Arhi FF Me and My ASR Td 4 Epilogue -129 23/9 - Page 22

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PART 18A

Avinash and Anjum stared at their chote who was returning back from his yoga on the way helping one of the Naniji who was finding it difficult to get into her room. She blessed him and felt sad for Manasi's demise for which he smiled through his pain accepting her blessings. There was a slight demarcation of reaction in his face from earlier times. He would never smile when showing his pain before, it would always be his anger which stands in his forefront blocking his emotions. Now there appears a strong force which pulls down his anger,forcing him to shed off completely and turn it into a peaceful smile. The last reaction he would do was retreating from the discussion if it had diluted his emotions but now he patiently waits for it to end. True that mother's love had taught him a lot in his life in this small tenure of two weeks. May be those hidden good qualities in him had the strength to come out only when the rock was melted by his mother's magical touch. Strange it was before when he had listened to only Khushi but their final words of arguments did turn them poles apart. Avinash gulped down his fears of what would be the next step in Chote's life.. Neither he could make Arnav carry his guilt through out his life nor he could convince Khushi to accept her chotte who has truly revolved as a new person.

Arnav took Anjum near the cot for having their conversation. Anjum clearly was distingushing her chote's features like Avinash the tears began to flow intermittently thinking of Manasi and her last days with Arnav which had made him change upside down.

Anjum: I can't still belive my eyes. The one who used to be hot headed making the whole world dance to your tunes now changed within a period of two weeks? Is that you really?

Arnav had taken the comment with a smirk, a knowing fact yet an unwinding loop. He himself didn't know the reason for his change how could he explain Anjum about this he thought. Spontaneous as it would sound he chuckled at her.

Arnav: I... I don't know...

Anjum was overexcited to see him chuckle which she had rarely seen him doing. She praised all those two good souls who was the reaon why he underwent this transformation.

Anjum : What spell did your mother cast on you that you changed so much? I agree it would be an overexaggeration if I commit the mistake of calling a drastic change as this change was a considerable progression for 6 years by a great person.

As soon as Anjum said those words Arnav's smile faded making him turn his face the other side. He tried to smile through his eyes but the sudden thought of his instilling anger which was the root cause of all his problems made him dull. He soon warded off those thoughts and turned towards Anjum with a sweet smile.

Arnav: So you agree that you can trace some small changes in me which is fair enough. Well I don't know the sole reason. Two weeks wasn't less Ma.. It was more than a lifetime with her. I was unfortunate of not being able to experience it for the major part of my life. Arnav sighed with the disbelief of not able to recover those moments.

The adaptation by his mother's love had changed something else in him too. He didn't talk a word about Khushi when she pointed about her sacrifice of 6 years. Was that the guilt or self punishment that barred him from raising Khushi's topic for the person who would jump at any word talked on Khushi? She didn't wish to dwell more on that discussion at present until he opens up to have a word on Khushi.

Anjum: So what did your mother tell u? Anjum cleared his awkwardness to a fairly comfortable and soothing subject.

Arnav : ah.. from the moment I met her which resulted in many revelations, confessions and acceptance her main aim was to clear off my muddled mind. She understood me in a moment especially after I had narrated about my life.. She made me realise how I had ignored you and papa for the sake of an acute ego arised within me..Instead had I ignored the small jibes and mockery which hit my posessiveness I would have got a better life. I realise now how foolish I was to step away from you both when you were trying to attach me to your life. Though I had known that fact I was still on the impression that I shouldn't snatch that share of love which Akash and Di deserved.Not to ignore another fact of a greedy wish in me for not having someone alone for me which I felt more plausible at that time.

A hearfelt confession which he hadnt made to anyone since his childhood. Anjum couldn't reason him that he wasn't the one to be blamed but the way of perception lacked because of his lonliness. No one could be blamed for the impromptu situations and their consequences.. Its all in the hands of destiny which no one couldn't deny. She made him lie on her lap running her finger through his hair soothing him to cool down his overpowering guilt though she wasn't aware of the fact that now he has conquered all his emotions keeping a check on it.

