SwaRon OS : First And Last Love replies-pg4 onward

It has been months I had graduated now but in still search of a job. Getting 1 in New York was definitely not one of an easy task. I had given a number of interviews recently but was still to get response. I should be glad that my dad is there with me in these hard days. He is truly a god for me.

Few Days passed and I was still in search of a job. It was a boring Sunday morning and I had nothing to do. My house was in a mess but I was in no mood to clean it. I just decided to go in for stroll at the nearby park. Maybe that just calms me a down a little. I changed into my tracks from those Mickey Mouse boxers I was wearing. I must say he is one of my favorite cartoon character but only after Tom and Jerry. I wear my shoes and keeping my phone and wallet in my pocket and I leave. But my bad luck, as I reach the park I see a notice put up there. The park was closed due to some maintenance work. Damn! I asked the guard if there is any park close by. He tells me about one that is a 15 minutes drive form my place. As if I didn't know about that. Anyways with no more options left, I go up to my house get my keys and drive it to the close by park.

The girl I saw that day, her eyes, her lips, her pink flushed cheeks, I remember it all. I want to know about her, where she lives, what does she do, everything possible. It seemed like one hell of a task. I was strolling around the park in my own little world when suddenly I just bumped into something. I look down only to see a little girl looking at me with moist eyes. Her ice cream was there on the floor and tears were just about to make its way

" hey um baby. I'm, soo sorry for dropping ure ice cream. Look, please don't cry. Please"

But she wasn't listening to me. It was after all I suppose her favorite ice cream that had dropped. She wasn't going to forgive me so easily. She cried even more loudly than before. I scanned through the park with a hope still left, maybe I just find her mother. But she was to be found nowhere.

" baby ill get you a new ice-cream. Now please stop crying."

And there I saw the crocodile tears suddenly vanishing away. She was one smart girl who knew her way out. We both go to the ice-cream vendor and she gets herself her favorite ice cream. So yeah, I was right, it was her favorite. She signals me to bend downstairs, I just move my head asking why to which she just again signals to come down. I bend a little and she places a soft peck on my cheek.

" Thank You Uncle. You are very sweet"

With this she runs off to some corner. She was definitely one of the most adorable children I've ever met. Though I'm not very fond of children but today this girl changed quite a bit of my perception. She was really one cute child. But still I maintain they can get annoying at times.

I was tired. I went and sat on one of the closest benches I could spot. I took out my phone and start going through my mails. Though I did receive some response asking me to come for another interview but none of them looked appealing. Either it didn't have the right salary or either it had the wrong terms. I decided to go back home now. Just wen I was about to leave I felt someone pulling my trousers. I look down only to find that same little girl I met 15 mins back. But she was not alone, she was with someone, her mother I suppose. I look up to only find that same young girl I had seen outside the mall the every other day. My happiness knew no bounds. I Finally, finally I found her. I was soo happy.

" umm I am extremely sorry to suddenly barge in like this but I just came down to say a thanks. Seems my daughter really liked you that's why she came running to me and just bought me here"

" Daughter? She is ure daughter?

" umm yaa, why? Any problem"

"No-no I was just generally asking. You look quite young to have one. "

" Young? I am 27. Having a 5 year old daughter at this age, I don't think its being young"

" Definitely not. But generally today you get too see those independent women who only like to marry after the age of 30 and have children after 35 and all of that kind. "

" Yeahh you do find these people very often these days but im not of that kind. And who said if I have a daughter I cant be independent? I go to office, I earn, I spend. I live life just like 1 normal girl does"

" That's amazing. Ure definitely one inspiration for all the women out here"

" Hmm thanks I suppose"

While those 2 were having their own little conversation, the little girl was just staring at the two when suddenly someone pushed her. She lost her balance an the ice-cream again fell again but this time it was on swayams shirt

"I am soo sorry uncle"

" Its ok baby. Ill go home and clean it"

" You stay close by?" her mother asked

" No but just a 15minute drive from here"

" Noo then you please come with me to my house. The maid will clean ure shirt and then you drive back home."

" Thanks maam for the help but I think its cool. Ill be okay"

" hey please don't say no. I will feel awkward. pleasee"

" fine, if you insist"

We both walked it down from the park to her house. Oh yes, I still didn't ask her her name. but 27, I mean 27! I can't believe she is married. She is almost 8 years older than me. Damn, why does she have to look so stunning. The small conversation we shared just showed how mature she was, her elegance, her nature, it just made me fall in love with her more and more. We reached her house and we went upstairs.

" Umm I dont think you would like wearing a bathrobe so I can just lend you one of my dad shirts for a while" she said it with a smirk on her face

" Umm I understand ure possessiveness with ure husband but now even his clothes. Nott badd"

" Shutt upp . I don't have a husband"

" im soo sorry. I didnt know'

"hahah no, I mean im not married. Not married and a widow, weird. Huh?"

" Umm yes, you just made me feel like a fool"

"I didn't really have any intentions to"

" um yaa chill, I was just kidding. By the way if you could lend me a shirt for a while I could just change?"

