to her fiance was not good for her? And he had seen her terror; her weakness. He was too smart not to! Devi Maiya alone knew how he would act on it. The fingers of her hand bearing his ring curled in a small fist, the band a smooth sensation while the fiery ruby winked in the small sliver of moonlight washing in her room.

At times like this, she missed her Maayi and Shemaroo desperately. It had been so long since she had seen them. Shemaroo must be fully grown by now and Maayi; what about her? She was so sickly nowadays. How was she managing? Did she miss her adopted daughter or no? She lay in bed, weeping silently until the early hours of the morning when she finally fell in an uneasy sleep only to wake up a few hours later, heavy eyed and with the knowledge that it was only a mere six days later that she would leave for the mandir and just eleven days until she married him...

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Wonderful update!😊...waiting for them to get married..👏

Wonderful update.
Arnav is going through the turbulence of emotions and he is confused as he did't get the response he expected from Khushi and now he has many questions, I am surprised that he did't have them before, he was expecting her anger and hatred but not terror and now he wants to know now why? but he has to wait and even when he get the chance will Khushi answer him or just keep quiet as after the incident she goes in her shell and not talk a lot, if that happens then how will he get the answers?

Poor Khushi is terrified of Arnav and the proximity she has to share with him very soon..I don't blame her as any girl would be, she will have call upon all the training given to her to cope with Maharaja.
She doest know what to expect from her and that fear of unknown is scaring her out of her wits.
Well it's not long now for them to be physically together and then are we to see the fireworks of it will be silent treatment she is going to give, only time will tell.

Please continue soon.
Thanks for the PM.

fabulous update
when will Arnav understand khushi's fear?

Nice update . Great to read about Arnav's pain - he deserves it & much more . It still seems that he doesnt realise the full extent of Khushi's injuries & pain.

Y do lyf has 2 be so complicated...letz c wht happnz nxt hopfuly arnav talks n clears up thing with khushi...itz wh both need...nxt chp sooon!!!!