Arnav : I had been wrong all through out my life Ma.. It was something funny on my part when the demons of anger appeared before Ma when she tried to break my head with her advice. She remained calm and stated one sentence which shook my soul. She said " Is this the way you were behaving with Khushi for 6 odd years ? That girl is something unbelievable. I wouldn't have stayed back for your kind of behaviour." Someone hit a hammer on my head I thought.. If my mother couldn't bear my anger for some time then how tough it would have been for Khushi who had tolerated my anger and physical tortures for these years yet not failing to pamper me, love me with a sweet smile. Arnav stared at the floor as his he felt the tears brimming up.

Arnav: The kind of perseverance Khushi had in changing me was more visible through Ma. Ma didn't leave me alone even for one minute in these 2 weeks poiniting all the mistakes I had committed. Ironically when she blamed me for taunting Khushi she was praising me for my mad love. I too realised it later that I just loved her a way too much..I killed her conscience by this love, this madness, this obsession. I shouldn't have done that. Like what I expected to enjoy my own freedom I hadnt let her enjoy hers rather I did impose my likes believing her to like my choices. I could have got the hint of breaking those shackles if there had been an objection but I didn't see that coming through. Making herself to abide my decisions she made me her slave, a slave to order her command her who craves for her love.

Avinash who had been hearing the conversation came and sat beside Anjum. He sighed with a heavy heart and caressed Arnav's cheeks slowly. They both remained to be silent carefully listening to the monologue.

Arnav : Ma showed be the taste of my own medicine once, a breaking path in my stay with her. When I received love and affection all day her sudden anger brought me back to reality. Her adamant disposition worried me. A part of me felt what kind of behaviour it could be to harass someone whom you loved. It was like a mirror reflection. She had purposely done that to show me the reflection of anger and hatred. Every day and night she used to talk to me, teach me how I had to show my love instead of accumulate within myself, the endearments which would bring a smile in everyone's face just like how u both are happy when I called you ma and papa. I was amazed at myself sometimes thinking why should I hear her out.. the egoistic ASR popping up giving a warning but Dr. helped me to trample that too. His sittings with me and Ma really turned out to be good.

Arnav smiled sitting up facing Avinash and Anjum who were listening with awe.

Arnav : I literally felt I was in a different world and as though I was emerging out of a cocoon.I confrimed with Dr whether I was a real mental patient since childhood. Both of them laughed their heart out hearing out my doubt. Whatever there was that apathetic charateristic in my behaviour towards everyone which has now vanished especially with the interactions of other people here. I don't agree that I did change wholly. I would put it like how Im trying to change myself though I cant assure that my anger and callous nature is fully demolished. I m trying to take control over myself as Ma had adviced me.She had warned me that she wouldn't be surviving for long and to get me prepared for a loss. A tremor felt in me when I thought of losing the my prized posession whom I received after a pretty long time.The words which followed her warning did throw a light on what I was learning from her.

"Beta.. No one and nothing is permanent in this life.. The feeling of posession is just an illusion.. You would regret more in getting attached to it. Make yourself neutral by avoiding any intense attachment and detachment but all your loved ones have to be endowed with the love which they have on you. I am sure I won't be alive for a longer time but promise me that you wont feel any sort of emotional drive after my death which would lead you to the earlier path of supression and dejection. Be calm and remain neutral nevertheless show your emotions too. Im blessed to get you back during the end of my life. You should consider me as an instrument to your transformation. Whenever you feel the emotion driving you crazy just wait for some seconds breath in the thoughts and then act. Don't feel for my loss.You have a good life ahead with someone who is worth of ."

Avinash didn't take much time in comprehending the reason for his calm composure after Manasi's death. He had mistakinly imagined it to be the hard hearted ASR who would pay no heeds to the underlying emotions but now the truth of emerging Arnav as a character just defeated his imaginations. He pulled him for a hug for such a chance he had given himself to fight the past actions.

Avinash: We understood everything.. every thing you wanted to convey to us, to the world. Enough of this mental turmoil. Now we are there for you.. as you said you don't need to feel posessive about us but you are free to love and kill us with your love. We would accept it happily.. We are there for you Chotte .

