~*ArHi FF: Jee Le Zara *~ Ch:4 Pg 33/NOTE:36 - Page 21

Chapter#4

Khushi's POV

Years, it's been years since I felt my heartbeat fast. Years since I felt smile play on my lips. I did smile but it refused to reach my eyes. I did smile but for sake of it. But today, I don't recognize myself... Who are you? I asked myself, looking at the reflection on the mirror with a smile playing on my lips. What was the reason?... Who is the reason? I asked myself. Chocolate... Those eyes, what was it about these eyes that for the first time in years forced me to slightly feel home. Who was he? I wondered.

That touch... years since I felt a strangers touch. Years since a touch made me feel safe. Years, since I felt like to stay there... in his solace forever Stop it khushi... just Stop! This is just not right. This is not supposed to happen. These feelings just betray. They never here to stay... Heartbeat? What beats when there is no heart? What beats when there is nothing there... when years back that organ was ripped off and killed. Just how all these years I didn't let anything effect me, just how I closed every feeling, I won't let this new feeling kill me even more.

I deserve nothing. This feeling just misguides and I won't let it play with a broken soul again. I won't let it have hope to be shattered again.

I'm just going to live with no feeling. Live how I have been since last 5 years.

End of Khushi's POV

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Arnav's POV:

Fathers love, feeling that every child wish for.

They say boy is a best friend for any boy. But I don't remember this love, after losing my father in a young age. At age where a child needs his father the most, I lived and grew up without it ... well that's what I thought, until Aditya came in my life after I moved to delhi with Nani. Mother holds you close, away from evil where a father they say teaches you to fight the evil. I never had that. Time thought me that.

I never knew I would know what a fatherly love is until shashi uncle happened to me. He never made me feel like I'm any different from Aditya for him. I was 8 when I lost my father, it did take me time to come out of the pain but Shashi uncle in no time took the place of a father in my life. Stood by me when I needed a father the most. Over took my fear of darkness. Encouraged me to never give up. He holds special place for me. Then, now and will always.

What happened 5 years back was never his fault. Why would it be? If I suffered, he has a father suffered more thn i or anyone did. Yes I may have not spoke to him in last 5 years but my love and respect for this man never decreased a bit. If god is there and he asks me who I respect it would always be Shashi Gupta. He means a lot to me and I would do anything for him, even if it means my life.

And now standing here, outside this hospital has actually bought my old fear. Fear of losing.

I don't have the strength to lose another pillar of my life...

I took a deep breath and decided to take a step forward. Whatever it will be, I feel will change my life but deep inside I know im ready for what ever life stored for me.

End of Arnav's POV

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Hospitals never are good news. Well most of the time they aren't. Just like many Arnav wasn't feeling any good, his fear of losing just another important pillar of his life was just not letting go. He took a deep breath and went ahead with Aditya. He stood there, beside Aditya waiting for him to be done with the Doctor as this wait to know what's happening and Where the person, who is the reason why he came to india. What is wrong? Something was definitely not right. Something is going to happen and this feel is definitely not positive. Enough... no more patience and he have to know "Adi... I'm done waiting patiently here... I'm ... I need to know! Where is he Aditya WHAT THE HELL HAS HAPPENED" he felt his voice choking "I Lost my Parents once Adi im not strong enough for losing one more... tell me" he paused and waited for answer. Aditya, weakness was the last thing to describe this man standing ... well who collapsed "I'm tired Arnav ... theres no more strength left in me Arnav ..." Arnav Knelt down next to him and Aditya Hugged him tight " I need you Arnav! I need my best friend Arnav... im tired fighting alone... tired of hoping things will be fine but... nothing ... is helping Arnav." They broke the hug and Arnav helped him up n both sat on the bench outside Shashi's room.

"Aditya What happened to Uncle? Please tell me" "I don't know How it happened exactly Arnav all I know since last few months, his health has been getting worst and he started getting weaker. I could clearly say there was something troubling him... something I tried finding it out. It was definitely not business because knowing baba he would never stress over work and as far I know, Business has been going good. I had my doubts that it maybe related khushi..." Khushi... this one person has become very important to uncle... What is the reason? "I somehow assumed Khushi may be related because his concern for her and increase of her security and checking on her every hour increased, which just increased my doubt. I kept asking him but he refused until a week back I get a call from Kaka informing me Baba collapsed after a phonecall. Doctor said he got a heart attack, he did wake up the next day even after doctor asked me not ask him anything serious but Arnav I HAVE TO KNOW! I can't see MY ONLY Family Going! One Khushi who is not Ready to move on and Share her pain and now I have my father here Arnav. Am I that bad? Am I not worth to fight for thm?" Cried Aditya, slightly increasing his voice until Arnav increased the pressure on his shoulder.

"I asked him Arnav and for the first time my father Requested me to make sure you come back to india. Arnav I don't know why im putting you in all this But I need you! I need you to get me back my only family Arnav. If he asked for you! Im sure there is something ... something he trust you with please Arnav" He broke down hugging Arnav tight. Arnav didn't know but he was feeling suffocation... he just wanted to escape from here. In last 5 years, he not once regretted his decision of staying away from India and everyone but today he felt like cursing himself for not being here when His FAMILY was suffering without him.

"sir... Mr Gupta is Awake but only one could meet him" said a nurse interrupting them. "I'll go Aditya You till thn Please grab a cup of Coffee" Said Arnav and stood leaving Aditya there.

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Arnav's POV

Losing my father in a young age, I didn't even realize what happened and that I lost him forever. But stepping inside the room, seeing the man who I may not have called Baba but he was no less thn one. The person who was always there when I needed a father, when needed encouragement to do something in life and have a name, he was the first one to tell me proudly Arnav you could do it. Same man now is laying lifeless right infront of me here. "Uncle..." I said making him look towards me "Arnav..." he said with a tear drop, I ran towards him, knelt infront of him grabbing his Hand and cried... cried begging him to not leave. "Please baba" Baba... I didn't know I would call anyone that after years, I could say Baba was surprised and happy because he always wanted me to call him that, wish I did... wish it was not now...wish "Please share your fear! Please tell me Whats troubling you Please! You told me once that you not just a father figure but a father to me! If you are ! thn Please Tell me! Please if I couldn't save thm years back, don't take the right from me now...Please" I choked my last words until he for the first time asked me something " Arnav... Im your father right? You actually want to help me?" he asked with a low tone, trying hard to finish his sentence, I just pressed his palm harder promising him anything he wants.

"Marry her...Arnav...Please...Marry her" Marry who? Khushi?

Precap: will Arnav agree? If yes how will he convince his family? If they agree... Khushi? Will she Agree ?