" oh ya im so sorry I totally forgot"

She took me to one of the rooms, opened the cupboard and handed me a shirt. I changed into the new one and gave my previous one to the maid. I waited for some 10 minutes at the sofa. The maid again came back with a t-shirt that was totally clean now. I thanked her and again went back to the room to change back. I asked the maid where the girl was and she just showed me a room. I went inside and saw the little girl was sleeping and beside her was her mother. She was busy in her thoughts as if something was troubling her. Her eyes were looking little swollen as if they were tired of shedding tears. Her face didn't have the same little glow I had seen the other day. What could have possible happened in these past 20 minutes. While I was thinking all this I didn't realize that by mistake and I moved a table. She suddenly turned around and found my there. She wiped her tears and took me outside the room.

" I hope its clean now"

" Yaa, its totally perfect now. Thanks"

" Ure certainly welcome. " she said with a fake though pleasant smile

" Umm I think I shall take a leave"

" Let me just drop you till ure car"

" No that's totally fine, ill manage"

" Ok then see you. It was definitely a pleasure meeting you"

" The pleasure is all mine. By the way I didn't get ure name"

" Im Sharon Raiprakash, and ure name?"

" Swayam Shekhwat, nice meeting you"

It had been 4 months since that day. Sharon and me have grown extremely close, and my love for her grew more and more. But I knew, I obviously couldn't tell her. Her being almost 8 years older to me, she would never accept it. And she even had a daughter. Okay not exactly her daughter but still it was definitely a bad idea. Atleast like this, if not her love I atleast had her friendship. We had actually become the best of friends. We started sharing everything. I still remember the 1^st time she opened up towards me. What she said did leave me in a state of shock

" Swayam im sure you must be thinking what sort of a girl I am. Not married but still have a daughter"

" ofcourse not Sharon. Ure my bestfriend, I can never think of you like that. And I know it was never ure fault, the circumstances must have just been like that"

" Swayam please let me complete. Tanya is not my daughter; she is Nishas daughter, my elder sister. Didi and jiju, they both met with an accident when Tanya was just 2 years old. Their last day, Didi gave me the responsibility of Tanya. She thought I was the only one she could rely on. And hence since that day I became Tanya's mother. She is not my niece or my relative! she is my daughter. "

" Sharon ure truly the best sister one can get. If someone actually looks at the relationship you and Tanya, no one can say that you aren't actually her mother"

" Swayam ive still not completed. Tanya wasn't a normal child. She developed cancer at a very young age. She was detected with cancer just before 2 months of Didis death. That's why she could only depend upon me. The doctor said her cancer wasn't curable. Just 3 or 4 years are all she has. Right now, I don't know. The doctor has said I can loose her any moment. These are just her last few days. I didn't know how to take care of her but I had my parents. They both taught me how to take care of a child. They showed me and taught me what responsibly was. Today what I am is all because of them. But again 2 years back Dad feel ill and died. Mom couldn't take the news, she died with a heart attack. That was the end of my world. And today when I know I am gonna loose Tanya I feel shattered. Whenever I see her sleeping beside ne, all these memories start playing infront of me. I feel as if im all alone, alone in this big world where I have no one with me"

" Sharonnn please don't say that. You will always have me, beside you, forever. Sharon friendship is not just a bond of 1 year, 2 years or 3 years, it's a bond of lifetime, bond that stays with you forever. It is one of the most special bonds people share. So please don't ever say that ure alone. Get it!" I gently wiped her tears and put my hand over hers assuring her ill always be there for her. We were in Sharons garden that time. I dropped her inside just spoke with her for sometime and left

This was the actual beginning of our friendship. I never knew that one day would even come when we would be so close. Everyday I try to push my love somewhere but it just doesn't happen. Life can get too complicated at times

I was just lying down idly on my bed when suddenly my phone started ringing. I see the caller Id and it said Sharon. My lips automatically carve into a smile looking at her name. Guess this effect will last life long.

" Hey bestie. Temme"

" Swayam, Glory Hospital right now"

" but Sharon"

before i had the time to respond she had cut the phone. Shitt! I hope it wasn't what I was thinking. Not bothered about the traffic rules I drove my car at the fastest speed possible. After a 5-minute drive I get down form my car and rush towards the reception. She tells me the patients room and I reach. There I see Sharon sitting at one corner. Tension evident all over her face and her eyes completely moist. Tears were making out of her eyes. I go there and give her a tight hug

" Sharon im there for you, always.r emember? "

Suddenly when we see the doctor coming towards us we part away

" im sorry to say MS. Raiprakash but Tanya is no more. " With this he leaves

Sharon broke down. She fell on the floor. Not able to control herself she started crying. Pouring all her sorrows out she started wheezing badly.

" Sharon im there for you please don't cry"

I engulfed her into another hug promising her I wont ever let go off this bond easily. Assuring her I will be always there for her. Assuring her that our friendship will last for eternity. I loved her but I realized being friends would just benefit the 2 of us. That day I promised myself I wouldn't ever let my feelings for Sharon take over our friendship. And 1 promise that was left was, I will never fall in love again!