Arnav was pleased to see Avinash and Anjum accepting him back inspite of his faults. He had nothing in this world to lose for with that one word of apology. Though it had taken years to utter that word, he didn't feel it so horrible as he had felt before. He smiled at his self introspection and comparison within himself which is haunting him before taking a word.

Arnav : Sorry papa.. for all the troubles I had caused to you, mama, Di and everyone.

Avinash laughed at his tears and pressed him tightly on his chest. Anjum too joined in their hug. Avinash took his face from his chest and kissed him on his forehead..

Avinash : I want my smart ASR back now. Please..Avinash pleaded.

Arnav : uh.. don't make such requests.. Are you inviting hell again? Arnav chuckled as he mocked at Avinash.

Avinash : hah.. I don't care about hell now.. I m damn sure that my chotte will be smart and shrewd as ASR and calm and sweet as Arnav according to place and situations. With the realisation and redemption you had for the past weeks there would be no chance of hell being invited Mr.ASR. Avinash prouldly declared with the overpowering confidence on his chotte.

Arnav : But what was done cant be retrieved papa? I had shattered a kind soul who had sacrificed her life.. I had convulsed her trust on my love, I had played with her morality, I had doubted her love with stupid financial reason which came out at the spur of the moment.. I just..

Arnav fisted his palms and banged his hand on the couch.

Anjum: See.. you are again drifting away.. Don't get carried away and pave the way for the demon to enter into you..

Arnav was calming down himself while he heard Anjum talking on his terms of his mother he faced her nodding his head with understanding.

Avinash : I know nothing can be retreived but we can try to make a change chotte.. but this time I am not going to force your or even influence you on this matter. Now you have matured yourself into a perfect man. You know the causes, the actions and reactions. You decide what you should do from your point of view. Keep yourself open to any options as we cant be the one writing fate. Accept whatever comes on your way.. but do give it a try without hurting anyone too. Life also gives some chances Chotte just like how your mother got the chance and I must say she grabbed the chance and did a wonderful compensation for her mistake. Avinash stated as a matter of fact. Arnav noded slightly with understanding each and every point.

Dr.Malhotra entered the room looking at the in depth conversation of the newly bonded parents and son. As his entry diverted the attention Arnav stood up and walked towards him.

Dr : Wow.. Arnav you are just too fast buddy.. Give it a break..

Arnav : Dr. What should I say ? Show my pain of my loss, show my joy of gaining my parents, show my exact feelings which is nothing else than confusions and contradictions.. Arnav asked him with raised eyebrows.

Dr: Nothing.. I want you to keep yourself stick on to the peace at mind which is most needed now.. Hopefully your treatment will end in a week's time.. You can carry on .. You just need to attend the yoga and visit my hospital for a week. You can manage after that.. Doctor suggested after giving an assuring look to Avinash and Anjum.

Arnav : I would like to stay here for another week. It just reminds me of my mother. This ambience has indeed hooked me so much. Arnav requested.

Avinash : Ok doctor. Then myself and Anjum are staying with chotte here. We would go back only with him..Its a turning point in his life, we would like to be with him on this replacing his mother if we can whatever way possible. We don't want to let him go down to despair feeling his mother's loss.

Arnav turned to face Avinash and Anjum who looked at him with compassion.. He looked outside the window later divulging his thought to his conjecture of what he had to do after the week stay.

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Sashi's house was filled with visitors who had come to visit Garima enquiring about her health. After her colleagues had left Garima got a good time to sit and talk with Ashok's parents when Sashi too joined them. Payal and Ashok took time to spend some time in her room as they didn't have much time after Garima's hospitalisation.Khushi wished to isolate herself from the noise sticking on to the kitchen preparing the dinner. After they were home the previous day she had concentrated more on household chores, looking after her mother, cleaning and preparing food for Payal and Sashi. Payal had suggested to take a day off but she dismissed her arguments and insisted to proceed for work. All the while Khushi hadnt talked much but whenever she talked to Garima she spoke with a sweet smile though the spark missing from her smile. As Ashok and his family had stayed back for dinner she volunteered to prepare food while they could spend time with one another. Another reason being she was urging for some solitude. She was luring to get some peace for herself. She didn't know the exact feeling going through her mind. Her messy appearance and tired looks did suggest her inner turmoil which she won't disclose to anyone.

