Just a heads up, this will be APOV so if you read Tanveer as a positive person then don't throw tomatoes at me as that is how Asad sees tanveer. he thinks she can give even a nun a run for her money, err, virtue!🤢
The woman I'll ever love
My happiness knew no bounds today. I never thought Zoya would come back to me, I never thought she would be willing to forgive me for what I did to her. I always knew she was very forgiving but I never knew she would forgive me for my crime. All I had wanted was a second chance, a chance to rectify my mistake, a chance to win her back, a chance to tell her, to show her how much I love her and today when I reached home, there she was, willing to give me that one chance I had wished for. There she was in that stunning orange and green bridal wear looking absolutely ethereal, looking like the Zoya I knew with that breath-taking dimpled smile of hers. The smile that I so adored, the smile that had vanished because of me. She was right there, with open arms ready to take me as her husband even after everything I did to her, she was ready to forgive and forget that fateful night that changed our lives. Ammi and Najma pleaded for me to accept her as my wife, they didn't even need to plead, I had already accepted her as my wife on the day we were supposed to get married, there was no other woman I'd rather be with, no other woman I'd marry. I smiled through my tears and nodded. I could see that beautiful dimpled-smile broadening on her face, I could hear najma's squeals and I could see ammi's relief and happiness. She asked me to go change for the wedding and I went inside me room.
But, alas! I am never supposed to be happy in my life, am I? Just when I thought all my dreams were going to come true Tanveer's words shattered them into a million thousand pieces. I felt the ground slip beneath me. What was I supposed to do now? My vision blurred as tears formed in my eyes. I didn't think I had the energy to do or say anything, all I wanted to do was lock myself in my room and cry, cry for my ill-fated life, cry for losing my love yet again. I had just got her back, how would I let her go? How will I survive? I don't want to be the same Asad I was in the last month, I don't want to go through the same torture again. I don't think I could live if I lost her again, but it was not in my hands anymore. My second chance had slipped out of my hand, everything was slipping out of my hand.
Tanveer was crying silently, her back towards me. It wasn't her fault at all, I had ruined her life, I ruined Zoya's life, I ruined my life. I was to be blamed for everything. I knew I should be consoling Tanveer but I felt anger towards her even though I knew I shouldn't. She was my best friend! Why didn't she stop me? Why did she let that happen? I was not in my senses but she was, why didn't she try to knock some sense into me? Why? I closed my eyes and let the tears flow, it wasn't the poor girl's mistake, it was mine and I would correct it. I ruined her life and I will take her responsibility and to do that I had no other option but to let Zoya go, even if it meant living the life a zombie for the rest of my life. Zoya deserved better. She deserved a man who would love her and keep her happy, a man who would never hurt her, who would always manage to keep that smile intact, a man who would never make her cry, a man who would love her just the way she deserved. Unfortunately I was not that man. She would only get hurt with me.
In a daze I made my way towards the living room, I saw Zoya sitting on the other side of the curtain waiting for me. Through the translucent curtain I could see her smile and I felt a thousand daggers piercing my heart. I was again going to be the reason for her tears. I should be punished for doing this to her. Living a life without Zoya is what I deserve. I walked towards her, took her hand in mine and led her outside. I ignored her questioning gaze and ammi's voice calling out to me. I held her hand tight, memorizing the print of her hand in my mind as memories will be all that'll be left with me. I took her towards our bench, the place where we shared our secrets and emotions, the place where we saw each other break down, the place where we shared endless cups of coffee, the place where we pleased each other whenever the other was unhappy or down. Tonight, the very same place was going to be the place where I'll break her heart, and even mine. The sky and the stars who had seen so many happy memories will now witness a heartbreaking memory. She stood there in front of me with the same questioning look. I swallowed the huge lump in my throat and said in a voice that sounded so alien even to my own ears,
"Tanveer is pregnant. With my child."
I saw her eyes widened in shock. And with that I broke the heart of the woman I love, the only woman I'll ever love.
THE END
A/N – This drabble/OS (since its more than 900 words) is because I'm way too frustrated with the track and Friday's episode. If gul has no intention of getting them married then why give us the lollipop of their wedding every time? Why cant she just give us JaaNu meow pe zor nahi instead of mitwa so that I can puke and stop watching the serial altogether. So I made this drabble because I needed to get all my emotions out.
@ankie – Awwlliiiee Asad :'(
Sadie!😊
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