After preparing the batter she began frying jalebis. She didn't know why she chose to fry jalebis to prepare a sweet dish for the dinner. It was an unconscious attempt. The moment she started frying she couldn't resist herself staring at the jalebis. Her mind wandering over the confusions but her heart stood out in the memory of those lovely days..

Flashback

Khushi : ASR stop the car. Stop.. Stop.. Khushi shrieked which jolted Arnav who was driving as faster as he could to reach their guest house. He stopped the car with a sudden brake with a worried expression..

Arnav : What the ? Khushi.. Are you ok? Why did you ask me to stop? Are you not feeling well? Arnav asked with concern checking her face.

Khushi wasn't even listening to his concerns,she removed her belt and jumped out of the car making Arnav angry. He followed her with irritation on not knowing what had happened to her suddenly.She entered into the small shop where an old lady was frying jalebis.Khushi jumped in excitement clutching to Arnav's arms while he sighed thinking how silly it was for her to stop the car and watch how jalebis are prepared.

Arnav : Stop it Khushi.. as if you hadnt seen jalebis.. You eat that almost everyday that you are getting obese!

Khushi hit his chest for teasing him.

Khushi : ASR. Don't tease me ok . Just look at those jalebis getting fried.. Frying jalebis on one hand and eating with the other makes it delicious.. just out of the world.. Hmm.. yummy.. She stared at the frying pan while Arnav smirked at her craziness.

Arnav turned towards the old lady and requested for the batter for Khushi to prepare as he knew she wouldn't easily come out without getting her Jalebi wish turn true.. Anything she would compromise except her craving for jalebis he very well knew that. Khushi was all excited when Arnav requested for the batter and asked her to prepare.. She moved towards the frying pan to fry but halted.

Khushi : hmm. ASR there is something more interesting..What if you prepare this and I have the jalebis fried by the great ASR? Wow.. that would be awsm then.. Khushi asked him with a naughty expression.

Arnav : No..Never.. You finish this fast. Its getting late. He shrugged impatiently.

Khushi : Please ASR.. atleast for me.. Please Laddoo.. She pouted so hardly which made Arnav so irresistable. He smiled at her and took the batter from her hand.

Khushi was so happy to make him fry the jalebi. He stood behind her back making her hold his hand with the batter. She made the swirls of jalebis through the batter. Arnav admired her glimmering eyes and overexcitement while fryin it. He shook his head calling her "Paagal" with a smile. After they took out the jalebi he himself took out one jalebi to feed her which really shocked her. She happily took a bite and started relishing the taste of the jalebi prepared by her ASR..

Khushi : umm. Yummy.. what a taste.. you know this is the best jalebi I have ever tasted.. that's because you prepared this for me. She said hugging him from the side.

Arnav smirked back to tease her a bit. He bend down to her ears and whispered.

Arnav : Now you are making this more complicated by your sounds jalebi.. I would like to taste my jalebi too. Arnav said in his husky voice which melted her.

Khushi understood the intention behind his words when he started nuzzling his nose near her ears. She blushed hardly closing her eyes but their moment snapped out with the voice of the old lady standing beside them shouting at her customer.

Flashback ends.

Khushi closed the stove and moved near the window to breath in fresh air. She was feeling so suffocated thinking about her past.. her tears started to overflow which she stopped with her palms angrily not wishing to shed one drop. She stared at the jalebis made on the tray which brought back all her memories. She threw the prepared jalebis in the dustbin went to take some flour to make halwa..

After dinner Ashok and his parents bid good bye to them and left. Garima was feeling happy and contended after a long time. They had decided to carry on with Payal and Ashok marriage as they didn't wish to extend it anymore.

Garima : Sashiji.. I m very happy that Payal is blessed to get such in laws. I think we can proceed with the dates they suggested.

Khushi was cleaning up the table while Garima and Sashi were engrossed in the marriage talks. She didn't give much attention to the talk and continued her work. Sashi noticed it from the side glance on how she reacted. Even while serving dinner she remained quiet with a faked smile. She talked so less in contrary to her character. They knew the reason behind her attitude. Garima shook him from the reverie when she questioned about the engagement plans.

Payal came behind Khushi after cutting the call with the pretext of helping Khushi. She wanted to convey something more important to Khushi but hesitated for a moment. She gained some strength and started off.

Payal : Khushi.. voh.. She stammered at the start.

Khushi : yea Jiji.. do you want anything.. Khushi asked her without looking at her face concentrating on cleaning the table.

Payal : Anjali di had called me now.. voh' bhai.. I. I mean ASR ke.. Payal tried to utter the next word when Khushi stoped her in the middle with a retort facing her.

Khushi :Jiji.. If you dont mind can you pick up the clothes from the balcony.. I forgot to take them out.

She swiftly moved away avoiding more talks declaring silently as the end of the discussion to her sister. Payal stood her frozen on the spot not able to decipher the reaction of her sister. Khushi was never curt in her replies but the mere mention of ASR made her react in such a way that made sense. She is deeply hurt but what could be the reason she must be avoiding every one was still a mystery.

Sashi and Garima noticed the two sisters' talk which had created an air of awkwardness between the two. If it had been another day with Khushi talking normally she would have jumped up to talk about her ASR. Garima followed Sashi when he stood up from the couch towards the door of their room.She clutched his shoulders when she saw him thinking deeply.

Garima : Sashiji..Worried about Khushi ? Arent you? Her question did make him move towards his room while she followed him again.

Sashi : hmm... its time Garima.. We need to focus on Khushi's life too. We have to provide her a good life. Did you look at her snapping off with the mere mention of his name? That boy had really crushed her heart into pieces. Its difficult for her to retrieve. After you were admitted in the hospital she had gone to meet him which had made this difference. Im sure he must have hurt her.

Garima nodded in understanding. She gritted her teeth thinking about that beast who had stomped her beautiful daughter's life with his dominance. He held her hand in assurance.

Sashi :Garima.. I think we should take a decision now.. We shall get her married to a good boy along with Payal's marriage. She deserves a good life Garima.. Please.. We need to set things right. Sashi pleaded.

Garima :But.. Sashiji.. what if she doesnt agree? I mean just now she broke up from her relationship. She was so much obsessed with him and out of the blue if we ask her to get married to another man I dont think she will agree. Payal's marriage has already been fixed. How can we find another groom within this less time?Garima raised her concerns though she wished for a good life for Khushi as a mother she could understand her daughter's love.

Sashi : I have a plan.. Dont worry about that.. Just be with me..and persuading her for the marriage just leave it to me.. I shall manage.. Dont take stress on that. Sashi assured her with the words.

Garima was a bit apprehensive of the idea still she couldnt do better than agree to what Sashi had decided afteral Sashi was the head of the family. If he had taken a proper decision it would be for the good of their daughter.

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Khushi finished her work and entered her room. Payal was waiting with bated breath to disclose the information about Arnav. When she saw her enter the room Payal rushed to her. Khushi didnt pay attention and continued to change her clothes. Payal became restless when her sister was continuing to remove the quilt and trying to sleep on her bed. Payal stopped her by holding her arms through force as an action to stop and listen to what she is trying to convey.

Khushi : What do you want Jiji? Why are you forcibly holding by arms? Khushi looked at Payal with disbelief.

Payal: Dont you understand that Im trying to convey something ? Why are you pretending as if you dont know anything ? What the hell has gone wrong with you ? You appear yourself like a zombie lost in some world on one hand and on the other you dont just listen to what Im trying to tell you about Bhai. Payal yelled at Khushi in one go.

Khushi smiled seeing this impatient jiji's face she hasnt witnessed before.

Khushi : You were the only one left behind to shout at me.. Come on vent out your anger.. Im all in for it. Khushi replied as if she was not able to fight back to anyone losing all courage and energy.

Payal hugged her with her might not able to see the vulnerable Khushi.. She hadnt faced a situation where Khushi was left alone. She always had the strength of her ASR. But now the same strength had made her weak.

Payal :Sorry Khushi.. I didnt mean to hurt you.. Please understand.. I was just trying to convey the news about bhai.. He needs you Khushi...

Khushi broke the hug to look at her eyes. Sashi who entered their room at the moment saw Payal trying to convey something to Khushi about Arnav.

Sashi : Khushi beta.. your amma wants you to accompany her tonite. She feels you would be a better person to take care of her than me who would be slepping like a dead soul. He talked casually interrupting their talk but not even trying to show his dislike in the matter. Khushi returned a weak smile thinking her father was teasing the mother daughter affection.

Khushi left the room with her quilt while Sashi turned towards Payal.

Sashi : Payal beta I have talked to your office.. You are on leave from tomorrow for one month. Sashi stated firmly.

Payal : One month? But why papa? Where are we going? Payal got confused with the sudden shock.

Sashi : Lucknow.. to your daadi's house.. Your marriage will be held in Lucknow at your daadi's house. I cant bring her to Delhi for the marriage.. You know her.. She wants to conduct this marriage in her house.. So we are leaving tomorrow will be returning back only after your marriage. I have talked about this to Ashok's parents as well. Sashi explained patiently.

Payal : But papa Khushi.. voh.. bhai. Had..Payal tried to intervene.

Sashi : Enough beta.. its time to sleep. We shall talk about it later. It would be good if you dont talk to Khushi about him anymore. If you really want to see me and your mother happy then promise me that you wont talk to her about him. Sashi said in finalty. He was getting the glimpses of what would happen if Payal had talked about Arnav to her. It would disrupt the whole family again which he isnt going to let happen anymore. He had lost control once but this time he was firm in his resolve to take care of his children to protect them from evil.

Payal was flustered hearing her father talk with so much firmness. She nodded in understanding as there was nothing more than her parents and Khushi in her life. She had just received the news of her bhai's mother's death and his repentance. How far he has changed how true his repentance would affect her sister's life was still a question mark. She indulged in the thoughts for the entire night.. finally decided not to risk her sister's life again trusting ASR.

TO be continued..

PART 18 B to come soon.. may be before FYF and PMIJ.. 😉

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Loved d update

Eeeppp what an update just amazingly written the way you portrayed arnav and his parents convostion was just beautiful feel
Feel sorry for both arnav and Khushi because arnav is regrateing what he has done to Khushi in the past as for Khushi she is so numb to even react on what happened
Update soon 👏

UnRES

I'm third Akka 😃

No words ...
How many times do you want me to day awesome ???

It was amazing yet how many times to I say this?
Therefore no words to appreciate your update anymore

I'm happy for Arnav's change and his confused state is killing me (whether he should be sad or happy)
He himself thinking he is mental 😲

I loved the way Avinash was showing a fathers love and his confidence of Arnav's to manage things being ASR and soft Arnav with everyone accordingly for the situations

& Khushi broken is so sad ... She is hurt by her strength and is weak ..
Wouldn't she be back to normal unless her strength gives her strength and support her?

(Akka you meant teasing her on the jalebi flashback... Matividuga then scrap me. So I can edit this comment)

Now Shashi is planning something very big... Will he find a good groom for Khushi in a short period ?
& that promise taken by Shashi is no good ... Coz if Payal says the truth Khushi will go and there she will see the new Arnav
& the lovers could give their love a second chance and start a fresh & I'm sure Arnav will make sure to being back the old Khushi and not ever hurt again NEVER.


It was superb and Akka I'm happy to know this comes before but I wish some of the other updates come with part B too

Thanks for the update in your hectic schedule ...

Love you dammit

Unres for broken.silence



Umm hey!! My comment.

Awesome update.
Loved it.
It's good to see Arnav all changed..
Glad to see Abhinash and Anjum showering him with their love. It was really sweet of them to decide to stay there with Arnav in order to help him in this turning point of this life.
The little flashback was cute.. I so wish to see Arnav and Khushi together and happy soon..
Poor Khushi.. Feel realy bad for her.. She's really broken and with her strenght, ASR being away from her had made things more worst...
Why didn't anyone let Payal compete what she was saying?? Khushi and Sashi should have atleast heard what she was saying..
The Guptas are going to Lucknow?? And Garima and Sashi planning to get Khushi married with someone of their choice??
Well scared for the next part..
Waiting for it alrweady..
Continue soon.

And thankyou once again for ressing.. :)